hauntings

people of my past are coming to haunt me or something. get outta my mind! maybe its a sign lol. idk why i cant stop thinking of them. i wish i could make my amends with all of them and just end everything on a good note though we may not speak to each anymore. there is ONE person that recently came to mind. i want to so badly just call you up to say hello but im scared. its a two way friendship and it kinda ended with the ball on your court. because of that, i have not taken any action to keep in touch. sigh...

i really like jesse mccartney's new album. i havent gotten it yet but ive been listening to some of his tracks on youtube. its pretty good. kinda reminds me of justin timberlake. his video "leavin" was depressing to watch haha. ill upload one of his videos. its called Told You So.

what's your drive?

what compels people to do what they do?

i found out something in my workplace that completely saddens me. my favorite dishwasher told me he lost all motivation to work because my manager canceled his insurance. he is the most hardworking person in the kitchen and is so helpful for all of the front of the house employees. its gonna be sad if he decides to quit.. idk why my manager would do that; greed? lack of funds? idk. sucks. on the topic of work, starting NEXT week i might pick up up shifts since i really want my coworker to move up to server as well. as for the bar, a few more weeks and im outta there. ill definitely miss my customers and the money sigh.

another thing kinda reminds me of my situation of last summer. man i miss it even though it was stressful and painful but at least i knew i kinda belonged somewhere. this relates to the title. what makes one do what one does?? seriously. maybe i should be a psychology major :P right now my compeller is to get skinny again. i eat and sleep waaaaay too much. ive been waking up at 1130 am - 12pm all week. my whole day seems wasted and that is a shame. i need to live it up a little better this summer.

my mommy is opening a restaurant soon. im pretty excited for her and i really hope it will do well since she invested a lot of money and time to it. she made me her little spy and go into a liquor store to check out beverage prices so she can get an idea. the shop owner obviously knew what i was doing, frick. so i bought a lighter with my drink purchase :/ whateverssss. i need to clean up my apartment. it is filthy beyond anything i can imagine. i dont even know which clothes are clean or dirty. im just gonna stuff them all in the washing machine.

LOLcats FTW.

just for fun

this post is for the sake of blogging. i shall recap events of the week

• got an A for accounting! whoohoo!
• getting fat cuz ive been going out too much and eating too late at night
• so mad that the birthday party i went to, the bday guy didnt even remember i was there. i smoked with him and everything -_-
• i got my eyebrows done. very archy for my preference but im sure it'll look better after a week
• scored half a bottle of wine cuz one of my tables couldnt finish it :)
• went to a hostess bar for the first time. NEVER could i get myself to do that kinda shit cuz its so demoralizing.

ill post more later. brain fart right now but ill leave you with this pic :)

club hoppin' tuesday

tuesday was crazy! i was out all night for amanda's birthday, ally's ear piercing, pipeline, scruples, and dennys. it was wild and a lot of fun drunken moments which resulted in watching the sunrise on my drive home. man, im torn between a situation that i seriously do NOT wanna get involved. its just more batchi for my life. frick.

wednesday i literally slept ALL DAY. the only time i was awake was to eat lunch with jen and going movies with vincent. love guru was an ok movie. they had some good meanings but it was just retardedly funny. kinda. we then went to mac 24/7 to get some food. i wanted pancakes but we knew we couldnt finish them so we got a veggie lasagna, chocolate cupcake, and banana split. so much sweet stuff.

thursday i worked at the bar and it was not that exciting. super dead but it was g. me and my coworkers went to evergreen for some drinks. now im typing this whole blog kinda buzzed. if my plan succeeds then ill be drinking a lot this week. the most ill drink any week of my life and it should be fine cuz i am young and lovin it!!! fuck.

crazy weekend

sooo friday was darryl and mikey's birthday dinner. tanaka of tokyo was definitely a place to go if im not paying for it! haha. pretty pricey and not a whole lot of food but it was good. afterwards we went to xyloh. VERY random decision to go but we went. it was pretty fun until i discovered someone tried to rob my car -_-. after the club gwen found my entire passenger window BROKEN! for some unknown reason i was relatively calm about it. i was reluctant to call the police since i was drinking earlier but i did anyways. it was useless to do so since my insurance doesnt even cover for the damage! gg geico. my dad got it fixed the next day and it cost $220.

saturday i went out for lunch with pauline, ning, and her friend britney. we went to phuket thai. haha im so sick of that place! went to work and it was pretty busy. idk, i didnt make that much money tho. i even got stiffed!! prolly because i forgot their chicken but still, at least leave me a dollar tip. went club AGAIN that night. it just wasnt that satisfying since i was there for only an hour and i dressed fly but it wasnt the same. oh wells. me and the girls made a road trip to the kahala zippys. the end of saturday night

sunday, jen, olivia, and i went to lanikai beach. it was different and it was pretty chill. afterwards we tried out lanikai juice. note to self: never get the amazon cherries cuz it sucks. we decided to check out pali lookout but it was cold haha.

on a serious note: i wish my life is a little more fulfilling. i feel like i want to just take a few months off and travel the world. i miss you but im too scared to approach you again. <----many many people that were in my life...

c-walk

so maybe its just me but i realize A LOT of asian kids can do the crip walk. its like....WHOA but kinda cool at the same time lol. due to IBY, ive turned into a web junkie and i find all the weirdest web trash out there. this has got to stop but i cant help but want to hit top 100. blahhhh.

im sooooo damn bored these days since im finally free from school and crazy work hours but everyone decides to pick up jobs and take classes. i played semi serious tennis for the first time in half a year. it was really fun to bring back my competitive side but my shoulder is sore now. yogurtland has apparently been the new "it" spot since you cant really go wrong with yogurt and its pretty cheap.

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went to the gym with jen and we took a shadow boxing and lifting class. holy crap, our arms are dead now. i miss taking boxing classes cuz theyre so much fun and you get a full body workout. the lifting class, not too much cuz its too slow for me.

i went to dinner with my mommy last night as well. it was like i went on a date with her cuz i took her to this indian place with a great ambiance. afterwards we went to yogurtland. yep, total date.

just like a boy

so today i pretty much lost my voice. this is gonna suck since i have to work at phuket thai tomorrow and its also 4th of july. at the bar i was screaming and shouting with my sexyful yet manly voice. people were feeling sorry for me because i was all out of it and i was forced to work since it was friggen busy. i took some nyquil so i hope that will give me some restful sleep so i will feel like a million bucks for the weekend :D

another surprise of a lifetime happened again today. well, i kinda had a funny feeling that it was coming but i dont like jumping into conclusions. it was GREAT nonetheless :) :) :)!!! oh yeah, i got a haircut. its nice once i can get it to work for me. also on a side note this is kinda ranting about someone. this person was kind of a fag today. the actions that occured kinda stamped PUSSY on the forehead. whateverrrrrrrs...people need to chillax and pull sticks outta their asses.

OK time to sleep since its alread 3 am and i need to wake up. YUCK.

kung fu

happy july!!!

so the past three movies ive seen all have a common theme and it is to train a loser fellow into something great. those movies were Wanted, Forbidden Kingdom, and Kung Fu Panda. after watching those movies i felt inspired to learn to defend myself haha. wanted was ok but i think i wouldve been happier watching wall-e. the writers for forbidden kingdom seemed to have written the script off proverbs from fortune cookies. ive never felt so chinese watching that but it was pretty good minus the white boy. kung fu panda was the best outta the three.

im seriously too spoiled to go back to work. this past week was so relaxing but i think i got sick...AGAIN. too much shouting and junk food. im gonna try get back into shape since i now have more time to hit the gym. yesterday, jeannie, annie, and i tried to hike diamond head but we didnt finish the hike. i mean we're hardcore hikers and we couldve made it to the top had it not been so damn hot or crowded so we just got lazy and turned back lol. i went running with kevin and leon that night. not a good idea because my legs are suffering today since it was too much activities in one day.

its starting to feel a lot like summer because summer is DONE OVER WITH TOMORROW!!! now i just really gotta study for my final. whateversssss, im sure ill do fine with minimal studying time! im also excited for 4th of july day even tho i work.

things on my mind:

• screwy internet cuz my dad is playing with my cords to work his tv box
• scratchy throat which i hope gets better by tomorrow
• spending WAY too much money when im not even making any for awhile
• started this whole list with the letter S. cool.