joyeux noel

merry christmas!!!

this winter break has been fun so far. i've been going out quite a bit but it's torturous when i try to wake up for my internship in the morning! phuket thai had a christmas party at D&B. my manager was generous since all games were on him and he even had prizes for the winners. he specifically chose my sister and i to play Gone Fishing for the last genki sushi gift certificate. as usual, i'm the winner. shon was determined to beat both our scores and ended up scoring less than us TWICE. just give it up.

the following day was luke's christmas party! it was so much fun! we played serades and telephone serades. got our creative juices flowing :) lepardy was fun too. named respectively after his creater, leon. dork. the questions were interesting even though i got some dumb ones wrong since i didn't thing it all through in the heat of the moment lol. afterwards jen and i met up with the girls at tsunami's. nice place but it was packed!

thursday night, christmas eve. i spent it going to church and dinner with shon and his family. soooo much food! i was planning on going out but after watching GI Joe, i was getting sleepy and lazy. and now it's christmas! doesn't feel like it but it feels damn good to have a day off :)

winter solstice

finals are OVER and the party is just starting!!! cheeheee :) i literally have given up on my finals and just cruised through it. ok, that's enough of school, let's talk parties!!!

FRIDAY: sucks since i had work. after that, i saw my daughter, OLIVIA!!! AHH! i haven't seen her face since spring break so it was sooooo nice to talk to her :) a bunch of us hung out at starbucks til closing. afterwards, i met up with coworkers at champions where i started to get my drink on. my redness is so erratic. it hits me with vengeance or doesn't come whenever it pleases. i've tried a bunch of alcohol to see which ones make me red and itchy but as stated earlier, it comes and goes regardless...sigh. thanks handy foundation for the awesome cover up ;) after a short while at champions, our next stop was vlounge. no pizza for me that night but it was fun. packed though. stayed for two drinks and time to go home to crash for a busy day. 3:30 AM!

SATURDAY: had to get to the doctors office by 9:45 AM for my "mandatory" H1N1 flu shot. can they do that?? well, that took forever and he suggested i get my bones checked up on since it's covered by insurance and all that good stuff. turns out my bones are good, no calcium deficiencies. right after is graduation! congratulations to sunny and casey! had a mean lunch at shillawon afterwards, YUM. went secret santa christmas shopping. i ended up getting chambord and a two-liter bottle of diet 7up. who wouldn't want that as a christmas present?? went to mitchell's christmas dinner party. so yummy his cooking and we opened presents! it was fate that my present landed in the hands of julie ajifu because she has been wanting that forever! now off to party number 3! climax at the hyatt. it was a lot of fun. i think it was the company because otherwise, everything else was shitty. the bartender i went to sucks, he took way too long and some bitch with a white LV bag kept ordering on the side which he catered to. no seats and bathroom lines were ridiculous. i still had a blast regardless lol. zippys and ktfo when i got home.

can't wait for this coming week :D

the epic finals

so this is finals week. last friday i went clubbing with the girls. the next day, i had a MEAN sore throat. yuck. i slept in all weekend and the only time i left my apartment was to go to work. i studied for my finance final and i felt like i got that thing on lock down but came test time, i was lost, small kine. i was reading this true false question several times because it didn't seem like a true/false statement, rather, it was like half of a question -_- it was really a regular true/false, i was just too sick to comprehend. got my chinese final tomorrow and i haven't touched anything yet...eek! service management final on friday. it should be ok since i have two days to study. i hate being sick.

oh, i sprained my ankle just walking straight in slippers. WHAT?!?! I'M FALLING APART!!!

wrecking havoc

world, meet my new kitteh Havoc. shon and his family calls it Miko, short for michonium. dunno what that is?? google it :P


cute, huh? don't let the exterior fool you. this little mofo is a little demon child because he destroys EVERYTHING. he ate tape, cardboard, foil, and wax paper so far -_- he doesn't like to be touched that much so don't expect too much cuddly time but yet he does not like being alone. this guy can cry all night!

in retrospect, i think i'm growing fond of it :) he has been behaving. i mean, can he help not crawling on top of my mom's $1000+ leather sofa??? it is the biggest piece of furniture in the living room! if you would like to keep it for an evening to babysit, let me know! haha

school sucks. i'm screwed for everything!

horizon lines

happy december!!!

hot damn, time flies! this year has gone by quickly, probably because a quarter of it was spent as an enterprise rent a car robot. anyhoo, i got another internship with horizon lines, a freight company. thanks to my erac experience, i got placed into vehicle processing! woot! *sarcasm* what the hell!!! just because i'm used to typing in car information and customers, i get stuck with dealing with MORE cars when all i wanna do is play with cargo containers?!?! haha, just kidding. i felt quite honored since i was the only applicant one with enough experience to get placed there, ironic huh? i'm pretty excited to start working there though it's nonpaid since it's gonna be a "normal" job. i haven't worked a monday to friday job in almost years.

i'm gonna get a pet kitten!!!! i'm so excited but nervous at the same time since it's a total contraband at my apartment. gotta be ninja about it. more updates to come :)

there are TWO dead pixels on my computer. WTF. how do i get rid of them??

gut buster and door busters

it's thanksgiving weekend and i'm happy it has been eventful thus far.

wednesday we went to d&b where i only had a limited time to get my drink on. drank couple of beers and a mixed drink. i was feelin' pretty good and went over to phuket thai for our annual thanksgiving party. i was overly excited to get my grub on there so i got waaaaaay too much food for my already bloated belly. stupid me for going up for fourths. i was STUFFED. it was mandatory for me to walk it off at least five times or else i would've threw up all over the place. damn.

happy gobble gobble day! i went over to shon's grandparent's place for dinner. the food was so good i went up for fourths again -_- don't worry, it was mostly for fruits :)

black friday. damn, i should've woken up earlier. wedding cafe had a special VIP early opening which i could've gone an hour before the actual opening and all items are 40% off. nope, i couldn't get myself to wake up since it was still darkness at 6 AM. i met up with mel, gina, and sunny at ala moana and those girls went buck wild since they bought choke stuff. i only bought a pair of slippers that weren't even on sale lol. ate lunch at phuket thai and the rest was history.

soul mates

where are you? i'm in a search for them.

november madness

oh, november, you are a memorable month thus far...let me count the ways..

the hangover: pre veterans day party at level 4. finally got drunk off my fricken mind. puked all night long and hungover all day and then some. gotta love it. not really

hotel party: gina's 21st at the island colony. learned to play king's cup, good times :)

ESD scavenger hunt: some crazy ass shit we had to look for in waikiki. it started to pour once we got started. our hunt was limited but it was still a good time. the club bought two six-packs of beer afterwards for lunch haha

restaurant week: roy's, one of the best meal i've eaten. worth $55/person and then some. loved it! town, although not as great as roy's, it was still delicious and worth the money. great experiences for both.

yeah, that has been my month so far. lots of activities! thanksgiving is next week already, hot damn! this semester has been flying by! i can't wait for thanksgiving though! phuket thai thanksgiving party should be the shiznits :P

nostalgia

i'm feeling very nostalgic these days. i'm not sure if it's a good thing. do you ever get crazy dreams that kind of foreshadows the worst case scenario and they actually come true?? that happened to me twice over the past few years. not a very good feeling at all :/ someone had one of those crazy dreams and i hope it doesn't come true...

i love this song very much. i'm sure i had it posted up on an earlier entry.

hello ween

happy november!!!

halloween was the shiznits this year. although i felt like i should have done more, it was enough to make me very satisfied. i went to work, it was hella slow that night so we closed an hour early! it was weird since last year was much busier and i didn't get out until well past midnight. since the drive into waikiki is at least an hour, i decided to kill time with sunny, mel, and gina at sweet thai basil. it was dead so we left soon after. i was planning on meeting danny and mitchell guys at waikiki. i parked by the zoo and walked 20 minutes, ALONE to find them! omg, it was the craziest walk ever. besides getting hollered at by random people, i some how found myself by a fight, and ran into dickface! by the time i met up with danny, i was so happy to have found them! crazy! i still wanted to drink but the bars were a no go since it was so crowded. and yeah, that was pretty much my halloween. check facebook for pics!

the two surviving guppies that ally gave me both mysteriously died one day. the one that was the healthiest died as well. so weird. also i found 3 tiny snails...maybe they had something to do with it! who knows...

on the hunt

today i bought the most awesome costume everrrr! the costume is called "on the hunt" and it's like a safari outfit. it's so cute, a bit short, but adorable! im a bit bummed out i have to work on halloween. i hope that night will rock!

fajah goes to china for a few months. i think i'll move back for a bit to spare me from the tedious ten minute walk and parking tickets.

recap and random thoughts:

• water park last week was so much fun! although i may have outgrown the rides, the company was great :)
• walgreens have a cool coffee/espresso machine that cranks out yummy drinks for cheap
• finance practice exam kicked my ass...cant imagine for the real thing.
• still wanting to carve my pumpkin!
• i need to stop biting my nails
• mr. man, please stop haunting me!
• is it winter break yet?
  
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collision

why the flying fuck would anyone ride a skateboard down a narrow three ft. wide sidewalk with dozens of people just getting out of class. WHY?!?! i believe those who cannot ride a skateboard should not even attempt to do so since they are a public hazard. my ankle still stings from my run in. ugh, so irritated about it.

the following are random thoughts:

• mid terms are killing me but than again, i'm not studying as much as i should, eek!
• i want to dress up for halloween but idk what i want to be. it's coming up so fast!!!
• i'm super excited for the water park this saturday. it should be lots of fuuun!
• i'm getting fat.
• my consideration of quitting phuket thai is very likely at the moment. i will see a counselor to find an internship and will quit phuket asap. sick of not having our liquor license.

slobber

so as of recent weeks, i've noticed myself drooling every time i sleep. i mostly would doze off for a little bit and wake up with a puddle of wetness on my pillow or blanket. the side of my face would be slick with my saliva. gross. it's not like my mouth is opened, the spit just spills outta my mouth or something. so weird. solutions anyone??

i think drinking is overrated already. i have yet to get trashed. seriously right?!?! whoever told me it would be more worth it to drink when youre 21 is bullshitted me. i had more fun when i was underaged :/ it's all g since it's nice to be able to order a drink, legally..

midterms are coming up again. this depresses me. i hate college. while in class, i think i found my dream job. i wanna work for the travel channel and hoping snag a spot on a traveling tv show! i believe my true passion is discovering the world and i will make a living out of it ;) time to make a vision board and dream big! if you don't know the secret by now, i highly suggest you check it out on youtube. THE SECRET!

chapter 21

new license, and a new year to my life. i'm finally 21!!! i've been waiting for this moment FOREVER!

i cannot ask for a more perfect birthday. it was mellow but i enjoyed every second of my day :) we went to buca's for dinner and it was nice. it was a last minute plan and i could NOT think of anywhere else to go to. i learned that time warner bought out the happy birthday song so all restaurants aren't allowed to sing it!! well, the common folk can but just not the employees. so lame. after dinner we went to dave and busters! we were there super early so not too much action. that coin dropping game was addicting but definitely a waste of money lol. i didn't drink as much as i should but that's a good thing! i went to school and yeah lol. my coworkers went to d&b right after i left. i was planning on heading back but good thing i didn't since i was hella tired.

i cant wait for this weekend. it should be fun :)

where'd you go?!?!

this past weekend flew like no other. friday i had work but got off early but had to sleep early due to the cancer walk. before i knew it, rise and shine, it was 4:45 AM saturday morning!!! luke and i indulged in breakfast, sped walk, walked, ran 5 miles, and did it with grace :) haha. while doing the walk, i surprise myself with being able to complete the GAR since those 5 miles were excruciating. after the walk, i went to uncle kc's funeral. it was the saddest funeral i've ever attended. never had i cried during a funeral. couldn't take a nap afterwards before work so i went in all gross. at work i was there til 12:45 AM to set up the stupid tables for a party the next day. wtf...........
sunday i ate lunch with melanie and sunny. it was really nice and we discovered the gelato bar! yay! worked again that night and screwed up the cash drawer. oops.

and today is monday. yuck. i signed a petition to save a tree on campus and burfday is in 2 days.

pig flew

so i've been sick for the past three weeks almost. this is getting pretty gay. i normally get a sore throat time to time with some coughing but it goes away after a week. NOPE, not this time! my sore throat is erratic since it comes and goes. same goes for the coughing. over this already.

anyhoo, since my last post, life has been pretty dandy. i'm so close to my birthday that i can taste it but there are so many obstacles. one biggie is my finance exam. lost like hades in that class since the teacher doesn't really show examples from the books, just from what he feels like giving us. my TIM 303 class had an example the other day. i studied my little brain til it was near burnt and i hope hard it was worth it. the exam wasn't too bad, pretty easy i wanna say but let's not jinx it :)

i need to start saving some money. food is a want for me now. i can satisfy my need for it at home, not elsewhere. yeah...

uncle kc

rest in peace uncle kc. my dad surprised me tonight with his death a few days ago.

i've known him since i was in middle school and he has been so supportive of me through all these years; even more so than my own parents. since middle school to high school, he has attended majority of my orchestra concerts and persuaded me to continue playing music. when i bumped into him in my lobby, he would always try to sneak me money for every little thing possible: gas, food, spending, just anything. him and his wife would always invite me to lunch. it was a really nice time to catch up and chat on how i was doing with school, work, life, etc. him and his wife traveled the world and they would get me little gifts from all over.

he has been really good to all of my family members. my dad told me to call uncle kc a few weeks ago since he wasn't doing too well but i was too lazy to do so and now i will never get a chance to talk to him again. i miss him so much since he was family to me.

with that said, thank you uncle for always being there for me and always looking out for my well being. you will definitely be missed in kukui plaza and the community. God is taking good care of you now...

beef, it's what's for dinner

over the past week and then some, i've been eating A LOT of beef. almost everyday i've eaten beef for a meal. i don't think all this meat is good for my health since all that growth hormones isn't that great. i feel so ready to donate blood since my iron count must be sky high haha.

roast beef, porterhouse, kalbi, steak salads, corned beef, steak plate, and the list goes on. geez.

ball and chains

as of september 7th, labor day, i am shackled to the ball and chain. it's been so long since i have been in a real relationship and it's pretty nice :) i love him dearly. without school or work, life would be perfect! there is so much left on my mind on this topic and relating topics but i'll spare it from the public. we're in the process of creating our infinite playlist.

sexy aren't we?

broken back

if any of you guys remember, i semi broke my back in 10th grade. well, same sitch happened last night. thank goodness i wasn't closing at phuket thai. it was the end of my shift and all of the sudden my back went out on me. my lower back was extremely sore and i had trouble standing straight. even walking hurt. i went home to stretch it out so i could go out after but it only got worst. sigh. i was so miserable all night.

today i went to the ER to see if it's anything wrong with the bone since i do have a crooked lower back from the incident in my past. at the ER, a urine sample, terrible attempt to crack my back, and $200 later, my remedy is to take over the counter ibuprofen. what the fuck. the doctor was kinda like, yeah it's probably a muscle tweak. alright, fine. waste of my sunday at the ER. hecka expensive and the $200 was 25% of the total cost...goodness!

i hope this gets better since i need to get around at school. stupid classes are on the opposite poles from each other -_-

labor day

what an extremely unproductive weekend! from friday to monday, i have done absolutely NOTHING but worked, vegged out, eat food, and sleep! oh, and play my DS if it makes any difference in the world lol. i worked friday night and didn't do much afterwards. worked all day saturday cuz i got tricked into working a double. that wasn't very fun but i got to eat late night dim sum afterwards...yum! sunday i did nothing but watched tv. i forgot to call in, oops! afterwards, i ate a huge dinner with shon and fam. roast beef, mashed potatoes, corn, oh my!

i'm still sick and it's probably from eating fried stuff. bleh. gotta get better!!!

PS: check out the new song on the right. so cute : )

ACE this!

this semester is not looking to be a happy one! i can see there will be a lot of challenges...i need to prepare myself for them.

ACE - i think my freshmen are taking advantage of me. time to keep my pimp hand strong. RAWR! this class overall is confusing. very independent since it's really up to me on how i want to run things. time for a more effective method.

CHINOIS - my teacher is completely insane. thats what i get for having a teacher straight from communist china. GG. insane in the membrane fo sho.

TIM 305 (finance) - dunno what is going on. it's too early in the morning x_X

TIM 303 (service mgmt) - my teacher is a crazy korean lady. she's fun, i enjoy her class.

on other news, i'm gonna beautify myself. time to wear makeup since i'm old now. gonna change my wardrobe as well since i want to look up to date with fashion. this isn't gonna be cheap...

this is your conscience speaking

YOU ARE A FUCKEN FAT ASS!!!

why don't you get your fat ass to a gym instead of saying you're doing hw when you're not! fatty.
you are a disgrace to humankind. do you want that pooch to eat your hip bones more?!
do you want that sad excuse of an ass to look like a tub of cottage cheese?!?!?!
look at your thighs, they're TOUCHING!!!!!

do something about it! disgusting...

kthx.

i need to get to a gym. this is my note to self. SIGH!

RIP

frank died. he was the fish shon picked out for my aquarium and it was our love fish. well, he didn't quite "die," he was dying so i decided to pull the plug on him and flush him down the toilet to end his misery. sigh. i came home to feed my fish and i found him floating in all sorts of directions and barely able to swim. poor thang.

my cartilage piercing has been extremely infected over the week. it was swollen and the pain was throbbing. the first week of school was extremely tiring due to that and my canker sores. the pain from my ear and my mouth were the only things i could think of and it kept me from falling asleep. they were like a bad drug addiction @_@ everything wrong with me is getting better now but what a miserable week!

with all those random news being said, let's talk school. i only got one word for it, GAY!

this semester has been very demanding so far, and its only been a WEEK! each and every one of my classes require me to do so much with so little time. i don't like my chinese teacher. she makes things so difficult and is a damn harsh grader. i love the ACE program and my freshmen class. i need to stay focus and on track for that class. finance is eh, the teacher is pretty cool but his monotonous voice is killing me in the mornings. my service management professor is pretty awesome. she is so lively but her class work/schedule is a killer. i'm glad UH gave out free planners cuz it is saving my life. gosh, this was just the first week, i can't imagine next week!

row row row your boat

so far my week on the beach has been successful. monday i went to sherwood with the guys and that was pretty fun. i watched the time traveler's wife that night. it was.....different. it wasn't too much my cup of tea. i think i would enjoy district 9 more lol. tuesday we went to lanikai and kailua. i really wanted to go kayaking so we were able to do that! after that experience, i don't think i'll be doing that for awhile. it was a lot of fun but extremely tiring. we paddled out to the flat island which was pretty neat. the only downer was that the kayak rental place made us drag our kayaks to the beach and back. those mofos are HEAVY.

i'll write more later. writer's block right now lol

great night!

yesterday was my last day at enterprise. it just happened to be "one of those days." ugh. i woke up decently early so i could make it to starbucks for a coffee but as i was leaving, i forgot my gas tank was running on empty so i wasted 10 precious minutes filling gas and taking an alternative route to work. i was lucky to find a parking along the street but i was already running late :( chose an easy job to do which was to just move cars back and forth. cut a turn too short and scraped the van i was driving along a pillar. it was a nasty scrape over the back tire. OOOOPS. had to report and record that accident T_T. almost got into an accident cuz i was stupid and running low on patience. went to out to lunch with shon and was almost late going back to work. rawr. whichever the case, the day ended up ok. as with any job, it was a bittersweet moment. so glad to get the hell outta there and enjoy what's left of summer but at the same time, miss my coworkers and the accomplished feeling i got out of it each day.

after work, vincent and i went to ala moana to do some shopping! i want to change my entire look but don't have the money or the will. went to godiva since i had a gift card and signed up for membership so we could get free chocolates every month ;) we both got those chocolate drinks and free chocolates. unfortunately for them, their systems were down so couldn't get our info into the registry and by trust, told us to go back to reapply. psh, yeah right. we later went to barnes and noble where we purchased dirty minds. that game was retarded cuz it went by extremely quick and didn't quite make sense :/

jon's house was a lot of fun. i think my so-called alcohol allergy is a crock. after half a beer i started to get red but the more i drank, the more normal i got. GOOD SIGN!!! i played poker for real kine for the first time in awhile. it was a lot of fun and i wasn't the first person out. yay! left around 3am and hit up liliha bakery with shon. their steak and eggs were a joke but the pancakes were always a good choice :)

this week, i will be living on the beach. care to join??? monday is possible surfing lesson, tuesday is kayaking, wednesday...yeah idk about this day. and every other day after is up for grabs. do it!

fml AGAIN

OK, so while writing my 20 page paper, i needed to get this textbook for reference. i went to the bookstore and bought back my textbook for $120 or more. so expensive. i think someone in my family threw away my receipt and according to the bookstore policy, i cant return shit without a receipt. UGHHHHHHHHHHH! T_T

this weather has been a major letdown. i wanted it to be like an actual storm, not some passing showers. gay.

wait, time! don't leave!!!

holy monkeys, it's already august 10th! happy august! i am done with my internship class, chee! at least i passed ;) UH TIM school gave me a $3000 scholarship. i'm pretty excited about that but i feel like i'm cheating the system. i don't apply for ANYTHING at UH and yet i get all these grants and random scholarships. here's to more taxes and a new computer :D

today i had a bbq thingy at my pool. i think this is the last year i'm hosting one for more than 10 ppl. i hate dealing with the douche bag management and security in my apartment. i should've saved some food for my dad but i totally forgot. i wasn't planning on going upstairs afterwards @_@

i have one more week left in my internship. i am sooooo excited to be done with it! you guys reading it have no idea how stoked i am! in a way i will miss my coworkers and position since this was my most fulfilling job but in the end, i don't think the car rental biz is for me. i hope now that the stress is dying down, i will be less cranky towards everyone. i'm sorry to everyone i've snapped at or bitched at. (kevin, namely) hahaha. but seriously tho, sorry guys!!!

everyone is leaving one by one. so sad. sarah left today, samson is leaving this thursday and leon leaves next tuesday. sigh. i wished i spent more time with everyone. hopefully over this week and next i can. i'm super excited for this weekend so i hope to PARTYYY!

fml

all week long i have been slaving over my 20 page essay for my internship. i bailed out on friends, got off work, basically missed out A LOT. i read my syllabus again tonight, the one i've been holding every effn day of the week for hours, to find it due AUGUST 7th!!!! FML.

what a eff'n idiot. i am mad and irritated but at least i got all the work done, at least most of it. anyhoo, life has been whatevers. we moved locations at enterprise and it sucks. our overflow lot is across the street and on the top level. it takes almost ten minutes one way with the traffic lights, parking attendant, and driving. SUCKS. the summer is almost over and i plan on making the most of it the week before school starts. below are my plans...

goals for August 16-23:

• get so drunk i am on the ground puking
• travel around the island. furthest i've gone this summer...probably kailua. wait millilani..but all just once.
  
• water park
• beeeeeach!
• outer island trip???
  

yeah. this summer sucks. i think i said that every post so far since the summer started lol.

it's been awhile...

...since my last post! wow, i think this is the longest i've went without posting lol. a lot has happened over the past week and a half. some awesome, some not too much. what? you wanna take a stroll down memory lane with me?? OK!!

after summer school was over, i was free as a bird! my weekdays opened up like no other so i've been trying to go out and staying up late as much as possible. last monday night, i went to brian's after work and whooped all the guy's asses in pool. after that, i met up with sarah at starbucks and we chatted for a while. then i drove my tired but happy butt to hawaii kai to see someone. definitely deprived of a summer so i crammed as many activities as i could. that's probably the most exciting day. over the week i just did whatevers. i got my car detailed so now it looks almost new ;) went restaurant hopping one night...sanoya's and tsukenaya or whatevers. went to a bodysurfing competition and got a tan! bought an aquarium and my sister got an ice cream making machine. YES...talk about random.

from my last two depressing posts, life has gotten better :) until next time!

distance

over the past year, i've realized that my friendships with everyone has grown more distant. it makes me really sad to know that i don't really have anyone to turn to when i need someone. over the past few weeks, i kept thinking what the reason for that may be. was i working too much? did my interests just differ from everyone else? was i just a bad friend in general??

after reading sunny's blog, i think i'll just "let it be." i really like that song as well :) like a break up, time will heal itself. i always wish for how things were in the past but with every slump comes something good in the near future. regardless of all of this, i love all of my friends

bolt!

this weekend went by ridiculously fast. thursday night i didn't sleep too well so i was suffering all friday morning at erac. after work i hung out with the guys and i finally got the bbq ribs i've been craving for awhile. i went home and did my hw since i knew i wouldn't have been able to on saturday. i couldn't find my cellphone charger so i had to go pick it up at like midnight. i was so irritated that i had to stay up late since i work early on saturday until late at night. saturday went by smoothly :) erac was slow, phuket thai was slow. made absolutely no money at phuket but whatevers! being too tired to go out after, i went home and watched BOLT!

i loved that movie! it was so cute and funny. it made me want a doggeh of my own. and now today, i'm awake super early. i should be asleep still until noon or something. yeah, my weekends are super lame and they suck royal balls. its ok, i'm one step closer to the bmw/lexus of my dreams :)

sigh

hurts more than a bad breakup...

on another note, Happy Father's Day :)

da cute!

one of the parking attendants that give out tickets wrote me a note saying to not let enterprise get to me. at first i thought he gave me another ticket but it was just the envelope. sweetest thing that has happened to me in awhile :)

i think i did bad on my second test for ACC. ughhhhhhhh, i can't afford to drop it, AGAIN!! hopefully i got at least a C for the second test, *crosses fingers*

yesterday i had lunch with ally, sarah, and carissa lee. we ate a sushi king since it was like the only place with lunch specials. no food poisoning for me so i guess all is not lost at that restaurant. i went to carissa's cousin's house to doggy sit for their pomeranians or whatevers. fluffy little mofos. this one dog was crazy active! i was so amazed that thing knew how to play fetch cuz it brought back the ball right in front of me. if i cant reach for the ball, it grabbed it and brought it closer! fricken amazing. anyways, i played fetch with it for like almost two hours and i was getting super tired but the damn dog wanted to kept playing T_T. it was fun but i don't think i would want dogs since they pee and poop everywhere. nasty.

i played mini golf with shon last night. windward mall closes at 9 and we only had 45 minutes to complete the 18 holes. yeah, for $12 we finished the course within 30 minutes. kinda wasteful since we sped through it but it was fun nonetheless. our scores weren't that far off so i feel accomplished :) oh, and we baked brownies at 2 in the morning. haha. good times :D

insurance

i'm slowly getting a hang of enterprise but selling insurance is so damn hard. i don't wanna be a failure!! like, how do they expect me to be an excellent salesman within a month of working there?! frick, i only work there three times a week and i'm not a pushy person. whateverrrrs! i wanna quit phuket, but i always say that. i'm just so stressed out these days that i feel myself getting sick again, sigh. for school, i'm getting the the material a little more. i'm a fricken trooper. yes, i keep telling myself that.

let's talk parties. i hoping for this weekend to be bangin'. haha. black jack's tonight maybe and play bar tomorrow. cheee! i kinda wanna save myself for tomorrow because i'm small kine sick now and don't wanna ruin it yet. on tuesday, i went to my coworker's beach house in laie. i drove out there by myself at 11 PM. i left around 2 AM and was falling asleep on the road. NOT GOOD! it was super scary since i could've reered off into the ocean haha.

everyone asks me how i do it...working two jobs, taking a demanding summer school class, and juggling a social life. i guess i've always wanted someone to sympathize for me because i'm working so hard but now i realize i don't have that much to prove. i just gotta do what i gotta do.

on a gross note, i get like a new blister each day i work at enterprise. nasty and sore! :" (

you're a jerk

i love this song! idk why, the jerk part is kinda irritating but it's catchy! YOU'RE A JERK!!!

doesn't feel like summer

happy june!!

time definitely went by really fast. this summer so far has been extremely busy. i'm getting more comfortable at enterprise but still a total noob. phuket has been whatevers lol. i wish i could say such decent news for summer school. my instructor has been out since the beginning due to a flu and we got the other accounting teacher as a sub. his teacher style and examples suck royal nut sacks. everyone is so confused with the homework and we got lots of it. lots is definitely an understatement of how much we actually have. i want to drop out of the class but i can't :( just gotta suck it up.

summer life sucks right now. i hardly go out and see friends because summer school is a bitch and i'm always working. i guess another factor to it is that i'm not 21 either. i hope i'll get more time off soon once i get into the swing of things. i miss my friends. i think the last time i've seen anyone was on wednesday. so sad my life!!!

femme nu

i am overworked. blahhh. enough of my bitchin. friday night i went to femme nu with my coworkers. luckily i was able to get in since they knew the bouncer. that strip club was full on nude. it's kinda gross but cool at the same time. it was my coworker's birthday so we gave him money for a dance. after awhile he got bored so i sat down and watched her lol. lucky me i got to feel her fake boobies...both of them! that was pretty cool haha. went to boda's afterwards. nasty ass place. looked exactly like blackjack except vietmanesed-out. i hated the fact they allow smoking there and a bottle of water cost $10. ridiculous. that was a fun night. makes me wish i was 21 even more so i could go out like this more often...

enterprise rent-a-car

its been a rough week so far. i'm happy i got the internship but frick, im dying already!! this past monday to wednesday was orientation. orientation was about ten hours long each fricken day. ridiculous! we sat there and listened like it was school. at least they fed us food. today i went to the waikiki branch and it was crazy over there! they were understaffed and whoever was working was hella sick as well. eek! i only stayed for four hours but they had me driving cars for three hours. driving them up to the parking for cleaning and down to be rented out. etc etc. my feet are killing me from running around T_T

last night i went to buy some business clothes. i ended up spending over $250. bought a dress, two dress pants, and two dress tops at express. the two and two are the same style just different colors...damn it T_T went to macys after to look for some comfy dress shoes and ended up buying a sporty looking wedge heel for myself. ughhhhhhhhh.

done son!

my finals started extremely late. my first one was on wednesday. i guess after like a whole week without school kinda made me really lazy and into summer mode. i wished i studied harder for my exams but whatevers. it's kinda sad to know i won't be having much of a summer. i got the internship at enterprise but i start next week monday. orientation is from monday to wednesday from 8:30 AM to closing which is like 4-5. wtf. along with that, i have summer school during the day. i really hope i can balance things out and hang out with everyone!

graduation was today. i thought RHS grad was a pain in the ass but this was even worse. it was BLISTERING hott today. i seriously thought i would die from a heat stroke! the 45 minutes i was in the sun, i got some mean sunburn. go figure...

well, i hope everyone is having a good summer so far!

for memories sake

it's been awhile since i put my thoughts on my blog...

i wish some people i could just forget. is it natural to still think about people from my past? their memories cross my mind at least once a day and it's been years now. sigh. we don't speak but i wonder if they think of me as well. i guess it kinda depresses me that i don't talk to these people because they were such a significant part of my life. it's amazing how someone who was pretty much my life once before is now just a mere memory. i hope i can bump into these people again and be friends. another part of me is that i know it will bother whoever is significant at the moment. i mean, who would want to know their other half is chummy with an ex since we all know where that could lead to.

yeah well, whatevers. here is a rihanna song i actually like. a little relevent to what's on my mind but not really lol.

kuru kuru

definitely has been awhile since my last post. not too much has happened but i'll try to recap :)

for almost two weeks now, i've fell mysteriously ill. i got antibiotics for a condition i'll remain disclosed and while on the meds, i got these cold/allergy symptoms. i had scratchy throat, sinus pressure, sneezes, and runny nose. so weird. i got my period during the same week. found out i was borderline anemic and somehow got an UTI. oh, and maybe a stomach virus!!! yeah, all this over a week timespan, so weird! i'm still feeling crappy due to my tummy. i have a hard time holding food in so i haven't been eating too much :( i hope this goes away soon since i don't want another doctor visit.

school is finally out, just have finals left. i figure i shouldn't stress out about them. i had my ACE orientation on thursday and it was a lot of fun. i'm pretty nervous about being a mentor for ten students but it should be fun.

work has been pretty good. worked friday night and it was so hectic! it was busy for a long time and i got a super mean tummyache towards the end. i started seeing stars if i sat and stood up @_@. please tummy worm, go away!!! i haven't eaten anything all day as well and i went out to sweet thai basil's salsa night! that was interesting lol. drank a little and tummy was not happy all night after...

tonight i hung out with jared at yogurtland. went to kuru kuru sushi with danny, jerry, trevor, tiff, dylan, and alex. it was so much better than genki's! well, certain things but overall a much better experience. afterwards we poked some balls at velvets. chill night :)

anemic this!!!

happy may!!

the other day, i went to the doctors for a blood test. well, turned out i was borderline anemic since my iron count was low. how could that be possible?!? after that, i ate a whole plate of beef stew. i've been eating beef everyday since wednesday lol.

this past weekend i had a lot of fun relaxing and such. friday night, i went to karaoke after work with gina, ally, and sunny. yep, the four of us had a BLAST! sunny always have fun singing :P saturday, i went to a wedding party for a second cousin i barely remember meeting. whichever the case, the food was amazing but it took so damn long so i couldn't make it to luke's house to drop off trevor's present. i went to club blackjack instead. i had SO much fun! got pretty drunk and just the company that night was good. passed out that night but it was all good :)

for work, i haven't been working a whole lot. i've been giving them away due to my laziness. i'm getting broke since i have so many things to pay for (ie. insurance, summer school, medicine, etc) but yet, i just don't wanna work! frustrating. i wish enterprise would hurry the hell up and schedule me for my third interview. i need my internship STAT!

over!

ahhh it feels SO good to be free! all of my group projects are done, done, DONE! monday night i stayed in sinclair library for over 7 hours, until 3:30 the next morning. ridiculous. to make it better, that group project didn't even go that well. my HR project was super duper :)

i am broke as well. i got summer school tuition to pay for, insurance, and whatever random things. ughh! i was at least able to get my dad to help pay for my summer health insurance. sad my financials -_-

instead of doing my hw, i've been watching "bones" for hours on end with my sister. man, shows can get freakin addicting. now i just gotta wait til the sis gets the other seasons

unexpected

so to add to my last post, i got a call back from the enterprise recruiter lady. turns out the manager actually liked me and i got scheduled for a third interview with the district manager!! yay!

group projects suck! they are so time consuming. i read from sunny's blog, and i have to ask, is everyone going to hong kong?!?! i am ridiculously jealous. so i just cleaned my fish bowl. my guppies are still small enough for me to fish out with a plastic spoon, wtf. ally's fish is adult size already. i wonder what kind of steriod fish food she is feeding that thing.

i'm starting to get the same funky rash on my lip again. am i allergic to myself again?? frick. i'm also getting rollie pollie ollie. fatty. i gotta stop eating so much :/ ok this is enough distraction, time to concentrate on my projects X_X.

btw, i love my iDiary. i think this blog is my saving grace because my thoughts run wild and once i put them down on paper or on this, i feel much better :) also, i don't understand why people draft back their posts. so much work because it wouldn't be a blog if you don't have anything to show for. i hate going to a blog to see a blank page D:

mr. personality

gosh, so i had my second interview earlier today and it was sooo ugh!! i did not get my confirmation email from the recruiter so i was really confused whether or not my interview was still on for today. i tried DESPERATELY to get in touch with the admin office but to no avail. finally was able to get a hold of the branch manager to find it was today. well, i got there in good spirits. unfortunately, the manager was really young and VERY intimidating. he didn't make me feel comfortable at all which was so scary. i felt like everything i said was a wrong answer! could there be a wrong answer to an interview?!?! fuck. idk, i was just really nervous the entire time and he just like nodded and smiled. %*#@%{ . i don't know if i would be able to move on. AHHHH!! it's haunting.

life recap

over this weekend i had my first interview with enterprise rent-a-car which went well. landed a second interview later this week with the waikiki branch manager. saturday and sunday i had my group meetings, i know on easter @_@, and worked both nights. rawr.

school is almost done done done! just got choke shit to finish by next week and it's gonna be pretty smooth sailing til the end. i also signed up for summer school, gonna cost me an arm and a leg for only two classes, gg UH systems.

i wanna go dancing!

tonight was pretty spontaneous. got nothing to do but go to club black jack with the girls. everyone else didn't have fun but i had a blast! its been a while since i've gone out so being out felt really good. $10 cover blew hard but whatevers, i made the most of it :)

next week is not gonna be fun! got two group presentations, papers, a character analysis and scene play due back to back in two days. lovely. fuck, sounds like week before spring break all over again, maybe worst @_@.

i am pretty tipsy still right now and hiccuping, gg. happy easter!!!

epic fails

UPDATE: ok, after this post i kinda got my life straightened out a little more. i got into the ACE peer mentorship so i'm super stoked for that. talked to my counselor and she is trying her best to contact enterprise to see what's up with my application, thank you kim! finished most of my portion of one of the group projects so that is kinda outta my hairs for now. i feel much more relieved.

internship search - fail.
group projects - fail
life - FAIL.

ughhhhhhhhh! i need a summer internship STAT and it doesn't seem to like me very much. boo!
my group projects are creeping closer to their deadlines and i still have a loooooooooong way to go with them and my group members are slow for one of my classes -_-. AH! i am freaking out for this month.

chi-town

for the past six days i was playing in the windy city. it was a lot of fun but the sales tax there was not fun at all. it is at 10%. damn son T_T let's recap my trip in a nutshell!

night one:
got to the airport after 11 hours of flying and layovers. waited forever for leon them to get me. the train we were on was GHETTO. it stank cuz homeless people were on it to sleep and etc. after finally getting to leon's area, we had to walk about five blocks in the freezing cold to his apartment. ate leftover chicken and passed out.

day one:
slept in. olivia slept between two chairs and i slept on the couch. that morning we didn't leave the living room until 11 am and we woke up around 8:30. so lazy lol. we ate lunch at potbelly's and it was yummy. afterwards we went to a conservatory. it was all about plants and that was pretty cool. so many types of plants and it was all free! i hated how every other room was cold or humid. yuck! hit up chinatown afterwards. their chinatown was small but i loved how they had so many asian things! i wish our chinatown was that cool. idk, it's just all your typical asian things could be found everywhere. went back to the apartment and ate deep dish pizza for the first time :)

day two:
we went to the zoo! it was free too!! i loved this zoo. it was huge for a zoo in a park. so many animals for all over! after that, we went to the barn. went there and it was stinky! the only cool thing there was there was a chick hatchery kinda. saw a chick that was only a few minutes old. cutie :P checked into our hotel that night as well. ate my chipotle and it was delicious. i've never been happier eating food...EVER. did some shopping at the biggest forever 21 and trader joe's.

day three:
shopped, shopped, shopped!!! omg! after a LONG day of shopping, we went to the mary poppin's broadway musical. it was awesome! kinda kiddie but still fun. i was so tired from earlier that i was falling asleep during the first ten minutes @_@. after the show, we were all hungry. unfortunately, so many places are closed early so we resorted to the grand lux cafe. sounds fancy huh? it's actually a cheesecake factory part two. haha, pretty cool.

day four:
kevin and i woke up early to eat breakfast at yolk. they were some tricky people! every table has coffee mugs and a lady came over asking if we wanted some coffee like it was water. i said ok and kevin got a cup later. when it was time to pay our bill, they charged us $5 for the two cups. sneaky mofos! shopped some more later. at the water tower place, there was a macy with EIGHT stories. on the side of the macy's, in the same building, are about seven stories of mall stores. it was a crazy ass mall but olivia and i loved it! we went to millenium park with the bean. it was cool to see. after an hour at the park, we went to the chicago art institute. that museum was freakin huge! it was so cool to see so many original art pieces by van gogh and monet. other pieces made famous by TV or whatevers, i did not expect them to be in chicago but they were. after the museum, leon met up with us for dinner. had my first taste of kobe beef in form of a burger. it was soooo good!

day five:
unfortunately, our last real day. headed to check out leon's school. their student center was AMAZING. definitely made the trip to IIT lol. ate dim sum, went back to chinatown for fortune cookies and whatever random things. afterwards, olivia and i went to old town. it was so historic and quiant. she bought a bunch of spices and i got a cupcake from the area. i bought some freeze dried corn but i left it on my plane back to hawaii -_-. i ate my last chipotle tacos...it was a sad moment. kevin should know. went to grand lux with everyone and leon for dinner. ate SO much food. goodness, i spent over $50 on food on friday.

day six:
i almost missed my flight haha. leon came a little later to take me to the trains but i wasn't worried since he said it would only take me about 45 minutes. chyeah....the blue line train took forever and i was freaking out. my flight was at 12:11 pm and i didn't get to the airport until 11:38 am. i had to run from the train with my bags to check in and to my gate. i sat down on the plane huffing and puffing. good times.

chicago was fun. definitely worth visiting but it's true that it does get a little boring after awhile. i wish we went during the summer time so more things would be around like the boat cruise. i had a great time and i would definitely go back again :D now back to school, noooo!

is this what hell feels like??

nah, i've gone through worst. this is crunch week and i am sick as a mofo. well, not THAT sick but sick is still bad since i got choke midterms. i hope this gets better before my trip cuz i do NOT wanna catch a flu in chicago, imma be so miserable. two midterms down, two more to go and as well as a monologue presentation and paper. lovely. why do i get sick so damn much? where has my immune system gone? i haven't gotten sick in a really long time and all of the sudden i've been getting sick every month. frick.

oh, and i lost my USA Funds scholarship. $1500 down the drain, sigh. i forgot they needed ALL my transcripts for the four colleges i've attended. by the time i found out, i couldn't get KCC, HCC, and UNLV's transcripts postmarked in time. sigh, such easy money. hopefully it could be a good thing so i won't get taxed so much next year :/

singing your feelings away

this past saturday was a lot of fun. a bunch of us went to shabu shabu and had a good time. i think sweet home cafe has become my favorite restaurant. after dinner, we decided to sing karaoke! went to this korean karaoke place next to sorabol. it was pretty cheap, $30 an hour and we had eight people. we had SO much fun that we stayed for two hours. they had those tambourines so jared and i had a field day with it haha. the karaoke place kinda sucked since after we paid our money, like the money is on the table and ready to go, she said there is a 15% service charge that she didn't add on. ooook wtf shoulda said something earlier! somehow we ended up with $2 leftover and jared taught us how to play body jang kang po. it was stupid lol.

it was only like 10:30 or 11 and had nothing better to do. good job for sunny who wanted to drink and that is what we did! went to lane's house where we all became psycho people for each other's problems. gina tweaked on winterbells. 14 million points??? seriously now haha. it was fun.

sunday for work was so slow. sucked balls. work just suck balls in general. got my chinese oral midterm in a few hours. cannot wait, NOT. fml

tsukiji

saturday at work was bullshit. it sucked and i made no money. i hate how there is a new percentage in tips for everyone else so in the end what i do really isn't worth it. who am i to complain, i don't have any bills to pay or anything, at least not really, but it still sucks.

later on that night, i went to eat tan tan ramen with gina and sunny. it was a good dinner at goma ichi but i think i still like goma tei better :P after dinner we went to starbucks to chill until sunny had to go. jared and lane came by and we just talked stories til my coworker got there. went to gyukaku with coworkers where i ate more food, damn. it was really good but good thing i ate so i didn't have to spend so much money. didn't know they wanted to go club or else i would've been better prepared...

so we got to ala moana to head to tsukiji's and i hate that i can't wear what i have in my car nicely. since i needed to get in before 1130, i decided to bail since i don't wanna go in wearing a dress over my jeans -_-. but after a few minutes later i just decided to wear my top and jeans in with my sexy heels. buuuut since i was late, it took me almost an hour to get in! i have a feeling tsukiji will be the next xyloh, i saw a few people younger than me in there. well, maybe not since it's at a mall and they're pretty strict. whichever the case, it was fun to be with a different crowd. free drinks for me! hehe. can't wait til i turn 21 though. seven more grueling months T_T

irony

i saw a man holding a pair of crutches running for the bus. he was holding a bunch of grocery bags and the lady with him was holding bags as well trying to keep up. now that was ironic.

i feel like reflecting on some things going through my mind these past few days. i've read a few of that 25 facts thingy going around facebook and so many of them say "i put other people's happiness before mine" or somewhere along those lines. seems like a selfless act right? but how about those who are the opposite? what about those who realize that they are more important than their peers in terms of feelings? does that make them selfish?? i'm sick of being a people pleaser. i can recall an experience but it seems like no matter how much i try to make that one person happy, it always seem to fail. oh wells. i tried :)

i wonder if i don't call anyone, would people just forget i exist? i barely get any phone calls from people to do anything. no no, i don't wanna think any further or else i would get depressed. gotta take initiative to get anything done these days :/

readers, think deep about me. do you feel like i'm usually an attention hog?? i sometimes feel that way when i'm with people. but as of recently, i've been getting a lot of attention, in a good way! unfortunately, it's too overwhelming for me. how ironic as well! is this what it feels like to be with someone and happy at the same time?? so different from what i'm used to since i'm used to getting the shaft from guys. blehhh.

it is time for change. i'm starting my makeover sesh today. eyebrows and hair gonna get done by this afternoon :)

PS: i believe that neosporin cures all. i use it for everything.

putt putt golf

yesterday i was really excited to spend some time with the girls, yay! a bunch of us went to waipuna sushi. after much debate, we decided to get a party platter of a million pieces of spicy ahi/salmon, whatever else nigiri. check sunny's blog to see a pic of it. four of us finished it and it was so much fish...ack! afterwards we went to windward mall to play some glow putt! good call for that cuz it was a lot of fun! we all had our moments lol. *coughallyshouldajoininnexttimecough* after an hour of mini golfing, sunny, mel and gina had their first taste of hot dog on a stick lemonade! its the greatest thing EVER! after that i had to go home since work was gonna start soon.

la la

since valentine's weekend, i have done nothing with friends. my social life is lacking for reals but i have also been working a lot. there isn't too much to blog about these days which sucks. i got a D on my marketing exam and i was ecstatic! with the curve it boosted it to a B- haha. i'm really not liking all the group projects i have to do for school. yuck.

i bought a plant for my fish bowl. it looks much more appealing now :) grow little guppies, GROW!

ps: life is good :) minus the social life part but that aspect changes nonstop anyways.

whoa!

i feel MIA. i just wanted to recap my valentine's weekend since my last post about the GAR is so weird because it was right after the run.

valentine's day i worked 13 hours. that's right, 13 hours. crazy but it wasn't too bad. it was busy but i also made money. the boy wanted to hang out but instead dragged me and another coworker to formaggio, a wine bar. it was cool and all but i was getting really irritated since i had to wake up early for the GAR expo and work after in the morning. got home at 3 and didn't sleep until 4:30 AM. UGH.

sunday i picked up my number and went to work. work wasn't too ridiculously busy but i made $160! how??? i still ask myself that. later on that night, shon wanted to make up valentine's by wanting to take me to le bistro in hawaii kai. silly him forgot to call to make reservations so we ended up eating at verbanos. after dinner we watched "he's just not that into you." twice in one weekend! haha it was all good but at least it wasn't like "enchanted," twice in ONE DAY!

GAR day. my actual time is 1:37. it's two minutes better than i thought and two minutes make a big difference. i am content since it is only ten minutes slower than last years' run. a man died after the race, so tragic.

school sucks. i had two major exams for TIM and i swear i bombed my marketing one. my bsing skills are lacking or i never had any to begin with. i really need to study more.

the great aloha run

hehe, at least i didn't die! i finished in about an hour and 38 ish minutes. a lot better than i thought but it was not good either. i walked during every mile after the second one for about a quarter mile each. i watched sunny and melanie fly right ahead of me! haha it was ok since i knew i was extremely out of shape. i had fun regardless and now i am suffering in pain.

there was so much food this year but they weren't the healthiest. i took two or more of everything. so much i had to sit down and eat some cuz i couldn't carry anymore. when i had hand space i went to get more. haha.

the exception

my last friday night off for a long long time. i had a lot of fun hanging out with the lovely ladies. melanie, sunny, ally, and i went to genki's for dinner. afterwards, we hung out at starbucks for a little bit until our movie. sunny and i went to watch "he's just not that into you" i think everyone should see this film. it's more than something for a girl who is starting to give up on dating (me, jk :P) but guys could learn a thing or two as well. i wanna be an exception to the rule ;) watch the movie and you shall understand.

forgot another highlight of my night. ally made these condom flowers and gave one to me at ala moana. i didn't have a handbag large enough to hold it so i was just flaunting it like nobody's business. couple guys asked me if it was real, smelt it, and said "mmm...100% condom! what are you gonna do with it?? here's my number!" haha there was more to that conversation but it was funny.

it is officially valentine's day as well. a guy in my chinese class gave all the girls a small box of godiva's chocolate. so sweet of him :) annnnnnnnnd i get to work a double shift tomorrow! yay, free meal for moi. joy..

fire alarm

i swear it was NOT my fault!

monday night (last night) the fire alarms went off at phuket thai. it was in the middle of the dinner rush and BAM! the lights were flashing and the alarm was blaring. so irritating. turned out that the alarm was pulled at the hostess stand where the menus were. who else to blame but ME! it was really really gay since it could have been anyone touching the menus. well, i didn't get the total blame since it would be unfair to just say i pulled it when it was completely unintentional. ugh. plus the air con was broken so it made it worst for everyone. a lot of people left early. firemen came to the rescue! the bartender was all excited to see them since they're hot. haha. after 20 minutes of hell it was over. yuck!

i have two back to back exams tomorrow. i am royally screwed. my sister kept watching these addictive shows and i got sucked right into them, SIGH! it's 10:20 pm so the night is still fairly young.

titty bar

this weekend of no work has been eventful. let's recap :)

friday night:

• dinner at genki's with ally, darryl, and luke
• ala moana to get nestle tollhouse and st. germain's discount pastries, yikes!
• punahou carnival for a little while. failed miserably at the darts game -_-
• velvet's. we're not that great at pool, took us forever per game.

saturday night:

• starbucks with my coworker to wait for our dinner reservations
  
• dinner at gyu-kaku. never ate there before, but i loved it
• went to centerfolds (strip club). this one girl had the NICEST body i've ever seen in person. we were really jealous. also, it was my first time at a strip club, woohoo for that!!
  
• dave and busters. saw a former coworker and we talked stories.

both nights were extremely spontaneous but it was a lot of fun. it is now time to buckle down and study since i am actually behind in school. wednesday i have two back to back exams. save me @_@

whale watching

update: about an hour or two after jeannie and i left koko head, two men were stabbed on the top. that is SO scary to hear since it could've been one of us. maybe next time i go on koko head i will bring some weaponry for protection. i hope those two guys will be ok!

happy february!

i love akon's new song. it's called 'beautiful' and its conveniently located to the left of my blog for your listening pleasure :)

my sickness was apparently just a common cold. i went to the UH health center to find that i just needed to gargle salt water and keep taking my toothpaste tasting tylenol and ill be good as new. "that's it?!?!" was my only reaction. my illness is pretty much all gone already. so weird since the first half of this i thought being dead would be better than being so miserable and couple days later i was out and about.

while resting and being extremely lame on friday night, i spent almost two hours watching celebrities who have undergone plastic surgery. it seriously made me wanna get a boob job again. i just wanna fit into clothes and look pretty :( i went to pearlridge with gina, sunny, and ally on saturday and i tried on a bunch of low cut tops i wished i could fit. SIGH! its ok maybe i just gotta find an amazing bra.

jeannie and i climbed koko head today. it was great since we both had given up half way before and we motivated each other to finish. it was painful and grueling like the first time. up on top we could see whales breaching in the ocean. whale watching was something i've been wanting to do since i returned home from vegas. yay! i can't wait to go check them whales out again when they're more active or something.

shoot me now

UPDATE: from the information gathered from WebMD, i may have strep throat. how?!?!

my cold/flu hit me like a train outta nowhere. monday i had a slight sore throat and figured it was probably from the msg overload on sunday, fine whatevers. however, monday night during work i got extremely light headed and i felt like i was floating...now i know something is wrong. tuesday came and i was sick as a dog. headaches, sore throat, hypersensitivity. holy crap, i never even saw it coming! today im feeling slightly better but still pretty shitty. the weather hasn't been in my favor either. stupid cold front or whatevers.

school has been confusing. i don't know what's going on for majority of my classes, not good. i just realized that i completely forgot about my USAfunds scholarship. i hope i can get it done by the first of feb or goodbye $1500, ughhh! shame on me :/ i feel like i came to the end of the rope for phuket thai. i let that job run its course and i am getting this feeling that i should quit soon. i don't think my manager likes me very much anymore. i get that feeling like i'm just a waste of resources cuz i screw up so much. this is definitely NOT my month.

chinese new year

yay for chinese new years!

last night luke and i had a grand adventure checking out the festivities in chinatown. my soul mission was to feed a dragon some money and get luck for the rest of the year. it was crowded and definitely having your shoes untied in the middle of the road is NOT a good idea. oddly enough, there were only ONE group performing lion dance while we were there. good thing though since luke and i kinda knew one of the guys who did it from dorkestra days. i told him to do a little dance for me and he did. woot woot, am i blessed for the year?? i hope so since i gave that group $5! luke got devoured by the lion and he started to freak out haha. walked aroud some more and ended up in a smoothie place. it was pretty good :) the place is called summer frappe, check it out the review on yelp. dragon whisker candy...hmmm, looked tempting but not so much lol.

today (sunday) i went to a lunch with awesome food. now i am gonna head out to a dinner. damn, imma get chubs.

built up nothing

i wanna mention the awesome saturday i had. it started out with a simple lunch with sunny, gina, and mel. after lunch i met up with darryl, luke, and jerry. the boys went to curry house for lunch and i tagged along for my second lunch outing lol. after lunch we went to queen's beach park area where we flew kites and played frisbee. i was pretty tired out but we went to the aquarium since we were in the area! yeah the aquarium was a lot cooler way back when. don't think we stopped there! we went to ice garden to get some shave ice. darryl had to drive since i was too pooped to keep my eyeballs opened. great day :)

anyways, back to the built up nothing part of my post. remember my garden??? everytime i see this person and whatevers, i get all excited and giddy. well, the garden texted me and i literally bounced off the wall. i hung out with him for only about 30 minutes and that anticipation and longing to see him kinda just went kapoot. im gonna reference 40 year old virgin right now. i put this person on the pedastole and once i kinda got a hold of it, its pretty overrated. -_- and now it is an end of the math boy saga.

i've been playing super mario for the past two days almost nonstop. so addicting @_@
also i'm stuck in a rut in another situation. i was so determined to do one thing and circumstances suddenly changed and it made me like...."fuck, stop confuzzling me!" oh yeah, can someone go with me to chinatown this weekend?? i really wanna check out the chinese new years event.

idiot

i feel stupid. more should've been done than said. my talk is really cheap. i really really dislike you. why bother believing me when i may not mean what i say?

this weekend has been ridiculously long. friday school was canceled for an imaginary storm. today is now sunday and i am freakishly bored already. i should start doing some homework since i work tomorrow night. we'll see.

i booked my ticket for chicago a few minutes ago. i am really ready to go get off this rock but something doesnt quite feel right. well, no regrets and this is what i've been yearning to do for the past month or so.

pig out sesh

so today i literally ate food for three hours straight. ridiculous! i had a great time with jeannie though. anytime with this girl is awesome, whether we're dancing a storm at the club or eating like it was our last meal on earth. this was how our night went...

i rushed to finished my homework just to go cruise with her. i was craving korean bbq (actually the sides to be exact) so we went to peppa's. jeannie ordered mandoo and i ordered the seaweed soup. neither one of us finished our food so we packed it up and headed over to starbucks for our routine coffee talk. both of us ordered the tea latte. we took a walk over to phuket thai so she can meet what's his face. while we were there, jeannie wanted to get some dessert or something. got a huge order of blueberry ice cream for free. then jeannie wanted something to munch on so we ordered the crispy calamari. when we got our calamari, there was an extra order of panang curry so we got that as well. holy crap, i only took a small portion of the curry and passed it on to my other coworker who was eating there as well. we struggled to eat the calamari and fought even more to finish the ice cream.

omg, ate so much food and now im barely able to move. i had a great night and now im feelin' pretty good. it is what i needed after a whole week of emo-ness.

i'm leaving

very self explanatory.

on another note, i think i only find comfort in random people. though many people are here for me, i just dont always find that sense of comfort. it's nice and it doesnt have to do with the person but just some people are so maternal or something that i just get a lot more relaxed spending some time with these people. idk if this paragraph made sense but yeah. so for anyone reading this, keep doing what you do because i need you most right now.

poker

last night i played poker with some guys after work. their buy in was $40!!! wtf right?? that is a huge buy in and i only made about $80 at work earlier. i was really reluctant to play but i did anyways. i was on a losing streak for a little bit but somewhere in the middle i won a bunch of hands in a row. CHEEHEE! i was really proud of myself because normally i would have someone coaching me on how to play my hand but last night i was really independent. i told myself to stop while i'm ahead and buy out around 1:45 am. i definitely made my last hand count. it was an ace and a two. i got an ace on the flop. it was pretty good since i knew the other guy had nothing. i think i had a full house because there were three 8's or something. whatevers! i won back my $40 plus $6. not bad at all.

walking home from my car i got stopped by a homeless lady asking for money. i was a little scared since i was on the only one on the street and she was following me almost. since i don't like giving out money, i gave her my leftovers from work. i wish she seemed a little more grateful for it but that's fine. strangely enough, i didn't feel particularly charitable. oh wells.

insomniac

it is almost 4:30 AM and i just cannot fall asleep. it's been like this for the past few days now. too much has been on my mind and it is all too familiar. after experiencing this feeling so much, i wondering why i just can't get over it. i want school to start again so i can feel more productive and keep busy. why can't i be stronger? i know i shouldn't wait around for people to come around but i'm always in denial. maybe i should seek counseling again. gah! someone please just swoop me out of this misery. it's not the situation that drives me crazy, it's just myself. i want to go back to church again because i find myself praying less and less over the past few months.

God, i know you are listening to my prayers so why does this always happen to me? please be kind to me for 2009.

chopped and screwed

its only been a couple of days into the new year and i've already been broken. this is the worst winter break EVER.

the last couple of nights were fun though. drank a lot at sarah's little birthday party. felt sick practically the entire day. then yesterday carissa lee invited me to a party in ewa. im so glad i went since i met a lot of new ppl and it was exactly what i needed to do. drank some more there and tried smoking but that was a fail lol. good times.

hello 2009!

my new year's eve was certainly much more eventful than i have opted for. after work i picked up sarah and we went to a sports bar with some coworkers. there she got mad drunk. took her home and went cruising with my coworkers and i went to the moon...hell i was at jupiter already -_-. got home and passed the fuck out haha. didn't get to watch the sunrise as i wanted to since i was so buss and it was pouring rain. that's ok. but this is a time for resolutions and i will try my hardest to keep them.

my resolutions:

1. get in shape for the GAR and life
   
2. find a purpose for the run and make it liberating once again!
3. STOP finding loser guys. time to do some real gardening and weed out all the toxic people in my life.
   
4. get an internship
5. be a stronger person, physically, mentally, emotionally
6. try and enter for ms. Narcissus
7. decrease the smoking
8. do not be afraid

update: i tried climbing koko head by myself today. total failure since i turned around at the bridge haha. can't wait for sarah's party! yayayaya!!