limbo

i hate this feeling. the feeling of having no money, the feeling of insecurity. my internship with JAL is over with and i didn't get accepted for an extension. as shon puts it, no one was the asshole in that situation. i wanted to quit, they didnt want me to stay haha. i still feel bad since i should have done better. it's not my fault that the language barrier made it so difficult for me to be happy. i was also having drama with hallmark aviation due to the scheduling and pay. i need to get a second job to pay for all of my expenses and hallmark just wouldn't cut it for me. today, i worked out a good schedule that will work out but now i still have to wait for da hukilau to call back for a job offer/decline. sigh, hard times...

school sucks. my capstone class will be a toughie. aza aza fighting!

last semester

this is my last semester of school. thank goodness! i've been waiting for years. i'm worried since my capstone class will be difficult. ughhhh...im skurred for it @_@

last night, i celebrated my last night of the summer at apartment 3 where i was all sorts of fucked up. two dollar kettle one vodka. ack, i was dying. hanging on my first day of school was not cool. hehe i rhymed! ok, now onwards to hw!

tgif

oh man, i never thought i would say this but TGIF!!! it's been a long week. only five more shifts with JAL and i'm DONE. i just had my interview with hallmark aviation services and i really hope i get the job. with my passport found, i am ready to travel the world! watch out world, michelle is here to seize the opportunity! when funds allow....

tonight was pretty epic. started out at 39 hotel, totally dug that place. then we found ourselves at ichiriki loft for a birthday and then champions where kevin and i drank like one, followed by the beach. good times! i'm tired as hell but tonight was worth the driving around and funds. cheee!

ps. i owe kevin plenty drinks!

close call

i had the absolute worst night/day so far this summer. last night was lindsey's last night before heading back to corn country so hanging out was nice. i drank a starbucks drink which i regret and was suppose to go hiking dark and early to watch the sunrise. during this time, it was also shon's last day in hawaii before his family vacay to california. so many things going on and not enough me's to go around. selfish him and stupid me just got at it with each other all night. i couldn't even sleep to make matters worst. i was miserable all day -_- it's all over now. the hike is over and i missed out, shon's gone on his trip, at least i had the breakfast i asked for. sigh. crap day.

so many chores to do at home. usually, i let my mom handle it but she's been really MIA lately. whatevers.

papaya farm

so the past couple of weeks, i've discovered papaya farm! it's like farmville but not? ever since i started adding random friends, i have been hooked! addicted, if you will. if i sent an invite, just accept it, kthx.

the peresid or something meteor showers were this week. went on wednesday night/thursday morning and that was a half fail. we were camped out at lanikai beach and it was windy as hell. i saw some awesome meteors but right when the show was about to start, the rain came. the horizon looked mad and since there was no light where we were, it was just darn scary!

olivia is finally back home. i miss her a lot. life feels just a little more complete when your good friends are around you. i feel that way for a lot of my friends actually lol.

i was flipping through some old pictures on facebook and i realized how much everyone has changed, in terms of appearance, over the past couple of years. we're getting old :(

japanknee chinky

happy august!

so i quit all my jobs just for japan airlines. let me tell you, i was stupid. it's not worth it! the flier that was presented was so much more appealing and challenging than what it really is. i work only 4 hours a day doing the same thing day in and day out. there is no challenge and the language barrier sucks. sigh...i need a real job soon because this is more temporary than i thought, sigh.

on a more somber note, i feel so lonely these days. it makes me sad because i feel incompetent in life. as always, life goes on.