i want you

so my sister is for real kine leaving for the army next week. i am honestly a little bit sad over it. my house and late night dining buddy is gonna be gone. who the hell is gonna look over my cat when i'm not around?!?! back in high school, during mr. coleman's class, i wrote a eulogy for her. it was the most depressing assignment i had done since we were doing death and dying. well, i wrote that she leave for the army to iraq and died when a mortar exploded when she was 22. gosh, i really hope this shit doesn't happen. although i'm a bitch to her a lot, i really do love her regardless of whether or not she loves me back. i especially feel bad for my mom since my sister refuses to tell my mom that she's leaving. well, i spilled the beans and my mom was in denial for awhile. i told my mom to keep it hush hush because my sister will go crazy if she found out i told. sigh..

well, i should be getting my car soon. this shit is driving me insane from all this waiting!
my cat is gonna get neutered next week and i hope that will calm him down!

on other news, idk how my future will be like by this coming summer. so much drama and uncertain situations are arising now. i'm scared and depressed. i believe it gets easier each time. whatevers, i will survive.