insurance

i'm slowly getting a hang of enterprise but selling insurance is so damn hard. i don't wanna be a failure!! like, how do they expect me to be an excellent salesman within a month of working there?! frick, i only work there three times a week and i'm not a pushy person. whateverrrrs! i wanna quit phuket, but i always say that. i'm just so stressed out these days that i feel myself getting sick again, sigh. for school, i'm getting the the material a little more. i'm a fricken trooper. yes, i keep telling myself that.

let's talk parties. i hoping for this weekend to be bangin'. haha. black jack's tonight maybe and play bar tomorrow. cheee! i kinda wanna save myself for tomorrow because i'm small kine sick now and don't wanna ruin it yet. on tuesday, i went to my coworker's beach house in laie. i drove out there by myself at 11 PM. i left around 2 AM and was falling asleep on the road. NOT GOOD! it was super scary since i could've reered off into the ocean haha.

everyone asks me how i do it...working two jobs, taking a demanding summer school class, and juggling a social life. i guess i've always wanted someone to sympathize for me because i'm working so hard but now i realize i don't have that much to prove. i just gotta do what i gotta do.

on a gross note, i get like a new blister each day i work at enterprise. nasty and sore! :" (