farewell november

so this long weekend has been pretty junk. it was fairly eventful in good ways yet way too many bad things have piled up to make it painfully long. my thanksgiving was nice so thursday was good. friday, i waited for FIVE hours in walmart for a nintendo ds lite...for myself. which made matters worst was forgetting my cellphone in my car, an ipod without battery life, and no one accompanying me. ally and codi were at walmart as well but on the other side waiting for cameras. they checked up on me time to time but i was antsy each time. work all weekend sucked. no one felt thankful after thanksgiving apparently. today i ran over a metal peg on by the curb while parking and it poked a hole in my tire. i just stared at it in disbelief. i had no idea every car carries a spare tire with tools. lesson today, i learned how to change a spare tire. decided to get all new tires which set me back another $350 in costs. december is gonna be one expensive ass month.

so november, i wrap you up with nothing but unfortunate memories. thanks for owning me.

give thanks

here is a list of all the things i am thankful for.

• God. thank You for giving me life and Your unconditional love for me even though i am a screw up

• friends and family. give or take some exceptions with current situations...but yeah. thank you for all the great memories and you guys stuck out with me through thick and thin <3>

• my educmakashun. thats important right???

• my job for giving me money to support my ass through such tough financial times with my family. also it feeds me.

• the boy toy. even tho the future is uncertain with him, he's been there for me quite a lot.

• good health, though i don't have insurance and im sick atm. gg.

• to have a car to drive around daily

• flushing toilets - i even wrote a journal entry on toilets for ms. lusk's class.

• birth control

• *wild card*

dying

so its two days before thanksgiving and i am sick. i think i have the cold and i really hope it doesnt get worst. so far my throat is sore, i have headaches, i am hypersensitive to touch, and my tummy doesn't wanna hold food. the tummy thing might be a good thing since it won't make me fat. i better be better by tomorrow night since it is the phuket thai thanksgiving party. its gonna be weird with the other locations coming over since we dunno any of them. i hope my tummy wont fail me! still dunno what to do for thanksgiving but i hope it will be good. black friday seems to be calling my name except i don't really have anything to buy. i'm not sure what to get for people. blehhhh. ill update later.

LOLcat for you!

little splurges

so the other day i got myself a pedicure. i love it!! i highly recommend smiley nails to whoever is reading this lol. it was $20 for the pedicure but i wanted a flower design as well so total it was $26 excluding tip. too bad it was pouring so it was pretty hard walking back to my car. jj bakery was a delight with allison. poor thing she had to suffer in the rain with me..lol

that night was crazy as well. erin and i were suppose to go to the W hotel but that plan didn't follow through so instead we drank at my place. lauren decided to bring monopoly but we weren't coherent enough to keep up with the game lol. the rest of the night was interesting but ill spare details.

i think i may be coming down with something. my throat is scratchy and its starting to piss me off. i dont wanna get sick since i dont even know if i have insurance or not. working kinda sucks. sometimes i find myself asking what's the purpose of doing this?? i feel like a robot just doing my thing to earn a couple dollars in tips. idk.

sometimes i wanna go back to school on the mainland. i miss the activities since my life is so dull back home. its comfortable and more productive i suppose but it's just losing its luster. and to add to this paragraph, im going to get myself a ds lite on black friday. yay!

near to you

idk what else to name this blog entry except for the song i am listening to at the moment. it is by a fine frenzy. they write the saddest songs ever.

it is almost thanksgiving. i have absolutely no idea what to do for that holiday. i hope my mom close the restaurant that day and cook me food. i miss her cooking. phuket thai is having a thanksgiving party the day before so we'll see how that goes. school is starting to wind down so that is a good thing, still so much left to do though. registration starts in about two weeks and i still have no idea what to take. i dunno if i should stick with four classes or five. i'm sure i'll be able to handle five since none of my classes look THAT difficult.

work today was gay. restaurant closed at 10 pm and i didn't leave until 11:45. mainly due to a large party that didn't leave right away AND we cannot count pass 5. there are suppose to be 6 trays but we couldn't find the last one. it was where it belonged the entire time but we just miscounted -_-. lame.

twilight the movie seems to be highly anticipated. i have no freakin clue what its about. is it like harry potter? i know its about vampires or something but frick, thats all i know haha. what's so good about it? someone please clue me in D:

i'm still super confused with another aspect of my life. i guess i really wanna be near but keeping safe distance as well. it is everything i want but so much i don't need to deal with. everything is torn.

sun circus

today was the cirque du soleil performance. it was AMAZING!! probably the best $15 i've spent in awhile. if you wanna do something different and its inexpensive (about $40 per ticket), i highly recommend this! its astonishing to see how strong these people are! the guys in the performance are ripped like no other. *drool* haha. it was my first friday night off in forever and it was pretty eh after the show. just ate dinner at the food court with some friends and the sony expo. i was suppose to go to the gym but that seems to be a no go. whatevers.

its starting to look a lot like christmas and thanksgiving didn't even come yet lol. i hope this winter season will be more "warming" than last. since everyone seem to have a wish list on their blog, i might as well too :D here is my wish list:

• Nintendo DS Lite
• iPod nano 8 gb
  
• Swim suit
• Business suit
• Pencil case - thanks sunny
• Haircut at J Salon
• A spa treatment (massage and or pedicure is all i need :D) - i got a pedi

yeah i'm not really a material person...except maybe the first two haha. i doubt ill get anyone to buy those for me so ill just suck it up and be INDEPENDENT as usual.

EDIT: so i went to xyloh's last night and it was a RAVE. i was so confused as to what was going on and even had to pay cover for the first time...$15! there were kids of all ages there and like half the ppl were rolling. man, i wanna be where they are if i ever go to another one of these things

countdown

this week has been condensed into these three days. it kinda sucked since i was still in vacation mode so now im busting ass by writing this blog of how hard i should be studying. ive been studying for TIM for awhile but i don't feel all that prepared. the material is pretty straightforward so i hope to do fine. tomorrow i have my executive interview for my other TIM class...everyone i have talked to from that class has done it except me. whyyy?? friday i have a quiz for chinese and astronomy and my interview essay is due. damn it. but at least i got off from work to watch a cirque du soleil performance! yay!!

i finally got a new phone. its the nokia music xpress something in silver. it's really nice to look at but technologically challenged me is having problems haha. it's so cool i can create my own ring tones and it comes with a music player. did i mention it has guitar hero as a game?! nice touch on that one ;) but the menus and stuff is super plain so bleh. you win some and lose some i guess.

the holiday seasons are approaching. i get really lonely during thanksgiving and christmas. i think the main reason being my family is so out of the loop with one another and we don't really make a big deal out of them. i can't wait to spend it with friends though. it's been almost a year since i've had this blog, time sure goes by fast. about a month or so left of school. i'm dreading winter break but yet look forward to it. there are so many reasons to it...sigh.

PS: i don't like how my iTunes work now. the main music menu is all confusing or is it just me?? help?

pink party

last night was the pink party. it was definitely a lot more fun than i expected. xyloh was lame for having the half off drinks only until 11. by the time we got there, it was over -_-. it was ok, i spent money but got a bunch of free drinks as well. i wore my stiletto heels. they were hella sexy but beauty knows no pain. i couldn't feel my toes after i took them off. they literally went numb for a good hour or so. that night just got progressively more interesting. but it all worked out in the end.

i've been really slacking off for TIM. my exam is this thursday and i havent' really absorbed much info. i hope im not overconfident cuz then ill prolly fail it again..ugh! i went to sandy's earlier today and brought my books to read. i felt SUPER dorky and i was distracted big time with all the ppl in the water and the sounds of the waves. ok tomorrow im gonna be MIA to study and get all my shit together for school T_T.

your talk is cheap

i finally attended my first TIMSA meeting. man, i guess i won't be able to make the free dinner thing they offer since i'm not quite an active member since i did not attend one of every event. poop. i hope the ones i do go to this month will be fun :) we're down to one more month of school. it went by pretty fast but i don't feel as accomplished since i have been lazy all semester long. i fell asleep in astronomy today and i felt i was the ONLY one asleep. i woke up with drool stains and all. i mean, why didn't anyone else sleep, do they actually find that class exciting?!?! idk.

people shouldn't say things they don't mean. most guys are all talk and no show and i can spot those out so easily. i like to hear it and believe its all true. but i've got plans up my sleeve since everyone has ulterior motives despite what one says. then again, i've been convincing myself to think one way for so long i'm starting to believe myself. this mindset of mines can't seem to be shaken off for some reason and it's pretty irritating. i want to be accepting again but i've still got a lot of learning to do still.

with this, i bring you guys back to old school with this song.

autumn

happy november!! election day is coming up, along with a bunch of work that must be done for school X_X

halloween was yesterday and i had the most hectic day. had only like 2 hours of sleep and ran around running errands and what not before work. work was oddly busy which sucked since i didnt even make any money! went to xyloh but didn't drink too much since it was late. i didnt have to buy any of my drinks which was prety cool :) cruised waikiki for a little bit but i had to leave since i was in desperate need to use the potty. lame. but overall, this was probably my most eventful halloween :D also it was my first time dressing up in a full on costume. i was a frou frou princess but actually i was the deadly sin "pride" but whatevers. lol

work today sucked. rinse and repeat tomorrow.