old growth

as i get older, i realize that so is everyone else. i went out to dinner with my dad tonight and seeing his health deteriorate like this scares me. he told me he was considering applying for the meals on wheels program and that sunk me to a new low. i feel as his daughter, i should be taking care of him but i'm too young to take on this responsibility. school and work is the center of my world right now and i'm far too busy. shon's grandma recently passed away and i attended her funeral...it was the saddest funeral ever. i've never seen a family so sad at a funeral. i dont know if i can deal with the loss and pain so soon. i wish janelle was back home so we could figure something out for daddy.

ugh, i gotta be strong! get a hold of yourself, michelle!!!

towriffic!

shon's birthday was last tuesday 7/20. it was a great day/night. had dinner at magura-ya with his family and then headed over to the mai tai bar to start off the night. i was hesitant to go there due to some past issues but i went and it was fun. it felt like a club because it was loud and packed! it's a tuesday ppl, don't they have work?! drinks were cheap so that was fun. afterward, we went over to femme nu. shon had three chicks dance for him while i watched -_- it was fun overall because my phuket thai coworkers came by! headed to bar seven after that where shon told me to park in this random lot. little did i know, it was the biggest regret of my life! 30 minutes later, literally, we were back at the lot with no car to be found! i knew it got towed and shon was too drunk to tell me it was a paid parking lot! ass. $160 to get it from mapunapuna and i didn't go to bed until almost 3:30 am with work at 7 am. ugh! the next morning, i read over my receipt from the tow company and on the bottom by the comments section, it reads: "Have a towfiffic day!" i want to rip those fuckers' heads off.

last night was my last day of work at phuket thai. i will miss it there, definitely. it was busy and i guess my attitude towards things were good or i just had really generous tippers but i made a lot of money! yay! i hope my weekends will be more relaxing and fulfilling now that i don't work. it's gonna be a hard transition back to how things used to be since i've been working weekends for the past two and a half years. oh wells, i'm moving on in the world :)

i went to shon's popo's funeral yesterday. it was a beautiful service. i never knew she was such a great woman. i met her two years ago when she was deteriorating so she wasn't all there mentally and physically. her mini biography was read during the service and i wish i could have such an amazing life that my loved ones would remember me by.

river monsters

for the past couple of weeks, i've been really into this show called river monsters and hooked. it's about fishing crazy and freaky deaky fishies around the world. it's amazing how big these fishes could get. they could probably swallow me whole. my go-to channels on tv have been discovery, animal planet, history, and national geographic. man, i must be getting old.

the summer is almost over!!! ahhhhh! two weeks before my 20 pg internship paper is due. i need to get on it! crunch time.

ouchies

for the past month or so, i have been getting random cramps on my calf when i am asleep. yes, people get them time to time but i haven't had one in ages until recently. when i wake up in the middle of the night, i find myself stretching my leg(s) and BAM, i'm in the most horrific pain imaginable! i feel the soreness the next morning and throughout the day. my mom said it's because i'm eating too much watermelon. well....HELLO...she left me an ENTIRE fricken watermelon for me to eat...BY MYSELF!!! last night, i had a bad cramp in which shon and my mom both woke up to help me relieve. thoughout the night, i had some close calls with my other left and my foot. ugh. hope it's nothing too serious.

kick the bucket

not much has happened since last week. my weekend was work filled. i finally put in my two weeks at phuket thai. good bye to the fuckit bucket. i will definitely miss my coworkers and the money but most definitely not the owners and gm. sunday was a major private party. busted ass made choke money :D

melanie leong has all my connections to my long lost garden that withered away and died. i was so ecstatic for awhile haha. <3

horizon lines is killing me. coworker is taking 3 weeks off and i might have to work extra. fuck that bullshit. if that's the case, i'm quitting!

gym man

so i just came home from my gym class (MMA circuit training and everyone should take it with me >: ) ) and there is this dude that always stays in the front. nothing against him but he gives up so quickly! man up and start moving your ass so you make that front spot worth it! stop pussying around like a little bitch because you think you're hott shit. phew, i feel much better.

i got my internship with japan airlines. chee! the hours are much better than i thought so staying with phuket is still a possibility but idk, i'm just so sick of working there. SIGH! i passed my drug test for horizon lines sooooo hello $12/hr for july! yayyayaya!

red, white, and bloated

it was the 4th of july yesterday. it was possibly one of the best days of the summer. it started out really really early, 8:30 am to go to the beach as early as possible to make sure we don't have to fight for spots. our original goal was to go to lanikai but it was a major fail since it was pouring over the pali. since waimanalo was just a right turn away, we hit up sherwoods! went to mcdonald's to grab some breakfast for a little picnic at the beach. cloudy day but it was okay for the most part until it started raining again. decided to drive further down to makapuu since it was clearing up on that side. complete 180 since it was hot, beautiful, and clear all around makapuu/sandy's side! loose money. cruised there for awhile and got nice and crispy! people there: gina, ning, kevin, vincent, lianna, danny, and neal.

a short break later, a bunch of us went to gyu-kaku for dinner. 99 cent kirin special, how could you possibly go wrong?!?! we ordered a bunch of food and a lot of beers. between the 5 of us that drank, we had a total of 19 beers. crazy? you betcha. most of us were drunk out of our minds. walked all the way back to phuket thai were were drank some more. just another beer for most of us. we then made the journey ALL the way to magic island side to cruise with lindsey's family because their condo is front and center for the fireworks. the guys had another beer there, phew. the fireworks were amazing with a lot of new displays.

ning wasn't feeling well so kevin and i took her home. afterwards, we walked back to my car and headed to phuket thai. by this time, 10:30pm (only), i was beyond exhausted. i should be feeling that way at like 4 AM, not before midnight. kevin got picked up there to go to dylan's house but i went to starbucks to meet up with gina, jared and friends. kanpai's was a fail but we sat around and told jokes for awhile. good fun. everyone went home but i stopped by TJ's to meet up with shon and some coworkers. went home around midnight, crashed.

the end.