last holiday

this year's holiday festivities have been awesome! i loved that i was able to get everything i wanted but mostly, being blessed for things i already have such as a great family and amazing friends. the new year is fast approaching and today is the last day to make 2011 count! work has been hectic and i think i may have caught a cold but i must chug on nonetheless! i'm excited to see where 2012 takes me as there are so many paths and turns ahead of me.

next year, i plan to run/finish my first marathon. it's definitely a feat but i can do it! my goal for it was to do it before 30, i'm excited to cross one more thing off my to-do before 30 list! also on the agenda is GAR and warrior dash. i hope to fit in pineapple run and monster dash into the year too. ahhh! so excited for these races :)

let's recap 2011!

• anasia's. good times there. met some of the greatest people.
• drunken debaucheries at bar 35 and all over! i can't remember much of those...
• completing the GAR and pineapple run 2011!
• desire to change my body and lifestyle. worked out consistently this year was great!
  
• my across the continent trip. thank you those who made it happen and for taking care
• new-found desire for cooking. oh, the things you can make with some raw ingredients
• hawaiian airlines. an interview experience i'll never forget.
  
• new job at the sheraton waikiki. best decision i made all year long. highly DON'T regret it
• juggling.
  

sweet ride

i am driving a sweet dodge charger now. it's the most awesomest batmobile type of vehicle ever! too bad that car is long as hell...longer than my crv. it's so sexy on the inside because it turns blue! so awesome...sigh..

Christmas is around the corner and i have yet to start my shopping!! i have no idea what to get people and it's making me nervous. i would feel like a total douche if they got me nice things and i couldnt live up to it. i'm also so poor as well. i really need to watch my spendings because my credit card bill is out of control! someone please help me...

lessons

i'm finally getting my car fixed! the appraisal for the damages was over $900...yowza! i was praying that the other guy wouldn't deny hitting my car because common sense and all evidence i have provided points all fingers at him. luckily, mr. sargent man accepted all responsibilities like a real boy. good job. next week monday i take my baby in to get repaired...until then, i get to drive a sweet rental car. woot woot.

the biggest lesson i learned from this ordeal is to stop putting shit off and always get a police report regardless of how minor the damages may seem. i should have done the public a favor by making sure that guy didn't drive on the streets drunk by calling the cops so that was my bad.

as far as hawaiian airlines goes, i got the boot after round 1. i'm not as disappointed as the first time because i really love my job at the hotel so no losses for me. at least i have the chance to run the GAR and warrior dash! i've decided i will run the marathon next year. i've never felt so motivated for my health and fitness. i want to go to the gym today but my bathroom tub is clogged...gross.

i need to get a new phone and plan soon. iphone 4s, htc amaze, or samsung galaxy 2?! decisions. i kinda wanna stick with tmobile but whatevers...siri is kinda calling my name.

chilly

happy december!!!

can you believe the year has passed?!?! holy moly, this has been a crazy year and i loved every moment of it! no regrets! chee!

it's starting to get chilly too. not sure if i'm really diggin' it because it's hawaii and it should never be cold but it's winter weather so i should accept it. gotta get my christmas shopping on soon!

so i was listening to sasha's ipod and i came across this song. it's seriously the best thing i've heard in awhile. taio cruz - "best girl" it's old but it's good :)

put it off

i realize i've been putting off a lot of responsibilities lately. these are important stuff i should attend to but i'll put them in my pocket and save them for a rainy day. calling USAA and geico regarding what happened to my car should have been top priority but i'm like whatevers about it. ughh, what's wrong with me?! i need to make my car payment, pay for parking, sign up for great aloha run and warrior dash. holy crap, where is all my money going?! i spent a butt ton of money on my credit card bill lately and my checkings account went down down down :(

speaking of money, i miss having cash on hand at all times. waiting every two weeks for my paychecks might not cut it for me. however, i find myself charging things a lot lately because of my big girl's credit card. come to think of it, i'm not sure if that's always a good thing. i went from having $1 in rewards to $114 in less than a month. if you can imagine the caliber of my spending...yeah, it's not a pretty sight. i've also been saving a lot of money by eating at work. i love my job because they feed me well; our cafeteria is awesome!

cell phone: i miss my smartphone dearly. i'm having yelp check-in withdrawals. no lie, it's sad.

werk it

so i really don't think i work that much but it definitely feels like i do. i'm not sure what about it but i feel like i'm always at work. it's probably because i'm easily suckered into working split shifts...although only 8 hours total, spans a total of 12 hours of my life. the early mornings doesn't really help much either. so far, work at the sheraton has been swell, i get compliments from the servers a lot so it really helps my morale. i still think i'm getting fat but my savings from not eating out so often is great.

round two for my attempts for hawaiian airlines start 12/5. if i make it through, i wont know of the results until the day after christmas. i love how they ruin good moods that way. on my bday, the day after christmas, the usual. i'm scared of disappointment because i made it so far the last round that if i don't do as well this time, i will be very sad. i shall keep trying regardless :)

i got into an accident the other day...totally wasn't my fault but my beautiful car is all maimed now. it breaks my heart because it's my baby that's all scratched and damaged. fucken military white trash piece of shit cunt face! i called my insurance and they said i have to pay a deductible regardless and that's like $500! i'm putting off on taking action until i could figure it out. sigh, it's so depressing to think about.

thanksgiving is tomorrow and it's gonna be the second double shift of the week. i love to work apparently. work is taking over my life. someone send me a turkey dinner plate to the airport and a stiff drink, thanks.

straight up

apec has been nuts! today, i got diverted twice on the road, car violated by being searched, running late for work, and being irritated by chinese nationals. holy crap the chinese...i've never been more shame to be chinese after dealing with those funkers. they act like they own the place. wtf. also, what did you know, the apec isn't bringing as much money as anticipated. go figure.

work has been great, i'm truly enjoying it but my fears of getting fat is real. free food is dangerous...especially if it's delicious. i feel so lame for not going out anymore because i work so damn much. it's not even like i work THAT much but it's everyday that i have to be somewhere. i work all the hours people do not work so it gives off the illusion that i am working a lot.

is this what a downward spiral feel like? my life is so complicated and i am torn. i hate feelings. that new j cole song "work out" reminds me of my life...sorta. haha or maybe it's the paula abdul version of that song "straight up."

obsession

happy november!!!

it's been 3 days of training for my new job at the sheraton. waking up and getting to work before the sunrises is brutal. i do like it because i feel so productive after getting stuff accomplished! the job has it's challenges and i'm working with big time older timers...like people working since the opening of the sheraton waikiki. those guys have been working twice as long as i've been alive! geez! it's been good so far and everyone has been friendly towards me so it's been fine :)

i think working out is an obsession. i was looking at the wall of achievements at 24 hour fitness kapiolani and it's kinda gross looking at some of those bodies...it doesn't look healthy. those people have serious body image issues. i think if people over-do working out, it's just bad mentally because they cannot see how perfect they are already. well, i can't say much because i'm one of those people. i'll never have the perfect body i've always wanted without plastic surgery so i'll accepted. my body, my accomplishments and i'm proud of it!

1, 2, 3, 4

i was beyond exhausted last night. i skipped going to the gym so i could get some rest but i ended up being wide awake counting sheep at 4 in the morning. so much is going on in my life at the moment and it's exhausting because my mind could not stop racing. it's distracting. i think i'm losing my mind, literally!

if you didn't know, i put in my two weeks at the bar last week. three more shifts to go! i've never been more excited :D i'm also excited to start my new job but that got me reconsidering applying for hawaiian airlines. what?! to follow my dreams to stay with what is safe for now??? i feel like my life is slowly falling into place but i'm torn. this entire month have been so hectic but that's what life's about!

to end this post, i read a bumper sticker to live by...

"shut up & love life!"

psyched

today, i start my new job at the sheraton. it's a 10+ hour long orientation and unfortunately, i work at the airport almost immediately afterward. i think i psyched myself out so much for it i couldn't sleep. being sleep deprived all of yesterday didn't really help my case. sigh. here's to a 15 hour work day. i need a drink after this hehe

life's regrets

happy october!

i feel like crap. it's pretty amazing how fast moods can change. over the week, i was flying around cloud 9 and just after my final interview, i've been feeling like death. drinking away one's sorrows does not do anything. it feels great at the time being but the next morning when the fuzziness subsides, reality hits. nothing's changed except your wallet is probably lighter. each and every time i recall friday afternoon, i get sick to my stomach. i'm not sure of the outcome but whatever it may be, i'm happy to have made it so far into the interview process. positive thinking!!!

on other news, i got hired at the sheraton to be a hostess at their buffet. i think it's a good opportunity and i will seize it. although money-wise, it's not the greatest because it's not a full time job, it will be better than working for more without any benefits, right?!

thankful

a million thank you's to those who had supported me throughout my entire job hunt ordeal. i can't believe i made it so far into the interview process for hawaiian airlines. when i got my first invitation, i almost fell to the ground with excitement. i believe in the law of the universe and if you truly want something badly enough, it will come. i want this bad. this has been the most stressful week of the year with nonstop interviews and preparation. this will make 5 outings for two places this week. i haven't been this stressed since college! exhaustion is an understatement but the show goes on. i can do it!!!!

blessings in disguise

i came to realize that everyone that i have met in my life have been a blessing. some people are truly assets to my life while others not so much but hey, they all teach me something. i feel so blessed to know so many fabulous people. life is so wonderful. i don't understand how some people could be so introverted?! get out there and meet people! you never know who you will come across or what they can help you with later in life. whenever i go out with others, i'm told how popular i am because i usually run into someone. i'm far from popular, i just refuse to live under a rock. it's hawaii, it's really who you know and i make the most of that situation.

irraz

it amazes me how some people have the ability to piss me off. everyone say it's stupid people but really, they can't help being stupid so i let them go. i'm such an easy going person and i can kinda go with everyone's flow and get a long but just some people are just so stubborn, so one-track minded it's ridiculous.

i really dislike people who think it's "my way or the highway" to get things done. things and times change and it doesn't hurt to get a suggestion in time to time. business owners/bosses/managers of the sort should take a class on how to not make people feel like shit before they open shop.

there's so much more i can whine and complain about but i'll take it with a grain of salt and forget about it. maybe some people can't change and they'll forever be sour apples all their lives. shows what kind of people they truly are.

september

happy september!

yes, i am late on the blogs but whatevers. not much has been going on except for me slacking off at the gym and it shows. i've been spending copious amounts of money and this shiz has got to stop! i'm broker by the day and it sucks. today, i've finally finished water for elephants and it was a great book. i love how vivid the writer was so i was pretty much coming up with my own movie. i want to watch the actual movie to compare because certain parts i could not picture because i don't know circuses and trains lol.

i bought the groupon for gyukaku. i think groupon knew i was craving that place for a while and this was a godsend. i'm so excited to go but unfortunately, it's all the way in kaneohe because the kapiolani location was sold out and waikiki is a pain in the ass to deal with...meh.

kesha isn't my favorite artist of all time but i do love this song! it's called the harold song. i heard it while doing some crazy retail therapy and it was stuck in my head ever since <3

paramore

the paramore concert was the best worst concert ever! here's why

BEST:

• paramore is AMAZING live. haley's voice is so awesome
• hellogoodbye!
• two proposals happened! so cute. i forgive that moke guy for being so into a rock show and shoving me around
  
• it was just plain awesome :)

WORST:

• it was packed...like beyond safe packed. it was a slip and slide in there with all that sweat...hot (literally)
  
• i stood behind a guy without a shirt...let's just say it was pretty nasty..
• the lines were messed up...allison and i stood in the 20 yrs and under line for awhile before realizing there was a 21+ line with practically no line. also, there was a 21+ section where it was less packed...gg bamp projects for being so unclear!
• 
  

SIDE BAR: why is my phone restarting by itself?! is it because i dropped it so much? damn.

imma sleep machine

okay, i don't know what is going on but i feel that i am turning into a marathon sleeper. this is not good for my metabolism or well being to be sleeping upwards of 10-12 hours daily T_T. i think i justify it because i tend to wake up early to tend to havoc's needs and pass back out until close to noon. i feel like a phattie.

look-a-likes

is it weird for me to have a stronger fondness for a person that resembles/reminds me of someone i liked?! there are a few guys that just kinda look and kinda acted like former crushes and i instantly have an affinity for that person...hmm. it still doesn't beat the real deal though but any celeb crushes i have, i'm pretty over it lol.

men

sometimes, they just need to shape up and act like one. chivalry 101

the search, the truth, the breakthrough

so i haven't been blogging lately because i've been too lazy to switch emails each time i log on. my bad :( it's already half way through with august and it's blowing my mind how fast time is flying!

the job search has been going. i finally got word back from aulani so i am hopeful! although it is far, i'm sure it will be worth it in the end. i might need to get a smaller car but why not?! i'm crossing fingers to hear final words but in the meantime, i will apply for hawaiian airlines for their in flight service crew and hope for the best for that as well...

honesty, is it bad to be too honest? does the old saying "the truth will set you free" still apply? i guess i am a blunt person but just because i speak what's on my mind. i need to learn to filter some things because i don't want to get myself into trouble. i think over the years, i've been getting a lot better at this :)

the gym has been my second home. there's nothing going on during my day. i need to change my eating habits if i want to achieve ultimate fitness. why is it so hard?!

my music tastes as of lately has been a lot of dance, dubstep, electrodance stuff. below is one of the songs i enjoy :D leona lewis - collide (afrojack remix)

commitments

happy birthday to my favorite manju, shon!

commitments...

so i'm still in a job rut and the retirement home called once again. i'm starting to feel bad and pressured into working there. i heard they are short handed and everyone has been working double time or something.

desperation is starting to hit as i apply to some random places, remington college admissions adviser anyone? i also applied at the kahala resort to be a full-time server. i'm considering quitting the airport to pursue real opportunities in the F&B industry because i think that where may be my passion lie.

i'm still sick. last night was a crazy busy night at anasia's. the money was well worth it but i felt like dying for the first half of the night. sleeping has been a challenge because i feel like i might choke in my sleep because of my nasal congestion. so gross. i also hate how i lose track of how many pills i take and i might overdose that way and die. my over-the-counter pill cocktail medley is pretty impressive, might i add.

God, i know you have a plan for me. please guide me with Your hands and lead me to the right path. i'm letting the Lord take control now...

broke for life

i think i will be broke as a joke for life. this is getting depressing. i was considering picking up a third job in the AM but that would mean i will have to work at least 20+ more hours for not a whole lot of money. i was doing my calculations of how much i would make yearly with three jobs before tax and it's barely half than what i would consider "comfortable." i am useless in the real world. everyone tells me to wait until the right opportunity comes around but i'm scared it won't or i had let a lot of them pass me by, ie: horizon lines. arhgkagabvnad;l!

today i spent it poolside of my apartment. it was so nice to go swimming again! i wanna get crispy golden brown! while i was tanning, i started to think of my job situation and how i do enjoy my free time but that happiness will only get me so far if i'm not successful in what i do. life blows, time to hit the books and go back to school!

can't hang

my tolerance for alcohol is love hate. it's definitely gotten lower which means i can't party as hard as i would like but it saves me money. hmmm.

this week has been very exciting. it started on a wednesday night after work. i took allison, my coworker and classmate, to anasias where we met with her friend, our coworkers, and found crystal lam! we had many shots there and we were feeling adventurous! headed to bar 7 to rage even more, woohoo! plus another beer and 3-4 more shots later, we were rockstars! dickface ran into me (he tapped my shoulder for attention) and gave me a wtf face. guy wants to pick a fight or something with me because i didn't find him, it was vice versa, bitch. it was time to go home and on the way back to the cars, i spied the sushi bar at club evergreen! we just had to go! 2 pieces uni, 4 unagi, 2 salmon, california roll, and spicy tuna temaki and $35 later, we finally went home T_T. i don't know how i managed to drive allison home because while on the road, i was seeing doubles.

friday! kevin texted me for a drink. off to bar 35 we go. 3 shots and two drinky drinks later, i was drunk. thanks mr. bartender ;) <3 x 1000000000000^n. my only full day off as well as shon's was not well spent. we went to izakaya nonbei for dinner with my play hawaii coupon. it was delicious but a bit pricey for what we got. wafu garlic steak, asparagus, assorted tempura, spicy hamachi roll, rice, kinako mochi, green tea ice cream and two beers was $78 pre-discount. not bad i guess. i was still drunk and super full so i asked for a few puffs from his j. and thennnnn i ended up on the moon. shon dropped me off to go to a poker game to win back what we spent for dinner and i just passed out. weak sauce.

i smell fresh payback

UPDATE! i ended up getting PUNK'D! when my sister came home from work, she did her daily business and busts out the modem! WTF! so i ended up getting more pissed off and stole the ethernet cord for an hour while i was at the gym. i came home and gave it back to her and called it even. gg janelle, gg.

my sister is dumb. so i still don't have internet and today I asked her if I could use the ethernet cord to go online. Sister dearest was being a little bitch by telling me to wait an hour cuz she was going to work. We argued because the internet is not for her personal use but the whole family. Her argument was that the wifi I use was my personal problem and I should do something about it...wtf. she sleeps during the day when I'm out and awake at night when I'm home so ill never find the time to go online cuz she's an internet junkie. So anyway, she got pissed and threw out our modem! I went out to bring it back and she got a hold of it again. Whatevers. When she left for work, I couldn't find the modem so I feared she tossed it out once again. Went outside to the trash and the building maintenance guys took out the trash for good!!!

The moral of this story is not to get mad but find solutions to piss off your enemy >:)

At first, I was furious and I hid her laptop under her bed and claimed I broke it via text message. Childish huh??? But I realize that I know the lobby's wifi password but she doesn't so I'm not 100% screwed and janelle pretty much screwed herself. I feel soooo much better about myself now but I'm still mad that she threw away a perfectly working modem and now we have to purchase a new one...idiot.

byebye internet

happy july!!!

So for the past year or so I've been leeching wifi off some random network and all of the sudden there is no more :( i started this post with my phone but with a teeny tiny keyboard and being on the move made this post hard to finish. can someone get me a wireless modem and install it for me, please???

job hunting is fruitless. i'm thinking of working for a retirement home as a server because they offer some pretty good benefits. how sad is my life!? i feel like that is all i know how to do...serve people food and alcohol. i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty darn good at it but it's such a waste of my education -_-. why do people even bother with school? almost all of the things we learn is on the job training unless you're like a doctor or engineer i guess. ugh, thinking about this frustrates me so i will stop :)

in relation to my loss of internet, i'm using my sister's ethernet cable. she cant get mad because i was the one that called hawaii telcom to get that shit and i went on my hands and knees to install it! as far as i'm concern, i get to stay connected as long as i need >:)

life is good when things are simple. for anyone reading that has excess baggage on your shoulders, get rid of them. you won't regret or look back.

life as i know it

i am broke. saving money is hard :(

i have a job interview for a front desk position next week at a low budget hotel. we'll see how that goes. i'm excited but also iffy because i'm not sure how the pay and benefits will be. alan wong is hiring for a full time cashier for the pineapple room and i want to apply but is that all i really want to do??? cashier?! not really but their benefits are amazing for what it is :)

i keep dreaming of moving to las vegas. i ran into an old time friend at the beach yesterday and it inspired me even more. maybe once i get my life sorted out, i will definitely consider doing a great migration to the mainland.

my drinking habits need to come to a halt. i'm so determined to make a lifestyle change to eat right, drink less, and exercise more but it's so damn hard because i'm easily persuaded by temptation :( going back to the gym is so hard since i came home from my trip. ughhhh no motivation at all!

PS: in addition to my last post on expenses, my student loans are due soon! arghh...$1750. i'm just gonna pull that money outta my ass to pay them off at once because i don't wanna deal with interest rates lol

expenses

i'm finally gonna get my teeth fixed...at least two of them. that's $120/tooth. damn
kitteh has an eye irritation so i'm gonna bring him to the vet. $35 for office visit alone excluding any other medications or treatments. ugh....

why is saving money so hard?! i'm looking for inexpensive activities, kthx.

gitters

i am so stressed over my trip. a lot of money has been invested and we're not sure if we can even get to our first destination! i'm hoping for the best but this standby traveling thing is not very fun! for the past two nights, i've been dreaming of the situation and it's making me restless. ahhhhhhh!!! positive thoughts! *I WILL MAKE MY FLIGHT!!!!*

on another note: yesterday, 5/27 was a blastastic! i got so much done but spent a lot of money as well...recap bullets time!

• car washed and waxed $40
• laser pointer and watch batteries replaced $17
• parking for next month $30
• cat food $16
• movies $10.50
• dinner at sweet home cafe :)
• the hangover 2!
• beer pong except i didn't play
• jack in the box jalapeno poppers :9
  

ps: hangover is EXACTLY the same as the first one but just different scenarios. it was still funny but predictable :P

tick tock

TIME MANAGEMENT: why is that so hard to do right now?! working nights only has made me into an extremely unproductive being. because i know i have my nights off, i keep putting my errands and other things aside thinking i always have "tomorrow" to work on it.

example: getting my car detailed. i've put it off for almost two weeks now. it's not gonna wax itself. i need to get on it and i'm already planning to not do it today but save it for tomorrow. i hate making excuses for myself -_-

i need to stop eating so much. appetite is back with vengeance. save me from myself :/

pineapple run is tomorrow! outta shape but can do ;)

graduation and down side

congrats to all of the graduates who finally made it this past weekend! graduation is such a crazy day. i hate the parking and exiting situation because manoa is clearly not made for that much traffic. i always get sunburn and even with my trusty umbrella, it did no good. i wished i could have gone out but work was good so i can't really complain :P

down side: lately, i feel so sad. i really wanna go on my trip just to clear my mind and get some clarity. i need to snap out of this phase because i miss looking at things on the bright side! get it together!

addiction: yep, i am officially addicted to criminal minds. getting withdrawals from not watching it is clearly a sign.

trip: 13 more days! i can't wait. the east coast adventures is still uncertain because i have no schedule of what to do so i hope it will work out in the end.

hong kong: still no word yet from my adviser. maybe it's a sign...

香港

i've got a strong feeling about this one! i was browsing through my email when i read one from the TIM school advising of an internship opportunity in hong kong! it's an entry level internship for SIX months. i just had a feeling that i should do it. i'm not sure if it's opened to alumni but i am definitely interested. they want interns to be there by july so it's kinda do or die, IF i am eligible. how exciting. i wonder how hong kong's work life is like compared to the US. i hope i don't get worked like a dog because they offer $500/month. that's very little since i get more working only 16/hr a week at the airport lol. second job work visa? ahhh! i will update when i get a response from my advisor :)

gloomy mother's day!

happy mother's day!

what a gloomy day! the weather has been like this for a while now. it really adds to my sickness inactivity because i can't really go out and do much and i was sick so i felt like my cat; cooped up at home all day everything. now i know why he's so crazy...cabin fever?

anyway, i want to dedicate this post to my amazing mom! she's finally living the american dream and i am so proud of her. she immigrated from the motherland to the US without knowing anyone or a lick of english. my mom made it on her own while raising me and my sister which she was half successful in because janelle is still lost lol. now, she's a successful business owner. i really think my mom is a super mom. she works so much but still has the time to cook and take care of a lot of other things. i heart my majah :)

sickness

happy may!

this year sure is flying by! unfortunately, the beautiful month of may so far as been shitty because i've contracted some funky cold. this is unlike a lot of colds i've had in the past few years because of its severity. although my appetite has gone down dramatically (yay for weight loss), i still feel like a piece of fat. i think it's from all the inactivity because all i do is sit around and watch TV all day. literally. i've been getting into a lot of crime shows such as "CSI" and "Criminal Minds," so much that i think i can commit the perfect murder ;) kidding! but yeah, those shows engulf my life as of recently.

work is slowing down. i am working less because westjet now only have night flights. there goes my income but being sick definitely has its pros. i was bedridden for almost a whole week so i hardly went out or spend much money. go me! saving for my awesome trip in less than a month is hard work. i have no idea how much i might end up spending since craig might not get into canada and plans might suddenly change -_-. i'm praying for the best because idk how i feel about spontaneously going to san fransisco lol.

worry free easter

this past easter has been one of the best. i was so blessed to be under the presence of nick vujicici. he was born without limbs and grew up to be one of the world's most inspirational speakers. his message was life changing. it really make you not want to complain about life's problems because there are others that have it way worse. check the video to educate yourself :D


truly amazing. God is good.


i've eaten two buffets in the past 24 hours. if i were to go to hell right now, it would definitely be for gluttony. i disgust myself @_@. todai saturday night and sidorak early sunday morning haha. i really want to go on an easter egg hunt. i wish there was one for adults or i could be a kid again for a day

i've decided people don't learn. it's quite unfortunate to ruin friendships that way. such is life. life is too good to be stuck over dramas. keep it drama free, kids. count your blessings :)

random post. life has been too busy to sit down and unwind. i will try harder to keep up with my blog. i enjoy documenting my life because it's really nostalgic to go back to my posts and reflect. i learn from past mistakes and grow into a better person. thanks blogspot!

avril

happy april!

i apologize for the MIA over march. life has been really busy. at the moment, i am stuck in a rut and i want to get out. anyways, i weighed in for the biggest loser competition. holy eff word, i only lost three pounds. it's alright because i'm glad i lost some of that weight despite the copious amounts of alcohol i can consume. lifestyle change soon? nah, mr. bartender is too hard to resist ;)
UPDATE: my biggest loser competition was a fail because my weigh in was invalid. GG.

my cousin offered me a job at her bar. i'm debating so much over it. i already work upwards to 30ish hours with both my jobs and adding on an extra 16 hours is a lot. UPDATE: i decided to decline the offer. too much work isn't good for me :)

confessions. they never seem like a good idea :/ i will leave it up with that :P

st. patty's day and beyond!

so as of late, i've been going out quite a bit. st. patty's day destroyed me as i vowed to not drink for a few days lol. irish car bombs, green beer, jameson tattoo, chodang, dropping a bill, and passing out in my car made for an amazing time :)

puking at chodang's wasn't that fun. i need to stop this drinking crap, it's making me fat...

crippled

ok, why is this fricken happening to me?! over the span of less than 5 days, i achieved two bullshit injuries!

first was i resprained my ankle. the SAME ankle. i guess that one was murphy's law waiting to happen. it was first fridays, i was drunk out of my mind, the ground was wet, and i was in high heels. in my mind, i knew it was gonna happen. seriously, before i knew it, i was crouched on the ground in pain! my blackout friday night was revived after that sprain lol. it was sore, it swelled, but it wasn't as bad as the initial sprain. score.

tuesday: i was let off work from anasia's because they thought i was still in pain from my ankle and thank goodness they did! it was seriously fate because i threw out my back. yessir. i was standing up filling out a form and i turned to cough into my shoulder/arm and BAM! *tweak* ouch. yes, i hurt my back over a cough! i was crippled practically the rest of the day and pretty much today. way to ruin mardi gras :(

as i am aging, i get still get the same injuries but how i get them is getting lamer and lamer. my first back injury was from sports, then from lifting glasses, and now, a cough. gg.

girlies day

happy girl's day!

i'm hoping for an amazing day!

there has been so many emotional distress in my life. i guess i kind of brought myself into this situation and when this happens, it usually doesn't end well. i think i need a day to do some serious soul searching. dilemmas dilemmas. i hate this.

march madness

happy march!

girl's day is in a few days! not too much has happened within the past few days but on 2/26, i had the craziest day/night ever! it started with shon's cousin's wedding. i drank a corona at 10:30am. wow. i had dinner with the crew at kuru kuru. boy, i went overboard and ate too much which equals $$$. i regret getting that hamachi because it wasn't very fresh. met up with my coworkers to go drink at 8 fat fat 8. i then went to the villa with some coworkers and met up with craig and his peeps. it was pretty crazy there and i was not happy i had to pay $10 for cover, what the heck is a cover charge?! coworkers dug out and we went to bar paparazzi and ka for a little bit to pick up craig's friend's girlfriend. she's apparently a go-go dancer with big boobies, asian barbie doll. i felt so ugly -_-. ginza afterward and zippys! holy moly, i had about 10 shots and 3 beers that night alone. it was the most i've ever drank in one night but i had no hangover or palu the night of or the next day! go me! if this is what a life of a party animal feels like, take me off the list, i don't think i could live like that every weekend. i also spent close to a bill that night. eating and drinking and drinking some more is getting awfully expensive!

i'm currently nursing a cold but i hope it would go away soon. it was the aftermath of the craziness. thank "you" for the chicken soup. that was the sweetest thing.

GAR x5

the great aloha run was this past monday. it was amazing as always. i surprised myself to be able to run 4 miles nonstop. i knew i could have pushed on but my body and my mind was weak so i ended up walking quite a bit towards mile 6-8. a bit disappointed but i am still happy with the overall result. the rest of the day was amazing as well. lunch at sanoya's, beach, imanas tei, yogurtland! so eventful. thank you Lord for blessing me with wonderful people and for me to be healthy.

sunday prior to the run, we had a bbq at dylan's house. it was the best bbq i've been to with friends because it was organized and we didn't run out of food! thumbs up! tuesday night at anasia's was a lot of fun. we did so well that i wished i worked a little bit longer. went out with some of the regulars and the bartender to bar 7. we had only 30 minutes before last call there so we just drank practically non stop. it was a great drunken night.

the month is almost over, where are you going, time?!

juggling is hard...as it was proven awhile ago and i'm reliving the problem -_-

sweet valentine's

happy valentine's day!!!

it was a miserable start as i couldn't sleep due to my ankle. i couldn't walk. i fell asleep at 5am because the pain was so unbearable...however, come morning, i could walk again!!! it was a valentine's day miracle! i went to the massage dude i've always gone to in high school and 10 minutes later, $50 less in my wallet, i felt much better. i decided to go to work at the airport and in retrospect, i should've just stayed home...

tonight, i had dinner with tiffany, olivia, and amy. we went to jj french pastry and it was one of the longest dinners i've ever experienced. reservations at 830pm and we didn't leave until well after 1030. it wasn't so bad because i was with great company and the food was yummy.

overall, it was a great day. i am content ^_^

12 hours

on saturday, 2/12 to sunday 2/13, i had the craziest 12 hours. so much had happened but i will bullet it because it was so awesomely terrible :)

saturday:

• work at the airport. delayed flight but no biggie
• met up with coworkers at gordon biersch
  
• anasia's for work but got cut after 3 hours
• cruised with the coworkers
• ka and ginza for danny's bday celebration!!!
• met an aussie dude
• leon drove me home and i could barely walk
• ktfo around 430am
  

sunday:

• koko head with craig at 1230pm
  
• it was really humid and i was hanging
• made it to the top in 31 minutes, not bad
• slipped on some rocks 5 steps on my way down and landed on my ankle D:
• sucked it up and went down on my bad ankle
  
• big mac meal @_@

yup, those were eventful 12 hours. my ankle was so messed up tonight...

date night

my days have been flying. it felt like yesterday when it was sunday and i was enjoying my day off. now it's in the "middle" of my crazy work weekend. i guess i am making the best use of my day but i feel it could be more substantial. is it time for a full time job?!?! :O my mom and dad have been pressuring me to grow up but i really really don't want to yet! damn it, let me go on my vacation first!

valentine's day is in 3 days. three days... goodness. i'm happy i am working at least one of the jobs. amy and olivia wanted to go out on valentine's night but our procrastination to get anything done is terrible. we haven't even made reservations for anywhere yet lol!

date night the movie was hilarious. maybe because i was under the influence but i thought it was funny :D my last two nights have been amazing. night one: jj dolan's, indigo, and bar 35. night two: mom's restaurant, la tour cafe, anasia's, ward theater fail, date night movie at home. yeah.

february

happy february!!! and chinese new years!

i cannot believe it's been so long since i've blogged. life just seems so much busier working two jobs even though i still work less than 40 hours a week. chinese new years was the other day and it's my second start to the new year. so far, life has been interesting. i think it feels amazing to only have two drinks when i go out, although occasionally, i will have an extra or two more! for chinese new years, i feel that i should count my blessings more. i make my own luck and giving money to a lion dance company isn't gonna cut it!

life as i know it, at the moment:

airport/westjet: same ol' same ol'. nothing exciting but i did check in grace park! highlight of my airport career thus far. i feel not up to par at times but eh, it's a whatever job.

anasia's: it's fun there but it feels like im joining a new group of friends because everyone that goes there are regulars. i'm trying my best to adjust to all of the regulars and remember their names and drinks but i'm slowly getting the hang of it :) i wish there was more consistency between the bartenders because each person has their own way of doing things. that's cool but it gets tiring for me because i get in trouble for things another bartender wouldn't care about or whatever. sigh. i already dread going to work but once i'm there it's alright. it feels like phuket thai all over again. is that a bad thing???

friendships: i think i want to lay low a little bit. i feel blah when i think of certain people and relationships with them. some days, the loneliness kills me and i don't think i should be feeling that way. maybe i'm over analyzing things but laying low for a week or so seem to be the right thing to do.

fitness: i feel great that i'm exercising much more! turbo kick on mondays, mma on wednesdays, and koko head on sundays! i feel skinnier and i look it but the weight is still the same. why?!?!! muscles perhaps?! who knows. whichever the case, i feel amazing and that's all that matters :)

chuggin' along

last night, saturday, was one of the most eventful nights i've had in awhile. i cruised with craig and we had an adventure.

• dinner at kiwami ramen
• shot guns at royal hawaiian gun club. i decided at that point, guns are scary and the shells hurt when they hit your head. oh, and i have a terrible shot
• karaoke hut with my westjet coworkers
• beer pong/street fighter/pictionary at lane's house

great night ^__^

as for my diet thing, it's going here and there and then it's not. it's so hard since there are times when food is just on the menu! ugh, its gonna be a long two months...

count your blessings

today had potential to be a super crappy day. i really do believe in counting my blessings. God has been really good to me and i cannot thank Him enough for the calm after all the storms that had come my way. my friday:

CAR: it started with my missing car in the garage. when i couldn't see it, i naturally panicked but i realized it was parked where i left it last night...in the middle of a reserved police parking zone during the day. damn it, it would most likely be towed. i ran towards there with two textbooks and a fedex package in tow. thank you lord, it was still there with only a $35 ticket.

WORK: an hour ish delay for work and i got placed in the junk position as closeout. it means i am stuck there extra long due to the delay. TSA confiscated this thing called bagoong (some filipino condiment) because it wasn't packaged correctly and that took forever to resolved. sold my first airline ticket. pretty much, i was so bored for majority of the work day i wanted to cry lol.

PARKING: leaving the airport, i was so stoked to finally go home. the parking arm thing was broken for the lot i was in! unbelievable. it took about 20 minutes for a staff person from the parking office. on the flipside, it was around 630pm so therefore, i bypassed traffic!

DINNER: olive tree cafe was a fail. decided to go to CPK at kahala mall and the wait was around an hour half. holy moly, i was starving along with everyone else by then. but it was a great meal and i also bought gummy candies while waiting, yay!

ME TIME: i am home now just spending some time reflecting on my day and just unwinding. it feels great as i know i will have another hectic day tomorrow.

yesterday, my dad had to go to the ER. i am always thankful that he's been relatively healthy despite his age.

spoil me

tuesday was a great day off! i was spoiled rotten :3

• shopping spree at forever 21
• walk in the dog park
• sweet home cafe
• first day at anasia's!
  

i was exhausted but it was amazing. i bought several items and i still have a bank of $60 left to spend, bwhahaha! anasia's was fabulous! i enjoyed it but i still have a lot of fine tuning left to do. with my hourly, i made $99.75 last night. it wasn't a lot but it sure beats the airport!

wednesday has been sleep day!

• slept til 12
• petland to get flea shampoo
• helena's hawaiian food - omg so delicious!
• napped napped napped all evening long lol
  

productivity rocks

yesterday was a great day. it started with a hike up koko head, 25 minutes going up, not bad! went to anasia's to find that i got the job, woot! returned my curling brush for a curling iron, i hope that shit will work. cruised at home for a few and headed over to yogurstory. i really like it, a yelp review to follow ^_^ went to walmart to get flea medicine for kitteh. havoc kept trying to lick it off himself and i found out he threw up twice because of that. ugh, i'm really hoping he won't get sick x_x! went to TJ's afterward and went home to ktfo. i love busy days!!!

加油, havoc! get rid of those fleas!

double the fun?

friday night: i had an interesting out in waikiki. it was fun because i went to a bunch of places i've never been to but it was also kinda weird lol. that will be for me to know and you to find out hehe

genius lounge: it was cute. it was hella expensive. i think they charged us wrong but who am i to argue? i was just instructed to throw down money lol

baskin robbin search, ha!

wang chung karaoke bar. literally the size of a closet. i enjoyed it there but it stank of a gym

moana surfrider and falafel king, yum.

my poor feet were so sore from the trek but it was cool. i think my car ride with my lam sister was the most fun, DUI check points definitely made it a night i won't forget hahaha

disease

it seems that everyone, literally, is getting sick. this cannot come at a worst time since i have no fricken insurance!!! i'm trying to live in a bubble so i don't get hurt or sick or both! sigh, this really blows. i'm already feeling a bit scratchy in my throat, time to pump up the vitamin C!

day two of the biggest loser competition and i think i'm doing well. so far, i've done TKB and hiked koko head. it feels great to be in better shape and overall health. i've decided to significantly cut back on my alcohol consumption (with the exception of last night) and sugars and carbs. i can do this!!! i'm determined to lose 15 lb. let's do this!!!!

i want to look like THAT ^ again!!!

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hello 2011

happy january and happy new year!

time for out with the old and in with the new. i am excited! i feel useless when i make resolutions since i will forget about them after awhile so i almost never follow through. recap of the year's end and the beginning of a new one!

eve

• work work work
• dinner at shon's hizzle and watched animal hoarders
• party at jon's house
• lost flippy cup, damn it!
• played fireworks for the last time in hawaii....sad.

new years

• worked worked and worked
• phuket thai bbq
• damn you kettle one
• senor frog's with the westjet crew
• patron owned me
• military men
• blacked out...

resolutions

• cut back on the alcohol consumption. i realize i am a mess when i get drunk. it was never the case before but i always wake up the next day filled with regrets and that's never good.
• be a better person
• find a real job before the year is over
• live healthier and safer due to lack of health insurance. take better care of my teeth :D