Dear iDiary...

dreams

2012-02-02T09:58:00.002-10:00

happy february!

the month has gone by so quickly! time needs to wait for me to catch up! valentine's day is around the corner and so is the super bowl! i hope i can win my $15 that i have down on the pats. kevin, you're going down with your $5. kthx. also up on the feb agenda is the GAR. i'm so out of shape in running that it's making me a bit nervous. i hope all the cardio i've been doing at the gym will help me in the end.

koko head has been the highlight of my week. i went THREE times in three days. that's the most i've ever done it but that's because people wanted to go with me on their first time ;) i think i'm an awesome motivator...i don't give up on people even if it takes us 3 hours to go up and down. tanning time for me :P

i applied for hawaiian airlines...again. this time i am extremely nervous, i think i really want it badly. i'm also considering applying for the firefighter position that recently opened up. as i was telling my coworker, i believe i have a better chance at getting into the fire dept. than i do at hawaiian mostly due to workplace diversity lol. times like these, shades are necessary because the future is looking bright :)

PS: thanks leon for the hunger games recommendation. i'm really into it although it took me about two weeks to read six chapters lol.

escapee!

2012-01-12T14:57:00.002-10:00

holy crap, i had no idea my dad was so crazy. kuakina hospital finally sent him to a nursing home on the pali and it seemed like a nice place. he had his own room and private bathroom. three meals a day and multiple activities throughout the day, sounds pretty sweet for an oldie. well, after we all left, i got a call from the head nurse that my dad had tried to escape!!! WTF. well, he was being so annoying and wild, he broke a window and they had no choice but to kick him out. GG father.

during that time, i had to meet an attorney regarding my dad's medicaid qualifications and the reverse mortgage and how to be able to keep the apartment at least. shit, lawyers are fucken expensive. just for the process of transferring deeds, the power of attorneys, medicaid forms and etc will cost a flat rate of $15,000. YES, FIFTEEN GRAND!!! like, seriously, wtf. but this could go in our favor in the end since they practically have a 100% success rate with medicaid but now the only challenge is getting my dad on board. the lawyer was so great at explaining everything and i feel so much more educated in this and it gave me peace of mind knowing how to overcome these challenges. besides the hurdle of getting my dad coverage, i have to worry about how the heck am i gonna pay off the apartment once my dad goes into a home....whenever that would be. i found out he's actually not opposed to the thought of a nursing home but just that particular one. i don't understand because my aunty is staying at their sister location so they're pretty much the same company. weird.

the situation is much more complicated that i could express into words but i'm confident things will work itself out. this is a great learning experience but it sucks how it's happening and it's so early on.

no one ever said life is easy...

hardest thing

2012-01-09T16:02:00.002-10:00

i feel that it's not right to be making such decisions at the age i'm at. i'm too young and inexperienced to understand what is going on. i've never felt so lost and helpless in so long. my dad's been the hospital for almost a week now and it doesn't seem like he will be going home anytime soon. the best we could do is send him to a nursing home but sooner or later, we have to find solutions to pay for it. like most people, my dad didn't plan for the long term and ended up screwing himself over with the reverse mortgage. because of this, i have to go to lawyers and whatnot to figure out a plan. i was listening intently to my cousin explain to me the process and what i would need to do and it was just so overwhelming. i don't know all of these forms and what kind of information is important or not.

for now, i'm just trying to gather my thoughts and move on. i will figure something out...life tends to fall into place. regardless, i'm glad my dad is doing better but it's still hard to tell if his health will deteriorate further. scary stuff.

out with the old and in with the new

2012-01-05T09:33:00.002-10:00

happy new year 2012!!!

this is year is gonna be epic! 2011 went by so fast, especially the later half of the year. so far, not much has happened this year except i got to hang out with awesome people! it's so nice to see so many people back from the mainland, just like the good old days.

i ordered my new phone online and i'm excited to get it soon. i'm also gonna exchange this gift for a watch that counts my calories and monitors my heart. i really think i had the best christmas ever even though i spent it working lol.

finally, i found a new song that's worthy to be placed on my blog. the green - come in feat. jacob hemphill of SOJA. i'm obsessed with this song lol.

last holiday

2011-12-31T09:45:00.002-10:00

this year's holiday festivities have been awesome! i loved that i was able to get everything i wanted but mostly, being blessed for things i already have such as a great family and amazing friends. the new year is fast approaching and today is the last day to make 2011 count! work has been hectic and i think i may have caught a cold but i must chug on nonetheless! i'm excited to see where 2012 takes me as there are so many paths and turns ahead of me.

next year, i plan to run/finish my first marathon. it's definitely a feat but i can do it! my goal for it was to do it before 30, i'm excited to cross one more thing off my to-do before 30 list! also on the agenda is GAR and warrior dash. i hope to fit in pineapple run and monster dash into the year too. ahhh! so excited for these races :)

let's recap 2011!

anasia's. good times there. met some of the greatest people.
drunken debaucheries at bar 35 and all over! i can't remember much of those...
completing the GAR and pineapple run 2011!
desire to change my body and lifestyle. worked out consistently this year was great!
my across the continent trip. thank you those who made it happen and for taking care
new-found desire for cooking. oh, the things you can make with some raw ingredients
hawaiian airlines. an interview experience i'll never forget.
new job at the sheraton waikiki. best decision i made all year long. highly DON'T regret it
juggling.

sweet ride

2011-12-14T09:31:00.000-10:00

i am driving a sweet dodge charger now. it's the most awesomest batmobile type of vehicle ever! too bad that car is long as hell...longer than my crv. it's so sexy on the inside because it turns blue! so awesome...sigh..

Christmas is around the corner and i have yet to start my shopping!! i have no idea what to get people and it's making me nervous. i would feel like a total douche if they got me nice things and i couldnt live up to it. i'm also so poor as well. i really need to watch my spendings because my credit card bill is out of control! someone please help me...

lessons

2011-12-07T10:59:00.003-10:00

i'm finally getting my car fixed! the appraisal for the damages was over $900...yowza! i was praying that the other guy wouldn't deny hitting my car because common sense and all evidence i have provided points all fingers at him. luckily, mr. sargent man accepted all responsibilities like a real boy. good job. next week monday i take my baby in to get repaired...until then, i get to drive a sweet rental car. woot woot.

the biggest lesson i learned from this ordeal is to stop putting shit off and always get a police report regardless of how minor the damages may seem. i should have done the public a favor by making sure that guy didn't drive on the streets drunk by calling the cops so that was my bad.

as far as hawaiian airlines goes, i got the boot after round 1. i'm not as disappointed as the first time because i really love my job at the hotel so no losses for me. at least i have the chance to run the GAR and warrior dash! i've decided i will run the marathon next year. i've never felt so motivated for my health and fitness. i want to go to the gym today but my bathroom tub is clogged...gross.

i need to get a new phone and plan soon. iphone 4s, htc amaze, or samsung galaxy 2?! decisions. i kinda wanna stick with tmobile but whatevers...siri is kinda calling my name.

chilly

2011-12-01T14:15:00.003-10:00

happy december!!!

can you believe the year has passed?!?! holy moly, this has been a crazy year and i loved every moment of it! no regrets! chee!

it's starting to get chilly too. not sure if i'm really diggin' it because it's hawaii and it should never be cold but it's winter weather so i should accept it. gotta get my christmas shopping on soon!

so i was listening to sasha's ipod and i came across this song. it's seriously the best thing i've heard in awhile. taio cruz - "best girl" it's old but it's good :)

put it off

2011-11-26T10:33:00.002-10:00

i realize i've been putting off a lot of responsibilities lately. these are important stuff i should attend to but i'll put them in my pocket and save them for a rainy day. calling USAA and geico regarding what happened to my car should have been top priority but i'm like whatevers about it. ughh, what's wrong with me?! i need to make my car payment, pay for parking, sign up for great aloha run and warrior dash. holy crap, where is all my money going?! i spent a butt ton of money on my credit card bill lately and my checkings account went down down down :(

speaking of money, i miss having cash on hand at all times. waiting every two weeks for my paychecks might not cut it for me. however, i find myself charging things a lot lately because of my big girl's credit card. come to think of it, i'm not sure if that's always a good thing. i went from having $1 in rewards to $114 in less than a month. if you can imagine the caliber of my spending...yeah, it's not a pretty sight. i've also been saving a lot of money by eating at work. i love my job because they feed me well; our cafeteria is awesome!

cell phone: i miss my smartphone dearly. i'm having yelp check-in withdrawals. no lie, it's sad.

werk it

2011-11-23T13:01:00.002-10:00

so i really don't think i work that much but it definitely feels like i do. i'm not sure what about it but i feel like i'm always at work. it's probably because i'm easily suckered into working split shifts...although only 8 hours total, spans a total of 12 hours of my life. the early mornings doesn't really help much either. so far, work at the sheraton has been swell, i get compliments from the servers a lot so it really helps my morale. i still think i'm getting fat but my savings from not eating out so often is great.

round two for my attempts for hawaiian airlines start 12/5. if i make it through, i wont know of the results until the day after christmas. i love how they ruin good moods that way. on my bday, the day after christmas, the usual. i'm scared of disappointment because i made it so far the last round that if i don't do as well this time, i will be very sad. i shall keep trying regardless :)

i got into an accident the other day...totally wasn't my fault but my beautiful car is all maimed now. it breaks my heart because it's my baby that's all scratched and damaged. fucken military white trash piece of shit cunt face! i called my insurance and they said i have to pay a deductible regardless and that's like $500! i'm putting off on taking action until i could figure it out. sigh, it's so depressing to think about.

thanksgiving is tomorrow and it's gonna be the second double shift of the week. i love to work apparently. work is taking over my life. someone send me a turkey dinner plate to the airport and a stiff drink, thanks.

straight up

2011-11-12T19:11:00.002-10:00

apec has been nuts! today, i got diverted twice on the road, car violated by being searched, running late for work, and being irritated by chinese nationals. holy crap the chinese...i've never been more shame to be chinese after dealing with those funkers. they act like they own the place. wtf. also, what did you know, the apec isn't bringing as much money as anticipated. go figure.

work has been great, i'm truly enjoying it but my fears of getting fat is real. free food is dangerous...especially if it's delicious. i feel so lame for not going out anymore because i work so damn much. it's not even like i work THAT much but it's everyday that i have to be somewhere. i work all the hours people do not work so it gives off the illusion that i am working a lot.

is this what a downward spiral feel like? my life is so complicated and i am torn. i hate feelings. that new j cole song "work out" reminds me of my life...sorta. haha or maybe it's the paula abdul version of that song "straight up."

obsession

2011-11-02T13:05:00.002-10:00

happy november!!!

it's been 3 days of training for my new job at the sheraton. waking up and getting to work before the sunrises is brutal. i do like it because i feel so productive after getting stuff accomplished! the job has it's challenges and i'm working with big time older timers...like people working since the opening of the sheraton waikiki. those guys have been working twice as long as i've been alive! geez! it's been good so far and everyone has been friendly towards me so it's been fine :)

i think working out is an obsession. i was looking at the wall of achievements at 24 hour fitness kapiolani and it's kinda gross looking at some of those bodies...it doesn't look healthy. those people have serious body image issues. i think if people over-do working out, it's just bad mentally because they cannot see how perfect they are already. well, i can't say much because i'm one of those people. i'll never have the perfect body i've always wanted without plastic surgery so i'll accepted. my body, my accomplishments and i'm proud of it!

1, 2, 3, 4

2011-10-21T11:51:00.003-10:00

i was beyond exhausted last night. i skipped going to the gym so i could get some rest but i ended up being wide awake counting sheep at 4 in the morning. so much is going on in my life at the moment and it's exhausting because my mind could not stop racing. it's distracting. i think i'm losing my mind, literally!

if you didn't know, i put in my two weeks at the bar last week. three more shifts to go! i've never been more excited :D i'm also excited to start my new job but that got me reconsidering applying for hawaiian airlines. what?! to follow my dreams to stay with what is safe for now??? i feel like my life is slowly falling into place but i'm torn. this entire month have been so hectic but that's what life's about!

to end this post, i read a bumper sticker to live by...

"shut up & love life!"

psyched

2011-10-20T06:10:00.002-10:00

today, i start my new job at the sheraton. it's a 10+ hour long orientation and unfortunately, i work at the airport almost immediately afterward. i think i psyched myself out so much for it i couldn't sleep. being sleep deprived all of yesterday didn't really help my case. sigh. here's to a 15 hour work day. i need a drink after this hehe

life's regrets

2011-10-01T19:38:00.003-10:00

happy october!

i feel like crap. it's pretty amazing how fast moods can change. over the week, i was flying around cloud 9 and just after my final interview, i've been feeling like death. drinking away one's sorrows does not do anything. it feels great at the time being but the next morning when the fuzziness subsides, reality hits. nothing's changed except your wallet is probably lighter. each and every time i recall friday afternoon, i get sick to my stomach. i'm not sure of the outcome but whatever it may be, i'm happy to have made it so far into the interview process. positive thinking!!!

on other news, i got hired at the sheraton to be a hostess at their buffet. i think it's a good opportunity and i will seize it. although money-wise, it's not the greatest because it's not a full time job, it will be better than working for more without any benefits, right?!

thankful

2011-09-29T16:44:00.002-10:00

a million thank you's to those who had supported me throughout my entire job hunt ordeal. i can't believe i made it so far into the interview process for hawaiian airlines. when i got my first invitation, i almost fell to the ground with excitement. i believe in the law of the universe and if you truly want something badly enough, it will come. i want this bad. this has been the most stressful week of the year with nonstop interviews and preparation. this will make 5 outings for two places this week. i haven't been this stressed since college! exhaustion is an understatement but the show goes on. i can do it!!!!

blessings in disguise

2011-09-21T10:50:00.002-10:00

i came to realize that everyone that i have met in my life have been a blessing. some people are truly assets to my life while others not so much but hey, they all teach me something. i feel so blessed to know so many fabulous people. life is so wonderful. i don't understand how some people could be so introverted?! get out there and meet people! you never know who you will come across or what they can help you with later in life. whenever i go out with others, i'm told how popular i am because i usually run into someone. i'm far from popular, i just refuse to live under a rock. it's hawaii, it's really who you know and i make the most of that situation.

irraz

2011-09-11T12:05:00.002-10:00

it amazes me how some people have the ability to piss me off. everyone say it's stupid people but really, they can't help being stupid so i let them go. i'm such an easy going person and i can kinda go with everyone's flow and get a long but just some people are just so stubborn, so one-track minded it's ridiculous.

i really dislike people who think it's "my way or the highway" to get things done. things and times change and it doesn't hurt to get a suggestion in time to time. business owners/bosses/managers of the sort should take a class on how to not make people feel like shit before they open shop.

there's so much more i can whine and complain about but i'll take it with a grain of salt and forget about it. maybe some people can't change and they'll forever be sour apples all their lives. shows what kind of people they truly are.

september

2011-09-10T13:02:00.005-10:00

happy september!

yes, i am late on the blogs but whatevers. not much has been going on except for me slacking off at the gym and it shows. i've been spending copious amounts of money and this shiz has got to stop! i'm broker by the day and it sucks. today, i've finally finished water for elephants and it was a great book. i love how vivid the writer was so i was pretty much coming up with my own movie. i want to watch the actual movie to compare because certain parts i could not picture because i don't know circuses and trains lol.

i bought the groupon for gyukaku. i think groupon knew i was craving that place for a while and this was a godsend. i'm so excited to go but unfortunately, it's all the way in kaneohe because the kapiolani location was sold out and waikiki is a pain in the ass to deal with...meh.

kesha isn't my favorite artist of all time but i do love this song! it's called the harold song. i heard it while doing some crazy retail therapy and it was stuck in my head ever since <3

paramore

2011-08-26T18:05:00.002-10:00

the paramore concert was the best worst concert ever! here's why

BEST:

paramore is AMAZING live. haley's voice is so awesome
hellogoodbye!
two proposals happened! so cute. i forgive that moke guy for being so into a rock show and shoving me around
it was just plain awesome :)

WORST:

it was packed...like beyond safe packed. it was a slip and slide in there with all that sweat...hot (literally)
i stood behind a guy without a shirt...let's just say it was pretty nasty..
the lines were messed up...allison and i stood in the 20 yrs and under line for awhile before realizing there was a 21+ line with practically no line. also, there was a 21+ section where it was less packed...gg bamp projects for being so unclear!

SIDE BAR: why is my phone restarting by itself?! is it because i dropped it so much? damn.

imma sleep machine

2011-08-23T13:12:00.002-10:00

okay, i don't know what is going on but i feel that i am turning into a marathon sleeper. this is not good for my metabolism or well being to be sleeping upwards of 10-12 hours daily T_T. i think i justify it because i tend to wake up early to tend to havoc's needs and pass back out until close to noon. i feel like a phattie.

look-a-likes

2011-08-19T05:46:00.003-10:00

is it weird for me to have a stronger fondness for a person that resembles/reminds me of someone i liked?! there are a few guys that just kinda look and kinda acted like former crushes and i instantly have an affinity for that person...hmm. it still doesn't beat the real deal though but any celeb crushes i have, i'm pretty over it lol.

men

2011-08-16T05:45:00.000-10:00

sometimes, they just need to shape up and act like one. chivalry 101

the search, the truth, the breakthrough

2011-08-13T12:58:00.002-10:00

so i haven't been blogging lately because i've been too lazy to switch emails each time i log on. my bad :( it's already half way through with august and it's blowing my mind how fast time is flying!

the job search has been going. i finally got word back from aulani so i am hopeful! although it is far, i'm sure it will be worth it in the end. i might need to get a smaller car but why not?! i'm crossing fingers to hear final words but in the meantime, i will apply for hawaiian airlines for their in flight service crew and hope for the best for that as well...

honesty, is it bad to be too honest? does the old saying "the truth will set you free" still apply? i guess i am a blunt person but just because i speak what's on my mind. i need to learn to filter some things because i don't want to get myself into trouble. i think over the years, i've been getting a lot better at this :)

the gym has been my second home. there's nothing going on during my day. i need to change my eating habits if i want to achieve ultimate fitness. why is it so hard?!

my music tastes as of lately has been a lot of dance, dubstep, electrodance stuff. below is one of the songs i enjoy :D leona lewis - collide (afrojack remix)

commitments

2011-07-20T14:34:00.003-10:00

happy birthday to my favorite manju, shon!

commitments...

so i'm still in a job rut and the retirement home called once again. i'm starting to feel bad and pressured into working there. i heard they are short handed and everyone has been working double time or something.

desperation is starting to hit as i apply to some random places, remington college admissions adviser anyone? i also applied at the kahala resort to be a full-time server. i'm considering quitting the airport to pursue real opportunities in the F&B industry because i think that where may be my passion lie.

i'm still sick. last night was a crazy busy night at anasia's. the money was well worth it but i felt like dying for the first half of the night. sleeping has been a challenge because i feel like i might choke in my sleep because of my nasal congestion. so gross. i also hate how i lose track of how many pills i take and i might overdose that way and die. my over-the-counter pill cocktail medley is pretty impressive, might i add.

God, i know you have a plan for me. please guide me with Your hands and lead me to the right path. i'm letting the Lord take control now...

broke for life

2011-07-10T14:37:00.002-10:00

i think i will be broke as a joke for life. this is getting depressing. i was considering picking up a third job in the AM but that would mean i will have to work at least 20+ more hours for not a whole lot of money. i was doing my calculations of how much i would make yearly with three jobs before tax and it's barely half than what i would consider "comfortable." i am useless in the real world. everyone tells me to wait until the right opportunity comes around but i'm scared it won't or i had let a lot of them pass me by, ie: horizon lines. arhgkagabvnad;l!

today i spent it poolside of my apartment. it was so nice to go swimming again! i wanna get crispy golden brown! while i was tanning, i started to think of my job situation and how i do enjoy my free time but that happiness will only get me so far if i'm not successful in what i do. life blows, time to hit the books and go back to school!

can't hang

2011-07-09T14:42:00.002-10:00

my tolerance for alcohol is love hate. it's definitely gotten lower which means i can't party as hard as i would like but it saves me money. hmmm.

this week has been very exciting. it started on a wednesday night after work. i took allison, my coworker and classmate, to anasias where we met with her friend, our coworkers, and found crystal lam! we had many shots there and we were feeling adventurous! headed to bar 7 to rage even more, woohoo! plus another beer and 3-4 more shots later, we were rockstars! dickface ran into me (he tapped my shoulder for attention) and gave me a wtf face. guy wants to pick a fight or something with me because i didn't find him, it was vice versa, bitch. it was time to go home and on the way back to the cars, i spied the sushi bar at club evergreen! we just had to go! 2 pieces uni, 4 unagi, 2 salmon, california roll, and spicy tuna temaki and $35 later, we finally went home T_T. i don't know how i managed to drive allison home because while on the road, i was seeing doubles.

friday! kevin texted me for a drink. off to bar 35 we go. 3 shots and two drinky drinks later, i was drunk. thanks mr. bartender ;) <3 x 1000000000000^n. my only full day off as well as shon's was not well spent. we went to izakaya nonbei for dinner with my play hawaii coupon. it was delicious but a bit pricey for what we got. wafu garlic steak, asparagus, assorted tempura, spicy hamachi roll, rice, kinako mochi, green tea ice cream and two beers was $78 pre-discount. not bad i guess. i was still drunk and super full so i asked for a few puffs from his j. and thennnnn i ended up on the moon. shon dropped me off to go to a poker game to win back what we spent for dinner and i just passed out. weak sauce.

i smell fresh payback

2011-07-08T13:16:00.003-10:00

UPDATE! i ended up getting PUNK'D! when my sister came home from work, she did her daily business and busts out the modem! WTF! so i ended up getting more pissed off and stole the ethernet cord for an hour while i was at the gym. i came home and gave it back to her and called it even. gg janelle, gg.

my sister is dumb. so i still don't have internet and today I asked her if I could use the ethernet cord to go online. Sister dearest was being a little bitch by telling me to wait an hour cuz she was going to work. We argued because the internet is not for her personal use but the whole family. Her argument was that the wifi I use was my personal problem and I should do something about it...wtf. she sleeps during the day when I'm out and awake at night when I'm home so ill never find the time to go online cuz she's an internet junkie. So anyway, she got pissed and threw out our modem! I went out to bring it back and she got a hold of it again. Whatevers. When she left for work, I couldn't find the modem so I feared she tossed it out once again. Went outside to the trash and the building maintenance guys took out the trash for good!!!

The moral of this story is not to get mad but find solutions to piss off your enemy >:)

At first, I was furious and I hid her laptop under her bed and claimed I broke it via text message. Childish huh??? But I realize that I know the lobby's wifi password but she doesn't so I'm not 100% screwed and janelle pretty much screwed herself. I feel soooo much better about myself now but I'm still mad that she threw away a perfectly working modem and now we have to purchase a new one...idiot.

byebye internet

2011-07-01T00:55:00.001-10:00

happy july!!!

So for the past year or so I've been leeching wifi off some random network and all of the sudden there is no more :( i started this post with my phone but with a teeny tiny keyboard and being on the move made this post hard to finish. can someone get me a wireless modem and install it for me, please???

job hunting is fruitless. i'm thinking of working for a retirement home as a server because they offer some pretty good benefits. how sad is my life!? i feel like that is all i know how to do...serve people food and alcohol. i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty darn good at it but it's such a waste of my education -_-. why do people even bother with school? almost all of the things we learn is on the job training unless you're like a doctor or engineer i guess. ugh, thinking about this frustrates me so i will stop :)

in relation to my loss of internet, i'm using my sister's ethernet cable. she cant get mad because i was the one that called hawaii telcom to get that shit and i went on my hands and knees to install it! as far as i'm concern, i get to stay connected as long as i need >:)

life is good when things are simple. for anyone reading that has excess baggage on your shoulders, get rid of them. you won't regret or look back.

life as i know it

2011-06-25T17:20:00.003-10:00

i am broke. saving money is hard :(

i have a job interview for a front desk position next week at a low budget hotel. we'll see how that goes. i'm excited but also iffy because i'm not sure how the pay and benefits will be. alan wong is hiring for a full time cashier for the pineapple room and i want to apply but is that all i really want to do??? cashier?! not really but their benefits are amazing for what it is :)

i keep dreaming of moving to las vegas. i ran into an old time friend at the beach yesterday and it inspired me even more. maybe once i get my life sorted out, i will definitely consider doing a great migration to the mainland.

my drinking habits need to come to a halt. i'm so determined to make a lifestyle change to eat right, drink less, and exercise more but it's so damn hard because i'm easily persuaded by temptation :( going back to the gym is so hard since i came home from my trip. ughhhh no motivation at all!

PS: in addition to my last post on expenses, my student loans are due soon! arghh...$1750. i'm just gonna pull that money outta my ass to pay them off at once because i don't wanna deal with interest rates lol

expenses

2011-06-20T11:59:00.002-10:00

i'm finally gonna get my teeth fixed...at least two of them. that's $120/tooth. damn
kitteh has an eye irritation so i'm gonna bring him to the vet. $35 for office visit alone excluding any other medications or treatments. ugh....

why is saving money so hard?! i'm looking for inexpensive activities, kthx.

gitters

2011-05-28T11:19:00.004-10:00

i am so stressed over my trip. a lot of money has been invested and we're not sure if we can even get to our first destination! i'm hoping for the best but this standby traveling thing is not very fun! for the past two nights, i've been dreaming of the situation and it's making me restless. ahhhhhhh!!! positive thoughts! *I WILL MAKE MY FLIGHT!!!!*

on another note: yesterday, 5/27 was a blastastic! i got so much done but spent a lot of money as well...recap bullets time!

car washed and waxed $40
laser pointer and watch batteries replaced $17
parking for next month $30
cat food $16
movies $10.50
dinner at sweet home cafe :)
the hangover 2!
beer pong except i didn't play
jack in the box jalapeno poppers :9

ps: hangover is EXACTLY the same as the first one but just different scenarios. it was still funny but predictable :P

tick tock

2011-05-20T10:56:00.002-10:00

TIME MANAGEMENT: why is that so hard to do right now?! working nights only has made me into an extremely unproductive being. because i know i have my nights off, i keep putting my errands and other things aside thinking i always have "tomorrow" to work on it.

example: getting my car detailed. i've put it off for almost two weeks now. it's not gonna wax itself. i need to get on it and i'm already planning to not do it today but save it for tomorrow. i hate making excuses for myself -_-

i need to stop eating so much. appetite is back with vengeance. save me from myself :/

pineapple run is tomorrow! outta shape but can do ;)

graduation and down side

2011-05-16T09:48:00.003-10:00

congrats to all of the graduates who finally made it this past weekend! graduation is such a crazy day. i hate the parking and exiting situation because manoa is clearly not made for that much traffic. i always get sunburn and even with my trusty umbrella, it did no good. i wished i could have gone out but work was good so i can't really complain :P

down side: lately, i feel so sad. i really wanna go on my trip just to clear my mind and get some clarity. i need to snap out of this phase because i miss looking at things on the bright side! get it together!

addiction: yep, i am officially addicted to criminal minds. getting withdrawals from not watching it is clearly a sign.

trip: 13 more days! i can't wait. the east coast adventures is still uncertain because i have no schedule of what to do so i hope it will work out in the end.

hong kong: still no word yet from my adviser. maybe it's a sign...

香港

2011-05-11T17:19:00.000-10:00

i've got a strong feeling about this one! i was browsing through my email when i read one from the TIM school advising of an internship opportunity in hong kong! it's an entry level internship for SIX months. i just had a feeling that i should do it. i'm not sure if it's opened to alumni but i am definitely interested. they want interns to be there by july so it's kinda do or die, IF i am eligible. how exciting. i wonder how hong kong's work life is like compared to the US. i hope i don't get worked like a dog because they offer $500/month. that's very little since i get more working only 16/hr a week at the airport lol. second job work visa? ahhh! i will update when i get a response from my advisor :)

gloomy mother's day!

2011-05-08T09:57:00.002-10:00

happy mother's day!

what a gloomy day! the weather has been like this for a while now. it really adds to my sickness inactivity because i can't really go out and do much and i was sick so i felt like my cat; cooped up at home all day everything. now i know why he's so crazy...cabin fever?

anyway, i want to dedicate this post to my amazing mom! she's finally living the american dream and i am so proud of her. she immigrated from the motherland to the US without knowing anyone or a lick of english. my mom made it on her own while raising me and my sister which she was half successful in because janelle is still lost lol. now, she's a successful business owner. i really think my mom is a super mom. she works so much but still has the time to cook and take care of a lot of other things. i heart my majah :)

sickness

2011-05-04T18:42:00.002-10:00

happy may!

this year sure is flying by! unfortunately, the beautiful month of may so far as been shitty because i've contracted some funky cold. this is unlike a lot of colds i've had in the past few years because of its severity. although my appetite has gone down dramatically (yay for weight loss), i still feel like a piece of fat. i think it's from all the inactivity because all i do is sit around and watch TV all day. literally. i've been getting into a lot of crime shows such as "CSI" and "Criminal Minds," so much that i think i can commit the perfect murder ;) kidding! but yeah, those shows engulf my life as of recently.

work is slowing down. i am working less because westjet now only have night flights. there goes my income but being sick definitely has its pros. i was bedridden for almost a whole week so i hardly went out or spend much money. go me! saving for my awesome trip in less than a month is hard work. i have no idea how much i might end up spending since craig might not get into canada and plans might suddenly change -_-. i'm praying for the best because idk how i feel about spontaneously going to san fransisco lol.

worry free easter

2011-04-24T19:57:00.003-10:00

this past easter has been one of the best. i was so blessed to be under the presence of nick vujicici. he was born without limbs and grew up to be one of the world's most inspirational speakers. his message was life changing. it really make you not want to complain about life's problems because there are others that have it way worse. check the video to educate yourself :D

truly amazing. God is good.

i've eaten two buffets in the past 24 hours. if i were to go to hell right now, it would definitely be for gluttony. i disgust myself @_@. todai saturday night and sidorak early sunday morning haha. i really want to go on an easter egg hunt. i wish there was one for adults or i could be a kid again for a day

i've decided people don't learn. it's quite unfortunate to ruin friendships that way. such is life. life is too good to be stuck over dramas. keep it drama free, kids. count your blessings :)

random post. life has been too busy to sit down and unwind. i will try harder to keep up with my blog. i enjoy documenting my life because it's really nostalgic to go back to my posts and reflect. i learn from past mistakes and grow into a better person. thanks blogspot!

avril

2011-04-02T09:56:00.002-10:00

happy april!

i apologize for the MIA over march. life has been really busy. at the moment, i am stuck in a rut and i want to get out. anyways, i weighed in for the biggest loser competition. holy eff word, i only lost three pounds. it's alright because i'm glad i lost some of that weight despite the copious amounts of alcohol i can consume. lifestyle change soon? nah, mr. bartender is too hard to resist ;)
UPDATE: my biggest loser competition was a fail because my weigh in was invalid. GG.

my cousin offered me a job at her bar. i'm debating so much over it. i already work upwards to 30ish hours with both my jobs and adding on an extra 16 hours is a lot. UPDATE: i decided to decline the offer. too much work isn't good for me :)

confessions. they never seem like a good idea :/ i will leave it up with that :P

st. patty's day and beyond!

2011-03-20T12:52:00.002-10:00

so as of late, i've been going out quite a bit. st. patty's day destroyed me as i vowed to not drink for a few days lol. irish car bombs, green beer, jameson tattoo, chodang, dropping a bill, and passing out in my car made for an amazing time :)

puking at chodang's wasn't that fun. i need to stop this drinking crap, it's making me fat...

crippled

2011-03-09T12:08:00.002-10:00

ok, why is this fricken happening to me?! over the span of less than 5 days, i achieved two bullshit injuries!

first was i resprained my ankle. the SAME ankle. i guess that one was murphy's law waiting to happen. it was first fridays, i was drunk out of my mind, the ground was wet, and i was in high heels. in my mind, i knew it was gonna happen. seriously, before i knew it, i was crouched on the ground in pain! my blackout friday night was revived after that sprain lol. it was sore, it swelled, but it wasn't as bad as the initial sprain. score.

tuesday: i was let off work from anasia's because they thought i was still in pain from my ankle and thank goodness they did! it was seriously fate because i threw out my back. yessir. i was standing up filling out a form and i turned to cough into my shoulder/arm and BAM! *tweak* ouch. yes, i hurt my back over a cough! i was crippled practically the rest of the day and pretty much today. way to ruin mardi gras :(

as i am aging, i get still get the same injuries but how i get them is getting lamer and lamer. my first back injury was from sports, then from lifting glasses, and now, a cough. gg.

girlies day

2011-03-03T10:39:00.002-10:00

happy girl's day!

i'm hoping for an amazing day!

there has been so many emotional distress in my life. i guess i kind of brought myself into this situation and when this happens, it usually doesn't end well. i think i need a day to do some serious soul searching. dilemmas dilemmas. i hate this.

march madness

2011-03-01T14:09:00.002-10:00

happy march!

girl's day is in a few days! not too much has happened within the past few days but on 2/26, i had the craziest day/night ever! it started with shon's cousin's wedding. i drank a corona at 10:30am. wow. i had dinner with the crew at kuru kuru. boy, i went overboard and ate too much which equals $$$. i regret getting that hamachi because it wasn't very fresh. met up with my coworkers to go drink at 8 fat fat 8. i then went to the villa with some coworkers and met up with craig and his peeps. it was pretty crazy there and i was not happy i had to pay $10 for cover, what the heck is a cover charge?! coworkers dug out and we went to bar paparazzi and ka for a little bit to pick up craig's friend's girlfriend. she's apparently a go-go dancer with big boobies, asian barbie doll. i felt so ugly -_-. ginza afterward and zippys! holy moly, i had about 10 shots and 3 beers that night alone. it was the most i've ever drank in one night but i had no hangover or palu the night of or the next day! go me! if this is what a life of a party animal feels like, take me off the list, i don't think i could live like that every weekend. i also spent close to a bill that night. eating and drinking and drinking some more is getting awfully expensive!

i'm currently nursing a cold but i hope it would go away soon. it was the aftermath of the craziness. thank "you" for the chicken soup. that was the sweetest thing.

GAR x5

2011-02-24T09:35:00.004-10:00

the great aloha run was this past monday. it was amazing as always. i surprised myself to be able to run 4 miles nonstop. i knew i could have pushed on but my body and my mind was weak so i ended up walking quite a bit towards mile 6-8. a bit disappointed but i am still happy with the overall result. the rest of the day was amazing as well. lunch at sanoya's, beach, imanas tei, yogurtland! so eventful. thank you Lord for blessing me with wonderful people and for me to be healthy.

sunday prior to the run, we had a bbq at dylan's house. it was the best bbq i've been to with friends because it was organized and we didn't run out of food! thumbs up! tuesday night at anasia's was a lot of fun. we did so well that i wished i worked a little bit longer. went out with some of the regulars and the bartender to bar 7. we had only 30 minutes before last call there so we just drank practically non stop. it was a great drunken night.

the month is almost over, where are you going, time?!

juggling is hard...as it was proven awhile ago and i'm reliving the problem -_-

sweet valentine's

2011-02-14T23:46:00.002-10:00

happy valentine's day!!!

it was a miserable start as i couldn't sleep due to my ankle. i couldn't walk. i fell asleep at 5am because the pain was so unbearable...however, come morning, i could walk again!!! it was a valentine's day miracle! i went to the massage dude i've always gone to in high school and 10 minutes later, $50 less in my wallet, i felt much better. i decided to go to work at the airport and in retrospect, i should've just stayed home...

tonight, i had dinner with tiffany, olivia, and amy. we went to jj french pastry and it was one of the longest dinners i've ever experienced. reservations at 830pm and we didn't leave until well after 1030. it wasn't so bad because i was with great company and the food was yummy.

overall, it was a great day. i am content ^_^

12 hours

2011-02-13T03:07:00.001-10:00

on saturday, 2/12 to sunday 2/13, i had the craziest 12 hours. so much had happened but i will bullet it because it was so awesomely terrible :)

saturday:

work at the airport. delayed flight but no biggie
met up with coworkers at gordon biersch
anasia's for work but got cut after 3 hours
cruised with the coworkers
ka and ginza for danny's bday celebration!!!
met an aussie dude
leon drove me home and i could barely walk
ktfo around 430am

sunday:

koko head with craig at 1230pm
it was really humid and i was hanging
made it to the top in 31 minutes, not bad
slipped on some rocks 5 steps on my way down and landed on my ankle D:
sucked it up and went down on my bad ankle
big mac meal @_@

yup, those were eventful 12 hours. my ankle was so messed up tonight...

date night

2011-02-11T09:47:00.003-10:00

my days have been flying. it felt like yesterday when it was sunday and i was enjoying my day off. now it's in the "middle" of my crazy work weekend. i guess i am making the best use of my day but i feel it could be more substantial. is it time for a full time job?!?! :O my mom and dad have been pressuring me to grow up but i really really don't want to yet! damn it, let me go on my vacation first!

valentine's day is in 3 days. three days... goodness. i'm happy i am working at least one of the jobs. amy and olivia wanted to go out on valentine's night but our procrastination to get anything done is terrible. we haven't even made reservations for anywhere yet lol!

date night the movie was hilarious. maybe because i was under the influence but i thought it was funny :D my last two nights have been amazing. night one: jj dolan's, indigo, and bar 35. night two: mom's restaurant, la tour cafe, anasia's, ward theater fail, date night movie at home. yeah.

february

2011-02-05T00:22:00.003-10:00

happy february!!! and chinese new years!

i cannot believe it's been so long since i've blogged. life just seems so much busier working two jobs even though i still work less than 40 hours a week. chinese new years was the other day and it's my second start to the new year. so far, life has been interesting. i think it feels amazing to only have two drinks when i go out, although occasionally, i will have an extra or two more! for chinese new years, i feel that i should count my blessings more. i make my own luck and giving money to a lion dance company isn't gonna cut it!

life as i know it, at the moment:

airport/westjet: same ol' same ol'. nothing exciting but i did check in grace park! highlight of my airport career thus far. i feel not up to par at times but eh, it's a whatever job.

anasia's: it's fun there but it feels like im joining a new group of friends because everyone that goes there are regulars. i'm trying my best to adjust to all of the regulars and remember their names and drinks but i'm slowly getting the hang of it :) i wish there was more consistency between the bartenders because each person has their own way of doing things. that's cool but it gets tiring for me because i get in trouble for things another bartender wouldn't care about or whatever. sigh. i already dread going to work but once i'm there it's alright. it feels like phuket thai all over again. is that a bad thing???

friendships: i think i want to lay low a little bit. i feel blah when i think of certain people and relationships with them. some days, the loneliness kills me and i don't think i should be feeling that way. maybe i'm over analyzing things but laying low for a week or so seem to be the right thing to do.

fitness: i feel great that i'm exercising much more! turbo kick on mondays, mma on wednesdays, and koko head on sundays! i feel skinnier and i look it but the weight is still the same. why?!?!! muscles perhaps?! who knows. whichever the case, i feel amazing and that's all that matters :)

chuggin' along

2011-01-23T19:28:00.002-10:00

last night, saturday, was one of the most eventful nights i've had in awhile. i cruised with craig and we had an adventure.

dinner at kiwami ramen
shot guns at royal hawaiian gun club. i decided at that point, guns are scary and the shells hurt when they hit your head. oh, and i have a terrible shot
karaoke hut with my westjet coworkers
beer pong/street fighter/pictionary at lane's house

great night ^__^

as for my diet thing, it's going here and there and then it's not. it's so hard since there are times when food is just on the menu! ugh, its gonna be a long two months...

count your blessings

2011-01-14T23:26:00.002-10:00

today had potential to be a super crappy day. i really do believe in counting my blessings. God has been really good to me and i cannot thank Him enough for the calm after all the storms that had come my way. my friday:

CAR: it started with my missing car in the garage. when i couldn't see it, i naturally panicked but i realized it was parked where i left it last night...in the middle of a reserved police parking zone during the day. damn it, it would most likely be towed. i ran towards there with two textbooks and a fedex package in tow. thank you lord, it was still there with only a $35 ticket.

WORK: an hour ish delay for work and i got placed in the junk position as closeout. it means i am stuck there extra long due to the delay. TSA confiscated this thing called bagoong (some filipino condiment) because it wasn't packaged correctly and that took forever to resolved. sold my first airline ticket. pretty much, i was so bored for majority of the work day i wanted to cry lol.

PARKING: leaving the airport, i was so stoked to finally go home. the parking arm thing was broken for the lot i was in! unbelievable. it took about 20 minutes for a staff person from the parking office. on the flipside, it was around 630pm so therefore, i bypassed traffic!

DINNER: olive tree cafe was a fail. decided to go to CPK at kahala mall and the wait was around an hour half. holy moly, i was starving along with everyone else by then. but it was a great meal and i also bought gummy candies while waiting, yay!

ME TIME: i am home now just spending some time reflecting on my day and just unwinding. it feels great as i know i will have another hectic day tomorrow.

yesterday, my dad had to go to the ER. i am always thankful that he's been relatively healthy despite his age.

spoil me

2011-01-12T20:22:00.002-10:00

tuesday was a great day off! i was spoiled rotten :3

shopping spree at forever 21
walk in the dog park
sweet home cafe
first day at anasia's!

i was exhausted but it was amazing. i bought several items and i still have a bank of $60 left to spend, bwhahaha! anasia's was fabulous! i enjoyed it but i still have a lot of fine tuning left to do. with my hourly, i made $99.75 last night. it wasn't a lot but it sure beats the airport!

wednesday has been sleep day!

slept til 12
petland to get flea shampoo
helena's hawaiian food - omg so delicious!
napped napped napped all evening long lol

productivity rocks

2011-01-10T10:32:00.003-10:00

yesterday was a great day. it started with a hike up koko head, 25 minutes going up, not bad! went to anasia's to find that i got the job, woot! returned my curling brush for a curling iron, i hope that shit will work. cruised at home for a few and headed over to yogurstory. i really like it, a yelp review to follow ^_^ went to walmart to get flea medicine for kitteh. havoc kept trying to lick it off himself and i found out he threw up twice because of that. ugh, i'm really hoping he won't get sick x_x! went to TJ's afterward and went home to ktfo. i love busy days!!!

加油, havoc! get rid of those fleas!

double the fun?

2011-01-08T10:40:00.000-10:00

friday night: i had an interesting out in waikiki. it was fun because i went to a bunch of places i've never been to but it was also kinda weird lol. that will be for me to know and you to find out hehe

genius lounge: it was cute. it was hella expensive. i think they charged us wrong but who am i to argue? i was just instructed to throw down money lol

baskin robbin search, ha!

wang chung karaoke bar. literally the size of a closet. i enjoyed it there but it stank of a gym

moana surfrider and falafel king, yum.

my poor feet were so sore from the trek but it was cool. i think my car ride with my lam sister was the most fun, DUI check points definitely made it a night i won't forget hahaha

disease

2011-01-05T12:31:00.003-10:00

it seems that everyone, literally, is getting sick. this cannot come at a worst time since i have no fricken insurance!!! i'm trying to live in a bubble so i don't get hurt or sick or both! sigh, this really blows. i'm already feeling a bit scratchy in my throat, time to pump up the vitamin C!

day two of the biggest loser competition and i think i'm doing well. so far, i've done TKB and hiked koko head. it feels great to be in better shape and overall health. i've decided to significantly cut back on my alcohol consumption (with the exception of last night) and sugars and carbs. i can do this!!! i'm determined to lose 15 lb. let's do this!!!!

i want to look like THAT ^ again!!!

< 3

2011-01-03T10:05:00.001-10:00

hello 2011

2011-01-02T14:30:00.003-10:00

happy january and happy new year!

time for out with the old and in with the new. i am excited! i feel useless when i make resolutions since i will forget about them after awhile so i almost never follow through. recap of the year's end and the beginning of a new one!

eve

work work work
dinner at shon's hizzle and watched animal hoarders
party at jon's house
lost flippy cup, damn it!
played fireworks for the last time in hawaii....sad.

new years

worked worked and worked
phuket thai bbq
damn you kettle one
senor frog's with the westjet crew
patron owned me
military men
blacked out...

resolutions

cut back on the alcohol consumption. i realize i am a mess when i get drunk. it was never the case before but i always wake up the next day filled with regrets and that's never good.
be a better person
find a real job before the year is over
live healthier and safer due to lack of health insurance. take better care of my teeth :D

happy anniversary and then some

2010-12-23T10:35:00.003-10:00

happy three years to my iDiary!

i feel that i do post a lot of personal information but what the hey, it's my fricken diary! just keep whatever you read hush hush ;) iDiary has been my keeper of times when i was vulnerable, during times of triumph, joy, sadness, and everything else in between. i feel that tmblr is the "in" thing now and it sure looks really fancy but i like blogspot the way it is :) i don't need all those fancy layouts and texts and pictures.

so it kinda sucks i work on christmas eve, christmas day, new years eve, and the day. i hope i get paid extra! for work, i decided to join a team for the hallmark aviation's version of "the biggest loser." the team that loses the most combined body fat over 3 months win. it's gonna be hard since i'm not the biggest so therefore, i will have to work twice as hard to get results showing. it's okay, i'm determined to be trimmed, tightened, and HOTT in a few months. motivation!!!

feelings: desensitizing is a good thing. my only problem, it leaves me confused.

graduation!

2010-12-20T10:02:00.002-10:00

hands down, graduation day was one of the most tiring but one of the most fun days i've ever had! thank you everyone for making it possible!

MORNING:

suppose to be at school by 7am, woke up at 7am
boring ceremony, go figure
sad my mom had to leave before i went to receive the diploma

NOON/AFTERNOON

it was hot
thank you everyone for visiting and giving me leis :)
it was hot
lunch fail at helena's but yama's definitely saved the day
old stadium park has gotten ghetto and nasty, ask leon

DINNER

nice day restaurant in liliha with the family
lots of gifts, hugs, and congrats :3
MSG laden food, i love it....meh
discovering my 11 nephew/second cousin talks to his "gf" via email. geez!

LATE NIGHT

ka for bottle service!
drank to my heart's content as it was dylan's bday as well
thank you trevor and leon for getting extra bottles
definitely well worth the money spent :D
tacos rico afterwards
ktfo

SIDE BAR: pounded mochi for the first time the day after. it's hard work

2010-12-19T18:56:00.000-10:00

martinis

2010-12-15T12:30:00.003-10:00

so after a night of heavy drinking with amy chang, i think my mind got less cloudy. i swear that drinking is the cure for everything. over this week, with recent events into consideration, my mind has been so boggled by thoughts and my future, graduation, finals, etc. after last night, i see things in a clearer perspective. perfect! i look forward to graduation now. it should be really fun.

mr. bartender remembered me :) when i left bar 35, he personalized my good bye. *hand hearts*

seriously, i think someone roofied my drink because i was so gone. regardless, it was an amazing night and i wished it didn't end up in a drunken mess.

clear eyes

2010-12-13T20:02:00.003-10:00

day two of dry eyes. keep it up!

i dedicate this blog to my buddy suveg pandey. after talking to him the other day, i feel better about life. heck, i always feel better after talking to him. he inspires me so much. despite his brutal honesty, he puts everything into perspective and gets me thinking outside of my bubble. thank you, suveg.

i cannot wait until graduation comes around. after that, all of this pressure will be lifted off my shoulders...

pandora

2010-12-07T15:03:00.002-10:00

thank goodness for my discovery of pandora radio. my life would seriously be dull without it.

my teacher sent out the email to everyone in TIM 431 to read my paper. i'm so honored and ashamed at the same time since the grammar is terrible and everyone might give me stink on the last day of class X_X

i read through some of my older posts to get motivation to move on and boy i was really emo way back when. well, i still get that way time to time but it's not so interesting anymore. i'm taking it as it comes. whoever is reading this, please get me drunk this weekend. please and thank you.

so this is it...

2010-12-06T23:27:00.002-10:00

i feel like dying. i feel like absolute shit. how could this be happening?!?! is it for real? i'm fighting denial and i am losing to reality. please...please, please let this nightmare pass. i don't think i can do this on my own. my support system, my other half, gone before my eyes.

there is no point to be sad and mope. i don't want to suffer like i did in the past. life always goes on. i will NOT believe in false hope and hope that it was their biggest mistakes of their lives. my heart hurts, my mind is cloudy, and my body is numb. i hate this feeling so much! i don't know how i will make it through the holidays and graduation like this.

as mr. coleman always said, "everything happens for a reason." the sun will shine for me tomorrow. i will be strong because i am. i love you but this is for the best...

tis the season

2010-12-06T10:34:00.002-10:00

happy december!!!

christmas is definitely starting early this year. downtown is all decked out for the holidays early it seems. the lights are shining brighter compared to previous years :)

i've been feeling kinda blah lately so therefore i've been cooking a lot more! i learned how to make the old spaghetti factory's browned butter with mizithera cheese. it's actually really easy! so much for my diet...

i'm two weeks from graduating and i really cannot wait. it's gonna be amazing :)

oh, the feeling!

2010-11-29T19:04:00.003-10:00

it's starting to feel a lot like christmas! the lights in dtown are twinkling brightly. i think it's starting early this year...

holy moly, i am almost done with 431 and things are looking good! i did NOT fail my group case study but got a D. with the curve, my group managed to get a 86%, cheee! i don't care what i get on this individual case because i will still pass regardless. suck yeah!

PS: ok, i am absolutely in love with taylor swift. i can't stop listening to her music. enchanted is my next favorite song :) listen away on the right hand side ^_^

holiday blues

2010-11-25T13:59:00.003-10:00

i always, always get sad during big celebrations such as my birthday, thanksgiving, and christmas. today is thanksgiving. i think not having a family to spend it with really sucks. it's just either me and my mom or me and my dad. as of a couple years ago, my mom has been out of the picture since she always work. what a lonely time. i guess what really got me going downhill was i went over to my dad's apartment after volunteering and was suppose to have lunch with him. instead, i ended up eating his kalua turkey meal from his meal-on-wheels program while he ate a can of pork and beans. it was just so depressing. of course, there are things i am thankful for regardless of the situation...

i am thankful for (in no particular order):

my friends. they always have my back when i need them...most of the time :)
my family even though they hate each other and i can barely remember the last time all four of us were together in the same room i still love them.
my health and education
my cat even though he's completely antisocial i know he cares about me deep down :D

PS: i think i just need a good cry to clear my mind. i feel much better now.

busy bee

2010-11-17T19:46:00.002-10:00

the next two weeks will be crazy busy. 431 has me on a leash. 10-15 page articles must be read before class for a written assignment, exam next week tuesday, and my 8-10 pg SINGLE space case study due the following tuesday. what...the....fuck. 369E isn't any better. my stupid group presentation is for the following thursday after my crazy long case study and i feel that lawler's geocaching project is due sometime that week. hotel spreadsheet due same day as my 431 exam. HELP!

air conditioning has been broken for the past week. it's driving everyone crazy. poor havoc have to suffer all day in the hot hot room.

i feel so incomplete these past few days. i need to be a better person. i'm scared janelle will one day commit suicide because i was too mean to her. i will strive to be a better daugther, sister, friend, girlfriend, person, student, whatever. i really need to make some changes.

graduation is in a few weeks and i am utterly terrified of my future. i don't think going with the flow is really such a great idea. i don't wanna miss out on an opportunity and will never be able to seize it again. idk.

i hate you

2010-11-13T02:26:00.002-10:00

I hate you with a passion. I am borderline drunk right now thanks to you. But seriously, I hate you so fucken much. Thanks for ruining my life with your inconsiderate self. Do yourself a favor to society and bury yourself underground already. Kthx. People like you will never change. Too full of themselves.

On a happier note, I got to check out mr. bartender again, AND I asked for his name ;)

guilt

2010-11-06T16:44:00.002-10:00

happy november!

october ended with an AWESOME bang! i must admit it was probably the BEST halloween ever. thursday night (10/28) was the yelp elite event. choke fun. saturday night was halloballoo in chinatown. trevor and the mechanical bull was funny lol. tweaked my ankle and had a owie on my knee :( sunday, halloween, awesome first day at work. small kine delay but it was a blast.

in denial with school all week and kinda did not so hott but flash forward to this weekend....

KEVIN'S BDAY RAGER! hahahahah

FRIDAY: what should've been the most awesome day was kinda filled with guilt for some reason. possibly bombed my 302 exam, went to work, lovely drama with SABRE and a baby's passport at check in, flight delayed even more due to maintenance but got free starbucks and food out of it :) went din din with peeps at gyukaku. it was fun but for $20/person, i was kinda expecting more food, but then again, we did drink a lot.

bar 35, my favoritest place in the world. kevin was dumb. he shoulda paced himself instead of buying like 4 shots for everyone within 5 minutes. clearly, not a smart idea. thank you kyle, trevor, and dylan, you guys are lifesavers. because of kevin's genius shot ideas, he was done in less than two hours! had to be escorted out of the club before fricken midnight! unbelievable :P
mr. bartender was there and sexy and hott as usual. this stupid crush has got to stop! i'm such a sucker. went to kevin's house to check up on him and cruised. shon smoked out little pengy. so funny. lobster king and ktfo.

the morning after...i was feeling alright :) i kept having this guilty feeling overwhelming me all day. still feeling it now. maybe it's because kevin got so messed up. maybe because i was spending everyone's money unknowingly lol. maybe i was too obsessed with mr. bartender?! IDK! i feel so bad over last night! i mean, i should've had so much more fun but i was so confused and messed up. ugh, terrible feelings.

today, manned my mom's restaurant, went road tripping with her with $600+ in delivery. drove all around with the fajah. pooped.

mr. hot bartender

2010-10-29T12:29:00.001-10:00

oh bar 35 mr. hot bartender, i discovered your name and apparently it's a commodity on yelp. you are beautiful. i will one day be a regular at bar 35 and will sit there and just stare at your hair, muscles, and the way you work that bar like it's no one's business. <3

discipline: isn't that what the army is suppose to teach you? they failed when trying to train my sister. still shameless and still no respect for anyone besides herself and friends. what a pity. cmon US army, what is our good tax dollars paying you guys to do?!?!

scary movies

2010-10-24T13:15:00.002-10:00

oh man, the month is almost over!!! where did it go?! it just felt like last week was my birthday. my days are numbered as i get closer to graduation. it's nerve wrecking since i have no plans for my future except for a few dreams and aspirations. where will my life lead to now?!

as halloween is approaching, i wanna watch scary movies! there's hardly on tv. to watch for october: jackass 3D, paranormal activity 2, and saw 8. haha so many sequels. i figure i've seen all the prequels, might as well finish the damn series :)

i miss the days when i had no one to care about except for myself. i miss the independence and doing my own thing. but with that, i always get lonely and find random ways to fill the void. yeah, maybe that isn't a good idea lol.

i'm really loving the new song, "back to december" by taylor swift. the quality sucks but this was the best one i found on youtube. so sad.

i really wanna go beach. my whiteness is sickening and i'm still determined to lose weight but my mom's idea of "healthy eating" really isn't all that healthy. it's time to starve.

all night long

2010-10-21T23:21:00.002-10:00

so last night/this morning, i pulled my first all nighter for school. got off work at 1130, got to sinclair library by midnight, did not leave until almost 8 am. fcuk that. the paper, in my opinion, is ridiculously crappy, and our presentation wasn't that great. i'm a bit worried for the overall grade because the prof said some of us missed the mark COMPLETELY and kept looking towards my direction. eeek. whatevers, i think i can afford to fail this one since i practically aced my other exams.

despite being a zombie, i went geocaching around the zoo! it was nice to slow things down and just go treasure hunting. geocaching is so fascinating. who knew there would be so many hidden caches all around the island in the most random places. i would love to make this a hobby once i find more time.

after all of this and only one banana in my belly, i was seriously going to pass out from hunger. i pulled into teddy's bigger burgers parking lot and grind. after my meeting at school, i went home and ktfo. i woke up a few hours later and went to sweet home cafe with janelle. omg, it's been a while since i had that...so good! they have strawberry jelly and it was fricken delicious!

i bought myself a bottle of wine too. way to celebrate today for surviving an all nighter. i feel bad for those who do this on the regular.

size skinny

2010-10-16T11:22:00.002-10:00

as of late, i've been heavy! i have no money to indulge in good food anymore. i cannot afford to eat out so i've been eating at home a lot but why am i NOT losing weight?!?! i've been gaining weight actually and it's depressing. it's time for change. it's time to get my fat ass back down to normal and then some.

weight goal: 52 kg or less. i can do this!

days gone by

2010-10-15T17:02:00.002-10:00

where on earth have my days gone?! just last week was my birthday and now i've got a crap load of stuff to be done for school. times like these, i just need an EASY button or some machine that extends time for me. but then again, i could also be more productive myself. bleh.

recap time!

birthday

great day at school! got my paper used as an example for class, second class canceled so i got to hang out with the guys :)
dinner number one with dad, shon, and janelle at hinone mizoune or whatevers. oishii :3
ichiriki loft! oh man, what a blast! thanks for everyone who came out <3
dinner number 2 with mommy at lobster king. $130 X_X too drunk to appreciate the food, and yes, my mom knew i was faded.
ktfo

work

started shadowing
got to make announcements which was scary and kinda cool. "aloha ladies and gentlemen, this is your final boarding call..." hehe
i really enjoy everything so far.
missin' pinkberry!

week/life

days passing me by way too quickly
no social life
exams and papers = no sleep for me :(
induction ceremony for ESD was a huge success
PCC was a BLAST! had so much fun, and haunted lagoon!
HIFF - Rinco's Restaurant, it was interesting lol
still broke

tanked

2010-10-06T23:53:00.002-10:00

WOW. i completely failed the IT exam. 67%! this class is actually pretty easy but i just find no interest in learning all the nitty gritty details of compooters. not my thang.

today, i went to MMA circuit training for the first time in forever. i worked my tooshie off. most definitely gonna be sore tomorrow. but whatevers, i feel like a million bucks now :)

HOMEWORK. so much to do, so little time.

excited for the PCC tour and HAUNTED LAGOON! super duper stoked for it.

induction ceremony is next week. excited to see all the fresh meat.

got called on my the TIM school to get a personal statement to keep alumni to donate towards TIM scholarships. i felt so honored because i was handpicked by the dean.

harvest moon

2010-10-04T11:56:00.002-10:00

happy october!!! i love october for many reasons. it's my birth month, it's fall, it's the harvest moon time, it's just plain awesome :)

october 2nd was a fun day. it definitely reminded me of the good ol' days where we stay out all day doing a bunch of random stuff.

aquarium with pata. poor mois that got stolen :(
lunch at ethel's with the boys
the social network - surprisingly good!
dinner with the fajah
dylan's house
anasia's with shon
ktfo

life has been exhausting mainly due to the early mornings and super late nights. it's almost over, thank goodness! i'm very excited to actually start working. i hope i don't mess up!

janelle is back home and she's a cause of stress too. her clothes and stuff is EVERYWHERE and my mom is getting on my nerve to clean up for her...what?!

deprived

2010-09-30T08:16:00.000-10:00

for the past two weeks, i've been severely sleep deprived. it's amazing that i'm still standing. training was been brutal but it's fun nonetheless. i really enjoy doing what i've been doing so far which is just playing with the computers and hopefully i don't check in a terrorist. i'm excited to start soon but really nervous at the same time since there's so many job functions...bleh.

school has been killing me. i kinda gave up on a lot of my classes because it's my last semester lol. i need to find a day where i can get my full 8 hours of sleep! the most sleep i've got at a time was roughly 5 hours. when my phone alarm that it will ring any time after 5 hours, i get so happy :) the past two weeks, it kept reading 2-3 hours. it made me sad!

music to memories

2010-09-17T21:13:00.003-10:00

one of my favorite bands is stars. i absolutely adore their music. dunno who they are?! they're a canadian indie rock/pop. youtube them! as im sitting home alone on a friday night, i'm just listening to some of their music. some old, some new. the older ones, inflict so many memories of a couple of years ago when i first moved home. i don't know why that particular spring of 2008 is so poignant. so many memories rush into me. like a slideshow, they just keep flashing across my mind. those few months were some of the best and worst.

nowadays, music doesn't stick to my memories as much. i'm not sure why. the summer of 2007 and the spring of 2008 had the most memories attached to music. i think it's really unfortunate that music doesn't mean as much as it did before. music these days are crap. time to changes things up a little.

i think i'm getting better at cooking! i made the same garlic shrimp that one would get from the north shore trucks. screw that, i'm opening my own in downtown! seriously, that shrimp was absolutely deeeeelish! i can't wait to make more another time :)

loner

2010-09-16T22:20:00.002-10:00

maybe i've reverted back to being a cold-hearted bitch but i discovered i rather be alone than to hang out with shon. i read so many facebook status updates of how one party misses their SO and vice versa but i'm not sure if i felt that way. when boy was on his trip to california, i was so well rested and relieved. i guess i like his company but he annoys the crap out of me way too many times a day. does that mean i'm getting over him? uh oh.

had my first meeting at the airport. it was excruciating for only 5 hours. i cannot imagine 8. tomorrow is gonna be a great day! no school and kahuku shrimp (hopefully) for dinner! test my cooking skills to the max ;)

eta sigma delta

2010-09-10T00:39:00.002-10:00

school has been excruciatingly busy. i have meetings every other day for my club because we have to rebuild it from the bottom up. honor society so membership is by invitation only and we're broke with only 5 members. it's really not easy...

431 is killer too. expectations are sky high and it's NOTHING like what i've been taking since starting UH and even UNLV. sigh. i accepted the job with WestJet but i'm not sure if i can handle their training hours. it's from 5pm - 1am! YES, is that even legal?!?! it's ten days long over three week period. during those three weeks, i have two exams, a spreadsheet, and a long ass paper due. i really don't know what i'm gonna do. if my health starts deteriorating, no doubt i will have to quit, waste of $50 and a lot of time...

i can do it! i believe in myself and besides, who needs sleep these days?! i got some pearls of wisdom from a club member "the older you get, the less sleep you need." true dat.

labor day weekend

2010-09-06T09:29:00.004-10:00

happy september!

with loads of homework, i still had a blast this past weekend. recap!

friday

choco house with my JAL interns
first friday
HOTTEST bartender i've ever laid eyes on at bar 35 <>
got crunk with olivia and amy chang for the first time!
broke like a joke
garden...swoon.
greatest night ever :)

saturday:

unproductive
shave ice with ning, gina, and jared
sbux pimpin'

sunday:

ning's drive in movie fundraiser!
takoyaki and kc waffle dogs, so yummy!
monster's inc.
yard house for some crazy beers

limbo

2010-08-30T20:49:00.002-10:00

i hate this feeling. the feeling of having no money, the feeling of insecurity. my internship with JAL is over with and i didn't get accepted for an extension. as shon puts it, no one was the asshole in that situation. i wanted to quit, they didnt want me to stay haha. i still feel bad since i should have done better. it's not my fault that the language barrier made it so difficult for me to be happy. i was also having drama with hallmark aviation due to the scheduling and pay. i need to get a second job to pay for all of my expenses and hallmark just wouldn't cut it for me. today, i worked out a good schedule that will work out but now i still have to wait for da hukilau to call back for a job offer/decline. sigh, hard times...

school sucks. my capstone class will be a toughie. aza aza fighting!

last semester

2010-08-24T21:05:00.002-10:00

this is my last semester of school. thank goodness! i've been waiting for years. i'm worried since my capstone class will be difficult. ughhhh...im skurred for it @_@

last night, i celebrated my last night of the summer at apartment 3 where i was all sorts of fucked up. two dollar kettle one vodka. ack, i was dying. hanging on my first day of school was not cool. hehe i rhymed! ok, now onwards to hw!

tgif

2010-08-20T20:19:00.002-10:00

oh man, i never thought i would say this but TGIF!!! it's been a long week. only five more shifts with JAL and i'm DONE. i just had my interview with hallmark aviation services and i really hope i get the job. with my passport found, i am ready to travel the world! watch out world, michelle is here to seize the opportunity! when funds allow....

tonight was pretty epic. started out at 39 hotel, totally dug that place. then we found ourselves at ichiriki loft for a birthday and then champions where kevin and i drank like one, followed by the beach. good times! i'm tired as hell but tonight was worth the driving around and funds. cheee!

ps. i owe kevin plenty drinks!

close call

2010-08-15T15:42:00.002-10:00

i had the absolute worst night/day so far this summer. last night was lindsey's last night before heading back to corn country so hanging out was nice. i drank a starbucks drink which i regret and was suppose to go hiking dark and early to watch the sunrise. during this time, it was also shon's last day in hawaii before his family vacay to california. so many things going on and not enough me's to go around. selfish him and stupid me just got at it with each other all night. i couldn't even sleep to make matters worst. i was miserable all day -_- it's all over now. the hike is over and i missed out, shon's gone on his trip, at least i had the breakfast i asked for. sigh. crap day.

so many chores to do at home. usually, i let my mom handle it but she's been really MIA lately. whatevers.

papaya farm

2010-08-12T20:18:00.002-10:00

so the past couple of weeks, i've discovered papaya farm! it's like farmville but not? ever since i started adding random friends, i have been hooked! addicted, if you will. if i sent an invite, just accept it, kthx.

the peresid or something meteor showers were this week. went on wednesday night/thursday morning and that was a half fail. we were camped out at lanikai beach and it was windy as hell. i saw some awesome meteors but right when the show was about to start, the rain came. the horizon looked mad and since there was no light where we were, it was just darn scary!

olivia is finally back home. i miss her a lot. life feels just a little more complete when your good friends are around you. i feel that way for a lot of my friends actually lol.

i was flipping through some old pictures on facebook and i realized how much everyone has changed, in terms of appearance, over the past couple of years. we're getting old :(

japanknee chinky

2010-08-07T02:13:00.002-10:00

happy august!

so i quit all my jobs just for japan airlines. let me tell you, i was stupid. it's not worth it! the flier that was presented was so much more appealing and challenging than what it really is. i work only 4 hours a day doing the same thing day in and day out. there is no challenge and the language barrier sucks. sigh...i need a real job soon because this is more temporary than i thought, sigh.

on a more somber note, i feel so lonely these days. it makes me sad because i feel incompetent in life. as always, life goes on.

old growth

2010-07-29T20:05:00.003-10:00

as i get older, i realize that so is everyone else. i went out to dinner with my dad tonight and seeing his health deteriorate like this scares me. he told me he was considering applying for the meals on wheels program and that sunk me to a new low. i feel as his daughter, i should be taking care of him but i'm too young to take on this responsibility. school and work is the center of my world right now and i'm far too busy. shon's grandma recently passed away and i attended her funeral...it was the saddest funeral ever. i've never seen a family so sad at a funeral. i dont know if i can deal with the loss and pain so soon. i wish janelle was back home so we could figure something out for daddy.

ugh, i gotta be strong! get a hold of yourself, michelle!!!

towriffic!

2010-07-25T10:34:00.002-10:00

shon's birthday was last tuesday 7/20. it was a great day/night. had dinner at magura-ya with his family and then headed over to the mai tai bar to start off the night. i was hesitant to go there due to some past issues but i went and it was fun. it felt like a club because it was loud and packed! it's a tuesday ppl, don't they have work?! drinks were cheap so that was fun. afterward, we went over to femme nu. shon had three chicks dance for him while i watched -_- it was fun overall because my phuket thai coworkers came by! headed to bar seven after that where shon told me to park in this random lot. little did i know, it was the biggest regret of my life! 30 minutes later, literally, we were back at the lot with no car to be found! i knew it got towed and shon was too drunk to tell me it was a paid parking lot! ass. $160 to get it from mapunapuna and i didn't go to bed until almost 3:30 am with work at 7 am. ugh! the next morning, i read over my receipt from the tow company and on the bottom by the comments section, it reads: "Have a towfiffic day!" i want to rip those fuckers' heads off.

last night was my last day of work at phuket thai. i will miss it there, definitely. it was busy and i guess my attitude towards things were good or i just had really generous tippers but i made a lot of money! yay! i hope my weekends will be more relaxing and fulfilling now that i don't work. it's gonna be a hard transition back to how things used to be since i've been working weekends for the past two and a half years. oh wells, i'm moving on in the world :)

i went to shon's popo's funeral yesterday. it was a beautiful service. i never knew she was such a great woman. i met her two years ago when she was deteriorating so she wasn't all there mentally and physically. her mini biography was read during the service and i wish i could have such an amazing life that my loved ones would remember me by.

river monsters

2010-07-19T19:33:00.002-10:00

for the past couple of weeks, i've been really into this show called river monsters and hooked. it's about fishing crazy and freaky deaky fishies around the world. it's amazing how big these fishes could get. they could probably swallow me whole. my go-to channels on tv have been discovery, animal planet, history, and national geographic. man, i must be getting old.

the summer is almost over!!! ahhhhh! two weeks before my 20 pg internship paper is due. i need to get on it! crunch time.

ouchies

2010-07-17T10:38:00.002-10:00

for the past month or so, i have been getting random cramps on my calf when i am asleep. yes, people get them time to time but i haven't had one in ages until recently. when i wake up in the middle of the night, i find myself stretching my leg(s) and BAM, i'm in the most horrific pain imaginable! i feel the soreness the next morning and throughout the day. my mom said it's because i'm eating too much watermelon. well....HELLO...she left me an ENTIRE fricken watermelon for me to eat...BY MYSELF!!! last night, i had a bad cramp in which shon and my mom both woke up to help me relieve. thoughout the night, i had some close calls with my other left and my foot. ugh. hope it's nothing too serious.

kick the bucket

2010-07-13T18:14:00.002-10:00

not much has happened since last week. my weekend was work filled. i finally put in my two weeks at phuket thai. good bye to the fuckit bucket. i will definitely miss my coworkers and the money but most definitely not the owners and gm. sunday was a major private party. busted ass made choke money :D

melanie leong has all my connections to my long lost garden that withered away and died. i was so ecstatic for awhile haha. <3

horizon lines is killing me. coworker is taking 3 weeks off and i might have to work extra. fuck that bullshit. if that's the case, i'm quitting!

gym man

2010-07-07T19:04:00.002-10:00

so i just came home from my gym class (MMA circuit training and everyone should take it with me >: ) ) and there is this dude that always stays in the front. nothing against him but he gives up so quickly! man up and start moving your ass so you make that front spot worth it! stop pussying around like a little bitch because you think you're hott shit. phew, i feel much better.

i got my internship with japan airlines. chee! the hours are much better than i thought so staying with phuket is still a possibility but idk, i'm just so sick of working there. SIGH! i passed my drug test for horizon lines sooooo hello $12/hr for july! yayyayaya!

red, white, and bloated

2010-07-05T10:03:00.002-10:00

it was the 4th of july yesterday. it was possibly one of the best days of the summer. it started out really really early, 8:30 am to go to the beach as early as possible to make sure we don't have to fight for spots. our original goal was to go to lanikai but it was a major fail since it was pouring over the pali. since waimanalo was just a right turn away, we hit up sherwoods! went to mcdonald's to grab some breakfast for a little picnic at the beach. cloudy day but it was okay for the most part until it started raining again. decided to drive further down to makapuu since it was clearing up on that side. complete 180 since it was hot, beautiful, and clear all around makapuu/sandy's side! loose money. cruised there for awhile and got nice and crispy! people there: gina, ning, kevin, vincent, lianna, danny, and neal.

a short break later, a bunch of us went to gyu-kaku for dinner. 99 cent kirin special, how could you possibly go wrong?!?! we ordered a bunch of food and a lot of beers. between the 5 of us that drank, we had a total of 19 beers. crazy? you betcha. most of us were drunk out of our minds. walked all the way back to phuket thai were were drank some more. just another beer for most of us. we then made the journey ALL the way to magic island side to cruise with lindsey's family because their condo is front and center for the fireworks. the guys had another beer there, phew. the fireworks were amazing with a lot of new displays.

ning wasn't feeling well so kevin and i took her home. afterwards, we walked back to my car and headed to phuket thai. by this time, 10:30pm (only), i was beyond exhausted. i should be feeling that way at like 4 AM, not before midnight. kevin got picked up there to go to dylan's house but i went to starbucks to meet up with gina, jared and friends. kanpai's was a fail but we sat around and told jokes for awhile. good fun. everyone went home but i stopped by TJ's to meet up with shon and some coworkers. went home around midnight, crashed.

the end.

piss test

2010-06-30T19:14:00.003-10:00

so horizon lines got their way with me. they want to hire me as a temp worker for the month of july. the light at the end of the tunnel was so close and now it stretched ten miles further. i was really really excited to be done and over with working there but they are so short staffed that i was definitely pressured to stay. i mean, the supervisor, manager, and coworkers were all dropping hints to the HR department to hire me. i would hate to let them down but damn it, consider my own needs! it's my last summer before i graduate! i agreed to the employment but my drug test (more of that in a sec) and all my paper work is due on friday so i could still back out. sigh.

so along with employment is a drug test! FUCK. i hang out with shon way too much so i second hand and smoke once in a blue moon. everyone i talked to about this told me to relax since i'm not habitual but still...it's very very nerve wrecking. my stomach cringes when i think about it. i will be so shamed if i tested positive for thc when so many people worked so hard to get me hired. what a major letdown. i will definitely lose my good gracious with them :/

sunday not funday

2010-06-27T18:35:00.002-10:00

so today, i pretty much had a given day off. my plan was to wash my car, go beach, and do all the fun stuff. instead, i sat around my fat ass with shon, ate mexican food, and took a nap. waste of my day!!! UGH.

last night was jon and samson's birthday bash! it was a lot of fun. once again, girls were the flippy cup champions! yessir. we beat the boys big time!

i got in trouble at phuket thai due to a yelp review for another thai restaurant. long story short, it was a retarded reason mainly because i think the owner has a personal vendetta against that particular restaurant. so stupid.

interview with JAL july, 6th. whee!

obsessed

2010-06-22T23:13:00.002-10:00

so as of late, i have been obsessing over "my queen," the taiwanese drama. i am at episode 12 and the subtitles are all messed up! UGH!!! it's so frustrating because my chinese is only so limited and i have trouble picking up everything especially when they go hyper mode in their speech. WHY?!?!?! i am quite salty right now because of it.

i got sick over the weekend. so gay. i hope it's nothing more than a common cold. yikes.

father's day weekend was mellow i suppose. i went out to eat with my dad saturday and sunday. it was nice to spend some quality time with him since i hardly see him nowadays.

office olympics at horizon lines tomorrow! whooo...i wonder how that would be haha

numbers

2010-06-20T12:07:00.003-10:00

so my infamous "garden" has returned. yikes. i cant stop thinking about it!!! i even had a dream he was married and i was all sad. haha. ok, time to focus and get him outta my mind. i blame jared menor for hyping it since he tends to run into him all over the place. damn it.

babies

2010-06-13T15:38:00.002-10:00

so this past weekend, i found out two of my classmates are preggers. i mean, i've always wanted a friend to be pregnant but it's kinda sad to think about it because we're so young still. they're still in school with so much ahead of them. first boyfriends and already pregnant. wow. i'm happy for them since they're in healthy relationships and i know their babies will the joy of their lives. congrats!

everyone that's suppose to graduate graduated already. congrats to everyone! the list is too long so i wont even attempt it. you know who you are ;) man, i feel so incompetent since i still have a semester left. i really wished i took that extra class over the summer or semester because i could've been done by now too. rawr.

june bug

2010-06-09T21:06:00.002-10:00

happy june!!! can you believe it? the year is half over!

so much has happened since june started so i'm sorry for the lack of updates on this and on yelp. i've been slacking. my internship is almost pau. it sucks im getting loaded with so much responsibilities and the pressure to stay with the company is overwhelming. sigh...give me a dollar and hour for my efforts at least, damn it!!! i have been going clubbing lately and it has been fun. dinners, alcohol and what not have been a major strain on my wallet. sigh. i bought myself a shiny new phone, the tmobile mytouch slide! $450 later and i still dunno how to use it! yeah, not too much has happened lol. i guess i just forgot a lot.

oh, i remember another one. i took havoc to the pet blessing event and he pissed all over himself on the drive there! so stink. oh, leon came back for a week. that was pretty lame since he was at his little orientation for 12 hours a day. gay. he decided to take the job on the big island and it sucks cuz i won't get to cruise with him buuuuuuuuuuuuut it gives incentive to do my weekend getaways with what little money i have left. i know luke and i have been talking about doing a trip and this could be our opportunity!

i finally finished another chinese drama "hi, my sweetheart." i absolutely adored it. currently watching "my queen." a lot of the cast members from the first one "fated to love you" is in it. bringing back old memories :D