i always, always get sad during big celebrations such as my birthday, thanksgiving, and christmas. today is thanksgiving. i think not having a family to spend it with really sucks. it's just either me and my mom or me and my dad. as of a couple years ago, my mom has been out of the picture since she always work. what a lonely time. i guess what really got me going downhill was i went over to my dad's apartment after volunteering and was suppose to have lunch with him. instead, i ended up eating his kalua turkey meal from his meal-on-wheels program while he ate a can of pork and beans. it was just so depressing. of course, there are things i am thankful for regardless of the situation...
i am thankful for (in no particular order):
- my friends. they always have my back when i need them...most of the time :)
- my family even though they hate each other and i can barely remember the last time all four of us were together in the same room i still love them.
- my health and education
- my cat even though he's completely antisocial i know he cares about me deep down :D
PS: i think i just need a good cry to clear my mind. i feel much better now.
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