i scream for ice cream

my dad is a bad parent for making me walk across downtown in the middle of the night by myself while still intoxicated. that is another story.

today was free ben and jerry's. being the fatty that i am, i went TWICE. oh man everything tastes better free but in econ class we learned that there is no such thing as a free lunch. tomorrow is 31 cent baskin robbins but i highly doubt ill be going just cuz i ate choke today.

school is coming to an end and its making me nervous. i have a lot of work to do and seriously not enough time. i am averaging a B in most of my classes and its gonna be a make or break after the finals. depressing...

wtf is wrong with the gas prices?? i can barely afford gas nowadays. i wanna cut back on the driving but its just so damn convenient to drive myself around. more girls need to learn to drive so they can pick me up on girl outings if i ever find time for those.

blogging is like a stress reliever for me. i dont care if its bad grammar up the ying yang but its readable :D too bad i cant post anything privately so i have to handwrite all my private thoughts on paper which works too. oh coleman journals...

wooooosha!

woosha *rubs my ears* but damn it! i have too many piercings!

this entire week has been crazy hectic. lots of emotions and lots of stress. i do not look or act stressed most of the time because i normally dont, but when i do, holy crap, WATCH OUT! i was all jittery and was just snapping at everyone and over anything. very uncool on my part but i couldnt help it. im sorry everyone :c

UH sucks hard cuz i cant register til mid august so i planned out three sets of my future schedule. i called the UH language department for chinese because i thought everyone needs to take a placement for an asian language. WELL, i called and the guy was like, since youre illiterate youre gonna get placed into 101 and i was like, thats what i wanted to take anyways. he kept saying its gonna be a problem so i have to inform the instructor of my circumstances. does he mean im gonna be the ONLY one in that 101 class that is illiterate in that language?! soooo dumb.

i kinda learned to skateboard a little better. need more practice or some fallin down.

i realized that ive been posting every three days. weird.

two jobs work hard u a bad broad

so today i interviewed for two jobs. both restaurants and fairly new. one is at waikiki and ill only be a hostess and parking is $5. ill get paid better than phuket thai but tips wont be as awesome. boo. the second place i hit up was kochi, where makino chaya used to be on king street. everyone is so damn young like under 30 kine young. but its super chill without much structure. i have more opportunity for growth there but idk. the lack of structure is kinda a turn off? and the ppl are nice but idk lol. oh the dilemma. maybe i should just stick with phuket thai all summer -_-

i really wanna be independent and get my luxury car by 25 years old. but i dont wanna sacrifice my school life. PLEASE accounting go through so i dont have to take summer school T_T

emotional baggage

today is 4/20. only last year did i know what today really signifies. im pretty sad yeah?? i like to say i partied it up on this day for the first time :D last minute decision to go to xyloh last night was fun but it could have been more exciting...oh wells. i fit in some bob marley time as well :P

work sucked today cuz it was soooooooooo slow! my coworker and i just cruised for like two hours talking stories about random stuff. all the tip i made and then some went to dinner cuz i owed someone dinner -_-"

anyways, that was pretty much my day and the main thing is emotional baggage certain people have on them without knowing. "i'm glad we're still friends" is what i heard today. its just too bad you remind me of certain things that are so painful that no matter how far i try to look beyond, it'll always be there. i just dont think certain ppl really know how much they have hurt me in the past. im pretty messed up in the mind cuz idk how to deal with non hurtful situations. blehhhh. im super sleepy too cuz i couldnt sleep until 6 am and i had to work at 1030. gg.

phattie

ok seriously, i have been waaaaaaaay too lazy to go gym. i was so amped to go until MIKEY keeps bailing out so jared doesnt wanna go which makes me lose incentive. i can work out without them but its just like...boring afterwards when i cant tease anyone how skinny they are compared to everyone else D: haha. currently, im watching what i eat but it doesnt work if im not burning no calories! maybe ill go later on tonight after my nap or something lol. i know you, jared, read this or will cuz i just told you about this post. WE GOTTA GET ON IT! or else we'll turn like my jiggly arms ) :

anyways, lets talk school. it sucks! i managed to get a B on my history test but im still mad i cant get an A. i have three papers due next week, two of them are MAJOR and theyre due on thursday. i normally write all my papers the night before but i cant do two at the same night. idk what to do with myself now lol.

i have a new goal. i will buy myself a luxury car by the time i am 25. that will make my mommy proud cuz i can afford on by then but idk what to do about insurance and all that jazz. ill figure it out when the time comes in the next five years :)

thank you jerry lau for bringing life back to my blog. he posted a comment on my last one now you do the same! go go go!

seven deadly sins

so i was digging through my old english notebook and found a link for the dante's inferno quiz my teacher gave the class. i took it and i only ended up in purgatory. weak...but in a good way :D
on that same website, it had another link for the seven deadly sins. i took it, and well...

Greed:	Very High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Very High
Lust:	High
Pride:	High

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

this just proves i am one envious greedy bitch who takes pride in lusting. haha but yeah, i cant help that im chinese and im chang. idk what i checked off on that quiz to get so high in lust...weird lol. and yes i do get jealous of ppl kinda easily especially when its a relationship situation. but i shouldnt be bitter cuz im sure many of them are more messed up than i am.

on a happier note because i love ending things on the bright side: i got an A on my math test. the teacher was lenient as hell cuz i wouldnt give myself the score i got for the work i did. but it is all g cuz i was shocked outta my fricken mind! now its time to face the music for all my other classes. gg

PS: from as far back when everyone had a xanga except me, ive always wanted to take quizzes and post them up haha. finally!!!!

it started with a drip...

...then my dad created a leak for over 12 hours trying to fix our drippy sink. our kitchen floor and parts of our carpet has been submerged in water since. since friday morning, i have not been able to use my kitchen sink because it is a mess and there are no handles. today, my dad caused a geyser, water shooting up to the roof and making an ocean on the counter. i had to clean it up. and that wet spot on the carpet has been wet since friday. it is disgusting because it started to stink up on saturday...still smellin strong! i feel bad for the whales D:

this situation is causing drama between my dad and i. i told him to get a plumber but his male ego kept saying he could fix it. soooooo irritating. i think all guys should be able to fix simple stuff but once it gets to a point where you should give up, JUST GET HELP!!!! frick.

my weekend has been really eventful. i woke up on saturday and was surprised it was ONLY saturday lol. im disappointed in yesterday's work. i was happy to finally be cashier and was hopefully for more tips but i barely got any more. the servers gave me like a dollar or two more than the usual. pretty gay...

do you think im sexy

well, ive been up for the past idk how many hours. frick, i studied for econ and got a 70 on it. its still a pass but it dropped my grade 3% and it felt like wasted efforts. math is still haunting me. stupid guy in religion class. if i get busted im hunting his ass down and ripping his insides out and hanging them on a tree. life has been going down hill but i could not be happier.

speaking of religion, we're on buddhism. i find the philosophy really interesting. i should start meditating again cuz i really need to clear my thoughts for a little while. its been awhile and ive lost all my meditation tapes. incorporate a little of buddha's teachings into my life. you suffer cuz you have desires so to end suffering you must stop desires. thats a little hard core for me but yeah lol.

do you think im sexy?! prolly not. i didnt feel very attractive today either. i couldnt even keep my eyes opened for majority of the day...bleh.
PS: why is UH fall schedule so retarded?? or just the schedule in general. im trying my luck to not get friday classes again but at this rate its lookin slim. time to see an advisor..

UPDATE: so i being hella tired as i was earlier, i WENT OUT. i was laying in bed and ready to pass out when i got a phone call from my work place cuz thursday is yanagi sushi night. yep, i went and now it is 2 AM and i have been awake for 23 hours. lovely. i had sake for the first time and it was drinking water lol

let the rain fall down

recalling from past posts, i was complaining how my body wouldn't let me cry even tho i really wanted to. well, i am finally crying my eyes out without any bad feelings in me. it was so random that on monday dickface decides to text me and its just been ongoing to this very moment. he kept asking me stupid personal questions but i would try to avoid it because it really isn't his business. but one text got me flowing in tears today. i dont even remember what it said but it just made me recap my life after him...how lonely everything is and my so called curse. whatevers. life is much better without him but its just a little depressing to reminisce and whatevers. i think i really need to let out all my repressed tears. i feel much better.

on a side note, today is a nice day. very gloomy but it better clear up by tomorrow!

ONE MORE THING: i do not have insurance D: i gotta do kiddie stuff so i dont get hurt and go ER cuz then i'll be broke for sure poo

failure

hours after hours of studying this weekend and such, i think i did poorly on my test. what a disappointment. i talked to a few japanese kids and they said the teacher would make it a little easier than the homework. YEAH RIGHT. that test was so hard! if i get a B ill be ecstatic but i wont get my hopes that high T_T

these past two weeks have been kicking my butt. so much work every night its crazy. at least math it'll ease off til next monday...thank goodness.

im trying to cut back on swearing so please slap me if i swear profusely at any given moment.

maunawili falls

today i went hiking again with jeannie. we decided to hit maunawili falls. she told me it was an easy hike so i didnt expect too much! dude, that hike was nature up the ying yang and we had to cross three rivers. reminded me of the three rivers hike a bunch of us went on a few years back but that one is by far the most intensive hike to date for me. i didnt get wet so it was good but small kine muddy :) there were so many stairs on the maunawili trail that the step master ain't got nothin' on that hike! haha but our ultimate goal is stairway to heaven and i heard its like an hour worth of step master. yikes @_@

ummmm lets take a recap of my week so far.

• hardcore homework sesh. never fun D:
• karaoke friday night. its been awhile but i sang my heart out to unbreak my heart ; )
• ive been advertising The Secret.
• my new work schedule kinda sucks but whatevers.
• I GOT A RAISE FOR WORK! hehehehehe
• damn my week is boring..
  

i plan on taking it easy tonight, go home after work and do homework. wake up and go to church and work after. come home and do more homework and study. yeah.....im determined to get an A for my math test! cheeheeeeee!

along came a drought

title pretty much self explanatory if you've been keeping up with my analogies. im not sad, just frustrated/disappointed that it died so suddenly. whichever the case, i just have to keep my head high and stay positive :)

school sucks boto. i am pretty behind with my work and im starting to stress since there are only five more weeks of classes. sigh, i need to get on it. math is starting to worry me since i dont know the material that well. shitty deals. english sucks too and i cant seem to get past a B for history -_- religion is pretty cake. econ on the other hand is confusing and im chugging along but still feel screwed.

im counting down the weeks til summer. but summer school calls and i am considering picking up a second job. i wanna move out D: i really miss my mainland friends. cant wait til they come home. hmm...my trip is still up in the air. chicago is definitely a possibility but i gotta get my lazy ass to a travel agent to work out the kinks.

wow, this is a random post of everything on my mind but i need it so its g. but anyhoo, happy april! new month new start :D hahaha i wish it was only that easy.